positive! yes, positive!

i am feeling rather positive today
no, i am not pregnant, yet
the test gave me a negative result last night
yes, i was impatient, very in fact, that was why i cheated
i tested a day before my period is due
but it is written on the box that i can test at least 3 days earlier
so, i think the result was valid
i am not pregnant
so, perhaps i will be getting my period either today or tomorrow

back to the story
why am i being very positive today?
no, not because my project report is done
i am still stuck with the simulation
and still have no idea where i am heading to

and definitely not because my assignment is done
i still have 7 questions to solve
and still have 2 chapters to revise before my test this Sunday
so, what makes me very positive today?
hehe..

it is the cars! the cars that i saw at the staff parking lot today
funny eh?
but seriously, seeing those cars somehow rises up my spirit
one is a blue convertible compressor (izzit?!) that belongs to a very2 young DR
another one is a blue audi that belongs to a 34-years old Associate Professor
another one is a gold civic that belongs to a very young, very pretty, very2 intelligent lecturer
another one is a silver mazda RX* (i forgot the model) that belongs to a very young DR as well

realize something?
the emphasize on the luxury cars AND the title?
i don't really bother about the luxury car actually (tho i have been talking about cars! demm)
but i do bother about the TITLE!
yes i am freaking jealous to see people getting a PhD at a very young age!
how on earth they do it?
getting a PhD before the age of 30 and yet still enjoying their life?
that is what i call a perfect life.. very2 perfecto!

and here i am, full with spirits but in the midst of writing a blog
instead of completing my work and assignment!
lalalala..
anyway, i am 26 and will be finishing my masters next year, at the age of 27
so i STILL have time like 3 years before i turn 30
hence, i still have time to make my dream comes true
i.e. to get a PhD by the age of 30
or if i cannot get it in 3 years time
i hope i will be on my way, at least
so, yes.. now i have a reason to live
now i have a reason to wake up every morning

i will be getting my PhD before i turn 30
i will, and i WILL
if those people can do it, why CAN'T i, right?!
i have the brain.. i know it.. i am not showing off
but i know i have the brain
i know if i set my mind to do something, i will do it
i am just lack of motivation and lately i keep losing focus
that is why..
so now, i have the motivation and am trying hard to focus
so, please pray for me people..
please pray hard for me..
thank you..

p/s: congrats AIDELIA SHAUKI for officially becoming an ACCA affiliate today (after yearsssss of trying! hehe..)