burning the midnight oil?

i know i should be sleeping by now
i reminded myself twice to sleep before 1am.. and then changed to 1.30am
but it's already 1.36am right now
i should perhaps be preparing for my interview tomorrow (or today) at least if not sleeping
but after a few failed attempts to do some research on the net.. here i am.. :)


my honeymoon was awesome.. 
krabi was the rightest choice of destination
1) the flight merely took 1.15 hours so less time wasted on the plane
2) aonang is a muslim city in krabi so halal food is sooo very the easy to find
3) currency is more or less similar to malaysia so we were able to keep within the budget
4 days are definitely not enough.. 


we were only able to go for a 4-islands trip
my digicam was not being good to us as it went kaput when we were arriving at the 3rd island
so we had to rely on my husband 2mp hand phone camera 
and the weather was not either
we were approaching the 4th island when the rain started to fall down
imagine what comes with heavy rain if you are surrounded by i-don't-know-how-metres-deep water
a rough sea.. yes..
we were in the middle of the andaman sea when it was raining cats and dogs
not being able to even float myself apetah lagi swimming and the fact that we were riding on a long tail boat definitely not helping
i just couldn't stop praying that if Allah were to take my life that day, i was seriously hoping that my life would not end in a boat full of half-naked mat and minah salleh.. huhu
and Alhamdulillah, despite being hit a few times by a very strong wave we managed to reach the shore safely
so, our plan to go on another island-hopping trip the following day was cancelled
if that is what we have to go through once again, i would rather miss the beautiful white-sands beaches than risking my precious life.. :)


we are planning to go to ha long bay, vietnam for our next trip
but i don't know when it will be materialized
since i am not working at the moment so money is a bit of a problem
wish i could secure myself a good job soon
and by a good job i mean a lecturing job
i have no heart to be an engineer anymore, seriously
i failed a few interviews with good companies because i was not able to convince them why i want to be an engineer and when asked.. do you mind working long hours?
because i do mind actually
i want to have a baby soon and i want to lead a normal life
i want to be a good mother to my kids 
and spending more time at the office will not help
not that i am saying being a lecturer is an easy job
of course it is not.. especially when it comes to the researches
but at least the working hour is more flexible
and that's why i am really hoping i can nail the interview tomorrow because it is for a lecturer post
and that's why i need to stop writing now because i need to sleep and i need to be fresh tomorrow
so, good night people!

krabi rawkssss!

i have safely landed in krabi at 2pm local time today.. :)
been here for less than 12 hours yet i have fallen in love with almost everything..
perfect beaches.. perfect massage.. perfect tomyam? yet to taste.. hehe
looking forward for our island-hopping tomorrow.. yay!
will be back with more stories and photos once i got back..

oh btw, my sis-in-law gave birth to a healthy baby girl, nur ai'syah last monday
my brother is now a father and that makes me an aunt!
hehehe.. she is superrrrrr duperrrrrrr cute and i am missing her like crazy already! huhu..

a new journey?

i am opening up my own business soon, insyaAllah

not that big, just a small online business as a start

discussion has been done and mom has already agreed

yes, my mom is my business partner

so, people.. please support me.. :)

thank you..

update (updated)

i have been on hiatus for a few weeks already

was online but merely to check my emails

been kinda busy with final exams

three weeks in a row and it will be over this coming sunday

yay! and come 15th December (i think) marks my last semester as a masters student, insyaAllah

can't wait for all these sufferings i.e. fully-occupied-weekends, exams, assignments, crazy group mates, tests, presentation, etc. to end

but then, perhaps welcoming myself into a more torturing life of a PhD student

anyway, talking about the doctorate degree

i am most probably continuing in a local university only

husband is not really into the idea of going "back" to the UK

he does not want to leave his family for another 3 years or so

but i am totally indifferent about it

of course, it is on the other side of the world but mother is going to tag along if we are going there

and abang is definitely ok i think, because he'll be flying to France starting next year or so i heard

so, on my side, it is totally ok

but being married, of course u have to consider both parties right

decisions are made based on mutual agreement

so, australia is next on the list

but PhD in electrical engineering in Australia?

