going back 10 years ago,
abang saw a picture of my tkc friends..
there was this one girl that caught his eyes
her name is fazlin and according to him..
she was the cutest among all.. :)

>>>fast forward to 2008

abang, whose name is ijad will be getting married to the love of his life, fazlin..
and fazlin will be getting married to the love of her life,ijat..
hehehehe...
what a coincidence kn?!!

and.. guess what..?!
lin&ijat will get married on dec 25..
while abang&lin will get married on dec 27..!
again..
what a coincidence..

hehehehe..

my day started with a pretty good news..~!

airasia is now flying to LONDON..!!!!
yes.. LONDON.. finally... hehehe..
since abang has promised me to sponsor free tix to any airasia destinations for my honeymoon..
therefore, i am putting soOOooooo much hope that abang will fly airasiaX by next year
(he got free tix only for the destination that he flies to..)
"in your dream.." says abang nanti.. hahahaha..
anyway, there is no harm in hoping kn.. :p

oh..! there are just too many good things that come along with the london news..
i just can't wait to go to sheffield..!
i know my fiance misses his good old times there
since he keeps mentioning about it nowadays.. heh..

and now i think i'm quite sure where to sambung my phd
insyaAllah.. amin.. :)

to buy or not to buy..

we have started hunting for a place to stay after getting married..
we are actually considering to buy a house rather than renting since looking at the rental price..
might as well, spend a li'l bit more and beli je trus kn.. hmmm..
but the problem now is.. where and where and where?!

i have surveyed some high-rise properties in pj area..
demmm.. it's uber-expensive..
no doubt the place is strategically located..
very near to his workplace and just a few minutes drive away from mine..
but, to spend that much moolahh.. i don't think so..

the oneS that we kiv-ed for now are located in shah alam..
one is not a very nice design but it is stated there.."an exclusive service apartment.."
(by looking at it, i seriously doubt that actually..hehehe..)
but anywhere, it is very conveniently located next to federal highway
very2 close to my office i can even opt to walk if i'm desperately in need of some excersice (which again, i doubt! hehe)
and the other one is also located next to federal highway but on the other side from the former..
we both love the design.. the price is okkay
BUT!!! the entrance is right in front of TWO cemeteries (malay & indian)
whoaaaa.. wut a good combination of ghosts i might encounter..
hahahahaha...
so now, we are still undecided about which one to buy (or rent!)
i prefer the former actually
tho it is a bit biasa, but the offer price is quite okkay
abang said it is quite small.. 928 square feet..
but, where to get a property located right in the center of shah alam with that kinda price
unless we are willing to wake up at 5 am every morning to go to work
then we might consider buying a house in puncak alam.. hehehehe..

anyway, we still have a few months to go before having some serious thinking..
but i just cant wait to have a place of our own
cant wait to get my magic touch on the interior designing.. hehehe..
cant wait to invite my friends for tea or dinner.. etc.. etc..
hehehe.. jauh sungguh berangan.. :p

Oh
Ku cinta dirimu
Ku ingin pelukmu
Tiada yang lain

Oh
Hanya kau ku cinta
Dan ingin bersama
Kau lah hatiku(

Bila engkau tiada
Diriku rindu benar hatiku
Setiap detik ku rasa
Ku dalam kesepian
Walau apapun rintangan
Yang halang ku tentang
Dengan tenang
Tapi yang pasti
Kau kan jadi milikku

Oh
Apapun terjadi
Ku ada disini
Menemanimu

Oh
Ingin aku kata
Aku cinta dia
Sungguh benar kataku
Aku mencintaimu

Ku sangat sayang mu
Takkan lepaskan mu
Walau seribu tahun kita
Hidup bersama

Dan sungguh akan Kami berikan cobaan kepadamu, dengan sedikit ketakutan, kelaparan, kekurangan harta, jiwa dan buah-buahan. Dan berikanlah berita gembira kepada orang-orang yang sabar.

(Al-Baqarah: 155)

InsyaAllah we will make it tru together bebi :)
here quote from King Arthur movie ""There is no worse death than the end of hope."

