a lesson well learnt

i was back in my hometown last weekend

my aunt and uncle will be performing haji this year so they organized a small kenduri

i arrived early even though the kenduri was only held after asar prayer

to help with the cooking and what not la konon nye

but ended up gossiping and chit-chatting with the aunties and cousins.. hehe

anyway, that is not the climax of the story.. :D

so, with the cooking of course there will be the eating part kn

i was so determined not to eat at the beginning

i managed not to for brunch

eventhough they served one of my favourite kuih i.e samosa or temosa.. i don't know.. it's the karipap lookalik but with ikan instead of potatoes

at that time, i preferred to settle for buah langsat instead

and then come lunch

ikan goreng, sayur lemak, SAMBAL and PUCUK UBI REBUS

it's been long since i last ate any truly kampung dishes

so the temptation was super hard to resist

i tried not to be anywhere near the serving table

but there i go, i obviously failed miserably

so i had a plate of pucuk ubi rebus and super spicy sambal and IKAN GORENG

i just didn't bother to count the calories i had consumed

and it did not just stop there

later, i treated myself with a few "pinches" of ayam goreng kfc

AND also, 3 ketuls of ayam masak lemak
AND 5 spoons of bubur kacang hijau with durian
AND seketul samosa

*mari bertepuk tangan*

and yesterday morning, my mother cooked a super delicious nasi goreng daging salai

and i happily ate half a pinggan.. yadaa2..

and for lunch, i ate another quarter pinggan of rice with sotong kunyit and sayur campur and masak lemak cili api ayam salai..

so, that was what happened during the weekend!

and i was so proud with myself for consuming an enormous amount of calories..

and today, the college is organizing a "gema raya"

i just don't bother to go down

because i have learnt my lesson the hard way

no matter how you try to forbid yourself not to eat

but with food, delicious food.. right in front of your eyes..

just 2-pembaris-panjang away from your mouth and 1-pembaris-pendek away from your hands konfem la fail punye.. wa cakap lu.. jusmate tu will be like thousand-miles-away from your thought

hehe..

so, moral of the stories..

kalau iman tu tk kuat, jangan la cuba untuk menggoda diri atau biar kn diri di goda

that goes not only to food, but other things in life as well, right? or right? :)

weight scale

my husband was on mc yesterday
he wasn't until he went to the clinic in front of his office 5 minutes before he should clock-in
so, instead of going straight home
i dragged him to giant because i desperately needed to weigh myself
lagipun, i needed to restock our mineral water
so, off to giant we were


sampai2 je, we went straight ahead looking for weight scale
true they said, when you are in need of something, you will never find it
so, pusing2 finally we found one next to a jewellery store
being so eager, i quickly dropped the coin inside the slot
and wahlaaaa.. the numbers on the screen really2 surprised me.. 
i lost THREE kgs.. and that was within 4 days only..
i was so happy i couldn't stop smiling
and then, dengan super happy nye
we went to do our grocery shopping in the giant
seriously i was really amazed with myself.. hahahaha..
everytime i picked on something
the first thing that i would look was the "total calories"
hahaha.. imagine okkay..
i checked every types of tuna they have on the rack
and trust me people ayam brand chunks tuna in water has the lowest calories
i.e. only 44kcal per serving
so, if u eat it with one piece of wholegrain fibremeal which is 63kcal
you will only consume 107kcal.. 
and 2 pieces per morning is more than enough to keep you full until lunch


so, after doing the shopping, tibe2 saket perut.. nature calls
i rushed to toilet and i told husband i wanted to weigh myself again
hahaha.. bajet konon akan turun lagi la berat kn..
but u know whaaaatt?
i gained another 2 kgs instead...!!
so now, whether the weight scale tu yang rosak
or i am myself in a big trouble..
anyway, i asked my husband to weigh himself
and taraaaa.. 2kgs extra than his original weight
so, i concluded that the weight scale was indeed rosak
and i chose the first reading.. yay!


and now, i am truly happy with the result
i hope i can reach my target by 2 months! 
weeeeeeee.. :D

surprise

i was ym-ing with my brother
when he told me that our mother wanted to buy me a JUS MATE 5!
u see..!!!
my mother has never ever in my life bought such products for me
or even encouraged me to buy one
but this time around she herself wanted to get it for me
must have been because i am wayy too FAT in her eyes (even in anyone else's eyes also)
huhuhu..
but then, my brother spoilt the good news by telling mother that i have already bought it
alar.. kalau tk dh ade sponsor.. hehehe

but i am still very surprised to hear that..
hehehe.. funny2..
poor mother.. she must have been worried seeing me gaining so much weight
she must be afraid her only daughter might turn into a giant monster in no time.. lol..


