tolong saye

currently, there are two things that constantly conquer every single corner of my mind 1) giving birth, and 2) ou.twar.d bo.un.d mal.ay.sia (O.BeeM)

i talked about giving birth in my previous entry and now i wanna talk about the fear of going for the o.bee.m.. huhu

apparently, attending one is a must in t.en.bi which determines whether u'll be a confirmed staff or not.. it's written in the agreement so there is no way u can run away from it.. since i am pregnant therefore i couldnt join my pep35 last time.. i was a little bit frustrated actually because the programme duration is 15 days in which u totally have no contact with the outside world, no handphone whatsoever.. so if u happen to go with ur own batch at least u know u r surrounded with familiar faces which seemingly doesn't apply to me now.. and the activities are very2 physically and mentally challenging to the extreme therefore those who just give birth are also not allowed to go (there was one case where this one lady who just had a c-sect accidentally "terbukak jahitan" due to the extreme activities.. uhuhhhhh..) hence, what i am trying to say here is, it might take me another one year before i can go for the o.bee.m

this is how the khemah looks like.. gilo apo.. kiri kanan terbukak.. adoiiii

pic taken from here

ok, and talking about the extreme activities whatever.. i think i am ok with the physically challenging one.. i mean, i can at least build up my stamina or worst come to worst i can just pengsan or sumthing.. but the most not-so-interesting part is the 3 days 2 nights solo camping in the middle of the hutan!! oooo myyyy godddd okkay.. as in seriously omigawd!! what am i gonna do alone in the middle of a jungle!! and listening to the stories is not helping at all.. totally not.. what with the "pakcik tua kejut tgh mlm and say anak boleh tidor tempat lain? sini kubur".. oh shyteeee.. and what with perempuan baju putih jalan2 sekeliling khemah and endless storiessssssssssssssssss... seriously i almost pee in my seluar dalam right now.. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. how do u prepare urself for things like this aa? i know it's not too late to hafal surah yasin given one year time but it won't be enuff.. being afraid is not the way to survive but tell me how on earth do u deal with this.. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lagi.. :((((( 

whoaaaa

MYR1,688.00
MYR1,886.00
SAVE MYR198.00

why o why it has to be thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat expensive?

anyone can get it cheaper? 

please please let me know..

saya pengecut

tiada keje maka mencari pekerjaan
adalah gatal
sedikit menyesal tapi macam mmg patut tahu pun
it's just a matter of time anyway

aihhh..

giving birth is seriously a scarrrrryyyy marrryyyyyyy thing!
like seriously, no kidding
i am so determined to have a normal delivery
but reading those stories makes me think twice, triple, juta2 kali...

alamakkkkk!

i think i might be ok with the pushing part
but i can't imagine the jahit part
sulam renda? tknk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cmne nih?
iskkkk...

tapi kalau org lain boleh kenape saye tk boleh?
mak lahirkan saye kt umah lagi
for sure tkde bius, laughing gas ke ape jadah kn?

tapi, masih takuttttttttttttttttttttt!
ooemmmji..
*nanges*

the summary

1. family trip to Jakarta-Bandung was awesome. din buy much since i din bring any rupiah. i was fully dependent on dear husband but anyway, he managed to get me 4 maternity dresses.. :).. 4 visits to bandung, i ended up being the penunjuk jalan to the driver. hehe. he was a new driver from jakarta. "vocabulary outlet saya masih lemah" hence terpakse la tunjuk where the outlets are..

 

 @ rumah mode

2. came back from jakarta on sunday, and went for a site visit to Manjung Power Plant on wednesday. well, back to the beginning i must say. 

 

 @ switchyard, pencawang grid 500kV

3. came back from manjung on thursday and went back to temerloh on friday night after work. it was a surprise for mak's birthday on may 15. husband got to work on sunday so we went back to puchong on saturday evening

4. the result??? i was down with fever yesterday and a swollen throat. huhu

5. i managed to go to midvalley yesterday after work despite the painful throat. and wahlaaaaa... i loveeeeee what i found.. :).. i pretty much have everything i need for my junior now (not that i bought any, yet..).. and i can't wait for the 5th months to start buying them.. hehe..