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Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah..
Allah has really2 made things easy for us
he nailed the interview and secured himself the job!
sesungguhnya Allah dah makbul kan doa and murah kan rezeki kami berdua.. =)
so sayang, good luck and all the best
hope u'll be doing great at ur new place
and i'm hoping that my interview this morning went well too..
*fingers crossed*
really looking forward to working in a better environment..
with a much-better pay..! :p

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we've found the best butik pengantin..(so far!!)
and i fell in love with the baju right away
and glad that mak likes it too as well.. =)
it's not gonna be in the color i initially wanted
but hey, the design blinded me.. ahaaa...
so, baju sanding for my side.. check!

and for his side, we've kiv-ed a few..
i like this one package but need to seek his opinion first on that one
since it doesnt come in the color that he wanted..
but anyway, it aint gonna be a big prob i guess..
because he likes what i like.. :p

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accompanied abang and mak to jln tar for abang's wedding preparations
demmm.. i almost fainted seeing abang spent more than 1k on the small little2 thingy..
i am soOOoooo not willing to pay that amount in one shot...!
i know i shud have started buying all those bunga telur and etc..etc..
demmmm.....

pernahkah selama ini
ku berhenti mencintaimu
pernahkah kau mendengar
ku tak ucap sayang padamu

di setiap getar jantung
ku selalu sebutkan namamu
cintamu tlah membuat hatiku
terukir jelas dirimu

reff: engkaulah jiwaku
engkaulah mimpiku
kaulah separuh dari hidupku
hanyalah dirimu
yg membuat segalanya indah

bilakah yg kurasa
semua itu akan abadi
kan kulakukan segalanya
agar ku dapat cintamu

repeat reff

reff2: ku sayang dirimu
ku jaga hatimu
di sini tempatmu di sisiku
tetap ku terjaga
dalam tidurku memikirkanmu

we went shopping for baju nikah yesterday
and found the one i've been eyeing for since forever.. :p
exactly what i need.. simple, sweet, and elegant..
i had doubt earlier whether to go with a ready-made material or
buy a plain satin and tempah beading kt tailor
but taking into account the cost and the design and etcetera
therefore i decided to go with the ready-made material
and worry no more about the design.. yay.. =)
and i know with mom's experiences, the baju will turn out superbly nice..
insyaAllah..

and as for his,
we've picked the tailor
but since the majlis is a few months away
and he's pretty confident that he can gain lotsa weights before the wedding
therefore, we gonna wait till nx year.. =)

this raya certainly leaves a memorable experience to both of us
as it is the last raya celebration before we both embark on the new journey
(and the last balik-kampung drive alone~! hehehe..)
next time, i am so gonna cherish the drive home
because someone else will be driving and suffer the torture of the horrendous traffic jam.. :p
and i've sumhow made him promised that we gonna FLY back to klntn during raye
yes, FLY not DRIVE.. (kan syg?hehehe.. :p..)

anyway, im really2 surprised to know that this blog has visitors
thank you guys for dropping by
and to knits;
well, the photographer is a very2 good friend of mine actually
thats why i can paksa him giving the discounted price.. :p

as for wedding preparations..
we've almost completed all the hantaran
Alhamdulillah, Allah murah kan rezeki so far :)

this song reminds me of you =) love u

I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)

off the beaten path..

perhaps, i should get my own personal blog therefore i dont have to spoil this happy-clappy blog.. i mean, this blog is not created to have a sense of negativities in it, it shud be about happy stuffs, it is about wedding, a heavenly journey of life.. demm, i dont know what im babbling about.. oh crappy crapp..

anyhoo, since i'm a little bit upset today so i need to get wutever shitty outta my system.. i'm not gonna point my finger to anyone, so lets just say i'm fed-up with certain people around me.. u see, my philosophy is super simple.. don't do to me what you don't want me to do unto you.. i'm so happy with my life.. i've got super loving family and i'm more than thankful to have such a great circle of close friends around me.. and when i'm talking about friends, i'm referring to those bunch of crazy people (opsss.. hehe..).. those are a few people that i consider my true friends, my pillar of strenghts, who have been around me thru my ups and downs, my thick and thin..

ive been getting the same response when i ask "what do you think the first time you see me".. they say i'm sombong, i have a look that tells i dont care about what goes around me.. well, yes, admittedly.. i never put up a friendly face around strangers.. and that's because i build a freaking wall surrounds me.. reason being, i already have my circle of friends and after going thru a lot of bullshitesssness with new friends, i think it's not too much to say that i dont really need new friends in my life.. especially, those who are taking advantages on me.. if u wanna be my friend, fine.. be my friend but dun expect too much from me and please know that there's always a line that u shudn't cross..

honestly, i'm softhearted (most of the times).. saying no is never easy for me.. that simple 2-alphabets word never seems to flow outta my mouth as easy as saying YES.. which, i myself dont know why.. and that answers why i usually let people take advantages on me.. but then again, fine.. i dont really mind.. i assume that anything i do is some sorta "charity" wutever.. and i never asked for anything in return.. appreciation and thank-yous are more than enuff..