anyway, my diet is going ok so far
i salute dr.rozmey despite his bad taste in hair style (sorry doktor!hehe)
but he has really invented such a good product
*keep up the good work*
and another good news is
beside losing weight, the drink also works as "ubat subur"..
if you search on the internet, there will be an article saying that if you are planning to get pregnant, drink jus mate, it helps but of course once you know you are pregnant, you have to stop taking it.. because dieting is not good for the baby right..

so i do really hope i can kill two birds with one stone
eventhough, i am looking forward to having this drink for another two months
but i am still hoping i can get pregnant as soon as possible

btw, i haven't weighed myself yet
it has been four days and honestly, i do feel a little different
i can fit into my baju kurung moden better
but lets not put too much hope first
afraid that the result won't turn out as what i expected it to be
but, i will do just fine with 2 or 3 kgs.. lol

yellow pages

my aunty called me the other day asking for a favor
her daughter will be doing her internship in shah alam, very near to my place before
so, she called to ask whether i can help to find a place for my cousin to stay
and Alhamdulillah, i have already found a room for her to rent

and this morning, my cousin smsed me 
her friends, who will also be doing internship at the same company as hers need a place to stay
if possible, somewhere near the office which is apparently near to my cousin's soon-to-be place lah kan
and Alhamdullilah, again, i managed to get them a nice apartment 


and a few hours ago, i got an sms from a friend of mine
asking for my suggestion on restaurants to celebrate her bf's birthday well, i suggested a few places based on my very little knowledge on restaurants and hope she likes it 
(but babe, i have a few more ideas for a romantic dinner if you don't agree with the ones i gave you earlier.. :))


and not to mention calls or sms asking for direction before.. hehe..
talk about being a human version of yellow pages? weeeeeee.. :D

well, lets just say that i enjoy myself doing things like that
i may not be able to offer my help to the earthquake victims, be a volunteer for mercy or anything but, 
i am just glad that i can still offer my help to my friends and those people in need, even if it means very little to them

baby

the photo was taken by atie/shaxu on the day we visited lin's new-born baby, aqif
i put up the photo as my display image on yahoo messenger
and boy, the photo has surely caught many people's attention
especially those whom i have lost contacted with for so long.. :)

anyway, back to baby aqif
all this while i have this kinda fear towards new-born baby
i never hold them in my hands if i know they are like 2 or 3 months old
i just can't for i am afraid i would break them
they just look so fragile
but, not with baby aqif
a motherly conscience really kicked in the moment i hold him
perhaps because it's a sign from God that i am ready to become a mummy
hehe..


but, seriously i am prepared to be one
in fact, i can't wait to have one
it's just that our time has not come yet :)
i really envy those young mothers with baby
i don't know why
they do look cool, kan?

like they said on E!
baby is the new accessories in Hollywood

another day 1

hehehe..
i lost 1.5 kg last week
itu pn kalau weight scale tu tk menipu la.. lol

and yesterday, finally..
setelah berfikir super panjang
i decided to get myself that jusmate 5
huhu
itu pn after my sister in law's colleague has successfully lost 14kgs within 2 weeks! :D
at first, i was reluctant jugak
because i've tried herbalife before and it didn't work at all
i lost 0 kgs but gained 2 kgs instead.. :(
plus, i've not seen real life nye result
i mean, i have heard of people taking herbalife and turun ber puluh2 kg
but none actually happened to my close friends or relatives

so, this time around..
i am really2 positive to try
and hopefully i can lose some kgs at least,
i am aiming for 23kgs.. in a few months of course
i am not sure whether i will succeed or not
but let's just try
alang2 wa tk mkn pape ni kn..
hehehe..