rarely heard of it

therefore, might as well continuing it here if that's the best for everyone.. :)

really, don't bother that much

as long as husband agrees on bringing me to the UK at least once.. hehehe

anyway, insyaAllah we will be going for our honeymoon soon

but, the destination is still not confirmed yet

thought of going to Bangkok but we'll be going there for a family trip next year

Hong Kong but the cost of living is too high; hotel, travelling, food, etc. or so they say

Bali not that interesting to ME plus with the earthquakes and bombing, surely banyak objections from mother and in-laws

lia suggested going to cambodia.. haha.. gile tk romantic.. scary ade..

aihhh.. any ideas people?

of course, it's limited to airasia (not airasiaX) destinations only

my weight loss progress seems stagnant 
even if it does not, the difference is nothing to be impressed with
i survived on 2 pieces of wholegrain in the morning and in the evening
but the loss is merely 1 kg per week
i eat like a quarter plate of nasi and nuggets and chicken meatballs yet i still loss only 1 kg weekly
so, i am not putting any kinda hope anymore
my body is perhaps already immuned to the drinks
so, be it swallowing everything down my esophagus or not, it is always 1kg per week
but of course, i am thankful enough to be back to my pre-wedding weight
even though the progress is slow, but it is still ther
it is just that, it may take yearssss before i can reach 50kg.. aihhhhh!

btw, we are going to krabi for our honeymoon!!
yayyyyyyyyyyyyy!

a lesson well learnt

i was back in my hometown last weekend

my aunt and uncle will be performing haji this year so they organized a small kenduri

i arrived early even though the kenduri was only held after asar prayer

to help with the cooking and what not la konon nye

but ended up gossiping and chit-chatting with the aunties and cousins.. hehe

anyway, that is not the climax of the story.. :D

so, with the cooking of course there will be the eating part kn

i was so determined not to eat at the beginning

i managed not to for brunch

eventhough they served one of my favourite kuih i.e samosa or temosa.. i don't know.. it's the karipap lookalik but with ikan instead of potatoes

at that time, i preferred to settle for buah langsat instead

and then come lunch

ikan goreng, sayur lemak, SAMBAL and PUCUK UBI REBUS

it's been long since i last ate any truly kampung dishes

so the temptation was super hard to resist

i tried not to be anywhere near the serving table

but there i go, i obviously failed miserably

so i had a plate of pucuk ubi rebus and super spicy sambal and IKAN GORENG

i just didn't bother to count the calories i had consumed

and it did not just stop there

later, i treated myself with a few "pinches" of ayam goreng kfc

AND also, 3 ketuls of ayam masak lemak
AND 5 spoons of bubur kacang hijau with durian
AND seketul samosa

*mari bertepuk tangan*

and yesterday morning, my mother cooked a super delicious nasi goreng daging salai

and i happily ate half a pinggan.. yadaa2..

and for lunch, i ate another quarter pinggan of rice with sotong kunyit and sayur campur and masak lemak cili api ayam salai..

so, that was what happened during the weekend!

and i was so proud with myself for consuming an enormous amount of calories..

and today, the college is organizing a "gema raya"

i just don't bother to go down

because i have learnt my lesson the hard way

no matter how you try to forbid yourself not to eat

but with food, delicious food.. right in front of your eyes..

just 2-pembaris-panjang away from your mouth and 1-pembaris-pendek away from your hands konfem la fail punye.. wa cakap lu.. jusmate tu will be like thousand-miles-away from your thought

hehe..

so, moral of the stories..

kalau iman tu tk kuat, jangan la cuba untuk menggoda diri atau biar kn diri di goda

that goes not only to food, but other things in life as well, right? or right? :)