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sighh.. i've a lot more to write, but i guess if i were to let everything outta my mind, a blog wudnt be enuff.. i need a bigger space.. a 100-pages book, perhaps..
crapppssss...

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we bought another item yesterday..:)
belt+wallet for him.. and a super-duper comfy sandals for me..
yeahhh, i prefer sandals rather than shoes..
to me (and him as well!), it's not about what looks good or expensive on the hantaran
but about whether its worthy or not..
it's no use buying a stilleto just for the sake of looking cantik but never wear it at the end of the day, rite???
rite.. :)

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see, I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If You only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
and brightened my day
Who'd've believe that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know
I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything

I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I"m going through
I just can't smile

Now some people say
happiness takes so very long to find
Well I'm finding it hard
leaving your love behind me

And you see
I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If You only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

p/s: sweetheart, can this be our wedding song?? :p

10 Commandments for a Happy Marriage :)
to share with you bebi bee ;)



1. Thou shalt not live in a bubble. Sometimes love is such a whirlwind of crazy joy that you forget that there are other people, things, and activities in the world besides the two of you. While this is understandable, you have to have outlets, otherwise you'll drive each other bonkers. Before you met Your Guy, you were always getting together with your gaggle of female friends, hanging out with your family, putting in extra time at the office, saving the world at the local shelter, or taking a few classes to keep expanding your brain. Don't stop. Just because you are Mr. and Mrs. So-and-So doesn't mean you have to be attached at the hip and forget about everything else. Your marriage will be a lot more interesting if you keep on being the fascinating gal you were before he met you. You'll also have a lot more to talk about over dinner. (yuppp, very true..)

2. Thou shalt respect all forms of life, not just married life. Life becomes awfully narrow when your social life revolves exclusively around other couples. One too many brunches spent talking about the real estate market will make you think you've died and gone to married hell. One benefit of your wedding was that you had the chance to introduce all of your previously separate social circles to one another. So once you're wed, keep mixing things up: his friends and your friends, work friends and school friends, neighbors and family, old friends and brand-new acquaintances, singletons and smug marrieds, parents of twins and the child-free. (indeed)

3. Don't worry. You've still got it. When you were single, you met cute guys everywhere -- at the laundromat, on the subway, at funerals. Once you're hitched, it's easy to miss the buzz of universal male admiring attention. But unless you're a movie star and you absolutely have to look lustily at other men because it's your job, don't go batting those eyelashes at anyone but your beloved. Don't worry, you still have the power. You've just got to take it on faith instead of soliciting daily proof. (errr..)

4. Honor thy mother-in-law and father-in-law. Your in-laws may be incredible bores, gossipy and nosy, or so tacky and embarrassing you want to hide under your turtleneck when you're out with them. Whatever type you've inherited, welcome them with open arms whenever you see them. No matter what you think of them, remember that they are responsible for raising your terrific husband. Even if you really believe that he only turned out normal due to some sort of divine intervention (think Marilyn on The Munsters), give them the credit. So listen to your father-in-law drone on and on about weird weather patterns and act riveted. Eat your mother-in-law's scary meatloaf (even if you prefer things green) and don't forget to ask for seconds.(okkay..)

5. Thou shalt not even bother trying to keep up with the Joneses. Let's get things straight. There will always be a couple that is funnier, more attractive, sexier, wealthier, nicer, hipper, healthier, smarter, more successful, and more glamorous than you two. Got it? Even if you are the grooviest couple in the room at one party, you won't be at the next. If you are constantly comparing yourself to other couples (some of whom you will find out later were just faking it on the road to divorce court), you will miss out on enjoying how happy you are just being yourselves. (hmmm.. definitely!)

6. Fight a clean fight. When you were dating and you got into a spat you may have found that slamming doors, crying and racing back to your apartment were effective tools in winning an argument. He/she would be so lost without you that he/she would come running over and say he/she was sorry. Well, I hate to break it to you, but the tactic is not going to work now that you are married and living together. You're a lot better off staying calm and staying put to solve a tiff. Fight a clean fight and you are guaranteed at least that he'll listen to your point of view. Winning is up to you. (alriteyyy..)

7. Be a team. While you are both successful, independent people, don't forget to cheer each other on, support each other's crazy dreams, and encourage each other to live your best lives. If he's up for a promotion, become best friends with his boss at the office Christmas party. If he's/she's always wanted to ride in the Tour de France, buy two tickets to Paris to see it up close. Lousy day for him/her? Treat him/her and his/her buddies to an after-work gripe session at the corner pub. On the days where your star is shining and his isn't, make sure to pass him/her the winning shot. In a mean and crazy world isn't it nice to know you always have someone on your side? (true.. true..)