oh, btw, to ensure the effectiveness of this jus mate 5
one has to consume not more than 1000 kcal per day
and yes, starting from today i'll be counting my kcal intake :)

| Day 2 |

ok, so i cheated yesterday
tipu sunat
hehehe
i was browsing through the cabbage soup recipe
and it was.. err.. pretty menyusahkn
the cooking itself takes 2 hours
and i need to go to giant to get all the ingredients
by the time i reach home it's already 8
and by the time i finish cooking it's already 10
so, setelah ditimbang2 dan difikir2
i settled for wholegrain fibremeal and a low fat tuna in water instead
hehehehehe

and today i had the same menu for breakfast
2 pieces of roti and tuna
and one bottle of mineral water up to now

ok fine, i did cheat again just now
we had another jamuan raya today
so i ate 2 small pieces of ayam masak merah
but i successfully resisted the temptation of eating the nasi tomato!
so, congratulations to myself
yeehaaa..

looking forward for another daysss to come

| Day 1 |

i am doing okkay so far
in fact, i did some running in the rain just now
and glad to be arrived safely in my room without passing out
hehehe

anyway, i have had 3 pears since morning
and i ran outta it now
wonder how will i survive until evening without any fruits
but i still have a bottle of mineral water
only manage to finish half until now
so i guess, i will just make do of what i have now
u know, as they say, if you are hungry, drink water
it helps to make you kenyang, kot..
but Alhamdulillah, i don't feel stressed or anything
at least, until now

i think it is all about your mind, right
ok, i know i am not in the position to say anything right now
given that it is my very FIRST day but then i guess
it is true.. it is all about our mind..
this morning, i had two of my colleagues eating nasi lemak in front of me
the smell of it.. malas nk cakap la sedap nye kn..
but then i tried to divert my attention
rather than imagining how delicious and mouth-watering the food is
and it worked! yes, it worked!
i forgot about the nasi lemak and the temptation
so, whenever u feel hungry, just think of something else
easy breezy right.. hahahahah..
kononnnn!

i have another 9 hours before i go to sleep tonight
and tomorrow is day-2
no fruits at all but only vegetables
yay! i love veggies..

...too heavy

right after i wrote the previous entry
i feel a sudden urge to lose weight
i calculated my BMI and i am already overweight
yes, u heard me right
not moderately overweight but OVERWEIGHT!
i am supposed to lose freaking 13 - 15 kgs to get my ideal weight again!!!!!
seriously, i almost cry okkay..!!!
i am too heavy.. and too fat
i can hardly fit my jeans anymore
even to wear my baju kurung is a struggle nowadays
can it be worse?
damnnnn ittt.. okkay.. seriously dammmnnn it..

from what i've read..
one of the tips to lose weigh is to go public
to announce to your friends and family that you want to go on a diet
so, here i am..
sangat2 determined to lose weight
not for outer beauty only tp for my health
i think, with my current diet,
in no time, i can have a diabetes or high cholesterol kot..
or perhaps, i already have tp tk tau (god forbids!)
because i get tired easily lately.. huwaaaa..

anyway, anyway, back to my plan..

so, tomorrow will be my day-1 of my 7-days
i will only drink water and eat fruits ONLY
yes, ONLY..
and i will blog about it.. even if i cheat..
so, insyaAllah that will motivate me..

my diet will be a 7-days diet
and then from day 8 onwards
i will switch to healthy diet
i.e. to stay away from rice but eat fruits and only white meat

please2 help me..
please2 support me.. :(

ti-yus-dei

i passed my project presentation with flying kah-lerss
at least, that was what i told myself the moment it was over.. hehe
but anyway, it only contributes 30% to the whole mark
another 70% will come from the report
which seems to be the hardest part
since i can only focus and write in peace when i am at home.. hmmm..

***
anyway, last weekend, i bumped into an old friend of mine in the elevator
among all of my friends back in Uniten
this person is definitely the last person on earth i thought i would meet in Utm
doing master some more.. hahaha
but it was of course great seeing him again
but the not so great part is.. he's wayyyy slimmer to be the old him..
yes, hidir is now way slimmer, okkay
and when i asked him "wassup beb.. cmne bleh kurus ni.. mcm tk caye je"
he replied.. "ape lak.. kau la sumber inspirasi aku kt uniten dulu.."
boleh tk..??????????????
that wasn't the first time someone told me the same thing okkay
isn't it embarassing when someone look up to u in something
only at the end of the day they did much better than u

ahhh..
if only i can turn back time
if only i can lose 12kgs in 2 weeks
if only i can have my 51-kg weight again
if only i can wear size s again..

god,
i seriously need to lose weight!
as in, pronto!
i have been gaining an extra 4 kgs after the wedding
i thought the husband should be gaining more
ini tidak adil.. huhuhu..