biggest mistake

i have just realized that through out my 26 years of living, i've wasted at least 3 biggest opportunities in my life. at the moment it happened, i never thot i was wrong, i was so happy i made the decision, but as i go along, and look back, i have to admit that i'm regretting every single moment of it.

1. for not furthering my studies in UTP.

2. for rejecting the scholarship from MALAKOFF. one of the highest paid organization in power industry. yes, i was among the only 4 students in the whole uniten to be offered the scholarship and i DECLINED! the HR called me twice to confirm and i was so firm with my decision at that time. stupid eh?! if i just accepted the offer, i am pretty sure that by now, i can drive one of my dream car.. :(

3. for rejecting the PTD offer. everyone wants it so badly, some even go for the exam several times. but me? i only took the exam ONE time, i passed the assessment ONE time, only the interview, i had to go two times.. but still, i got accepted.. but being very stupid i DECLINED! why? because i thot i was sOoo good.. i thot i have sacrificed so much to get my engineering degree and to end up working in admin environment is so not worth it.. that was what i think at thaaaaat very moment.. and now i regret it.. what's wrong with working in admin when the pay is good, right.. what is wrong with working in any area not-related to your degree? the only thing that is wrong is ME.. yes, it's ME..

i keep making wrong decisions and regretting each one if it.. i think that is why Allah took back my rezeki.. because He gave me so much and i never took it.. so He took back all i have in order to give me a lesson.. :(

how do i redeem myself back..?