8. Be fabulous. Be comfortable being unconventional, glamorous, or unique. You don't have to become June Cleaver now that you're hitched. Who cares if you guys like to have the Christmas ornaments up in June, don't have matching silverware, or prefer Pabst Blue Ribbon to a fine vintage? Let your hair down. You've found someone who loves you, warts and all, so be the marvelous off-beat woman that he fell in love with and never try to be some cookie-cutter Mrs. (hehee..)

9. Be romantic. Sounds crazy but sometimes it's easy to forget what got you married in the first place. Don't stop being romantic, sexy, creative, impulsive, spontaneous, and crazy in love now that it seems easier to rent a video and order takeout. Take tango lessons, get season tickets to the ballet or hockey, go ice-skating hand-in-hand, and let him pick you up for a date. Don't be afraid to be unabashedly Hallmark-card cheesy and profess your love. Whatever it was that got you thinking he was the man for you, keep doing it. Most important, don't ever forget the power of an unexpected drop-everything smooch. (*wink*)

10. Be thankful for your guy. There are times when married life will make you think back to your sensational single days with longing and alarm. You were Mary Tyler Moore, for God's sake, what made you think you wanted to be Edith Bunker? When the love of your life is driving you bananas, it is time to remember how sexy/suave/smart/sensitive/studly your man was the night you first decided that he was IT. Remember how lucky you are to have someone who puts up with all of your nonsense. If through everything, you remember to be grateful for landing the most wonderful man on the planet, your marriage will reflect that, every day. (yay!!!!)

wedding favors - partly-checked!


well, we have both agreed on the wedding favors but no confirmation yet as we have to refer to our parents first :)

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we had a little family get-together last night at sate kajang hj samuri
the treat was on mama (his mother) & everyone was there
abah & mama, adik, abg nan + k.ros, him + me, kakak + pokman, k.cik + taufek
it was actually some sorta farewell dinner for pokman (his adik-in-laws) who will be flying back to miri (or bintulu, luperrr.. hehe)
he's gonna be on the ship (or vessel or wutever they call it..:p..) for 2 months and will only come back in Ramadhan
poor kakak (his sister).. hehe..
both are still on honeymoon and worst, she's 3 weeks pregger.. :)
and yupp talk about preggers..
kak ros (his kakak-in-laws) is also pregnant
hence, the dinner was also a celebration for the eagerly-anticipated little babies.. :)
the crowd was superbly nice and i had a terrific time mingling around with my future in-laws..
hehehe...

photographer - checked!
omg, Alhamdulillah
we cudnt thank him enuff for being super duper generous
for a price of 1/3 the market price (!!)
we'll be getting both sides covered + outdoor photography + sticky album with 200 photos!
thanx dude.. we owe u big time.. :)
and i've officially appointed ms ketut to be our special PA..?!!.. hehehe
dudette, u have like 11 months to do ur research mmkay
and it is very much appreciated if u do not seek help from ms. jolie..
miahahahaha... peace jolie-f**k-me-lips

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12 july marks the beginning point of my 2-years journey without weekendS..
and for this semester, i'm taking up 4 subjects (8 cred hours)
which means, there will be 4 exams 4 months from now..
whoaaaa...!

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and that's another reason why i have to plan early for the wedding.. :)

our songs

David Cook - TIme of My Life




Titi DJ - Separuh Hidupku



Lifehouse - You and Me (Acoustic)



Hinder - Lips of Angel



Chris Daughtry - What About Now



Velvet Revolver - Falling Pieces

yesterday was our 'first' date after we were officially engaged.. :)
the initial plan was to catch a movie at pyramid
but having reached TGV and witnessing a very long queue ahead
we decided to just loiter around the shopping mall..
it's carnival sale, anyway.. hehehe..

and what was supposed to be "just window-shoppp je k.."
ended up with two very worth-buying items.. :p
but then, as we had both agreed on earlier,
those two items will be our hantaran,
therefore, i cant pakai the handbag.. uwaaaaaa..!!

so, one item down for me, and one item down for him.. :)
yeahh, it's a long wayyy to go
but witnessing a numbers of pre-wedding preparations before
we really2 do not want to suffer from last-minute preparations and what not
i personally have witnessed the most crucial period-2 or 3 months prior to wedding ceremony
those few months before embarking the journey together but those few months la couple paling banyak bergaduh.. :)

that's why we both decide to plan early
12-months is not really a long period actually, anyway.. :)

"You have to walk carefully in the beginning of love; the running across fields into your lover's arms can only come later when you're sure they won't laugh if you trip.."

~Jonathan Carroll, "Outside the Dog Museum"~