- Achievement seems to be connected with action. Successful men and women keep moving. They make mistakes, but they don't quit.
- ~Conrad Hilton ~
I am currently at the lowest point my life, the lowest point ever there is not even a room to go further down
and if i can plot a graph for what i am feeling right now, it might reach a negative infinity with no sign of stopping
i don't need an encouraging words nor supports from anyone
because words and support won't be able to solve my problem, won't be able to solve my algorithms
why it has to be so fucking hard?
why it has to be so damn complicated?
fine, i know there is always an answer to everything
but, i am at a deadend
i need a guidance and nobody is giving me that
my supervisor has been everything but helpful
all he keeps saying is.. "usaha sendiri, bace buku bla.. bla.. bla.."
for god sake, i have been reading books and journals and papers
i have downloaded as many papers as i can from the internet
i have been reading thousand times and i have scribbled on thousand papers
but i still don't know how to do it
i am still stuck and it is not even 1% of the whole project
how am i gonna finish everything in 3 bloody months?
i can't even sleep well at night because i know when i wake up i have wasted the day before doing nothing
and every time i open my eyes it brings me closer to april
i wish i can freeze the time but even if i can, there is nothing i can do
except to just stare blankly at the monitor or at the papers and scribble some crappy equations with an empty mind
i can't even sleep well at night because i know when i wake up i have wasted the day before doing nothing
and every time i open my eyes it brings me closer to april
i wish i can freeze the time but even if i can, there is nothing i can do
except to just stare blankly at the monitor or at the papers and scribble some crappy equations with an empty mind
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i need someone like dr. charlie eppes
2 comments:
Salam idya, sorry to hear you rasa crappy sgt with your masters project. I pun xtau nk tlg mcmana since i mmg forever suck at programming. Tp if u think it'll help, trylah discuss minta pendapat and guideline from some RA's i kenal at uniten. Maybe talking to them being in the same position at you helps better than talking to supervisor yg xhelp u much. Try get in touch with this girl, she's our junior and da byk progress with her masters project plus she's good at algorithm if xsalah.
Http://ikeenochi.blogspot.com ( or u can click her blog url from my bloglist)
mawar, thank u sooo much for the suggestion. actually, i did see some of the lecturers kt uniten. dr izham and dr tuan rashid and no doubt they were v. helpful but the problem is i am no longer working in uniten. so, i don't have times to see them and discussion over the phone is seemingly not possible for my case. i only have weekends and mcm tk possible la pulak nk see them time tu kn.
that is my biggest problem because i am terribly in need of a guidance..
but anyway, thank u for letting me know about the girl.. will try to contact her nnt.
thank u again mawar. u've been v. helpful.
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