weddy wednesday

1. i was so pissed off with p1 customer service last night i ended up sleeping late by reading (and finishing) a novel. why so? because i attended a course last week and the speaker said never go to sleep feeling angry.. of all the things he taught, that was one thing i actually listened to (i should focus and listen more about work skills and ethics).

2. i'll be going for a 3D scan tomorrow at sunway. we both really tidak sabar because this is when we will find out the gender. yay. saya lagi tidak sabar dan sangat nervous but anyway, lets not discuss further about this dan berdoa segala nye selamat hari esok.. huhu

3. i think i felt the baby kicking last night and even now.. but i am totally not sure about this because maybe itu sekadar angin.. tp tkde la pulak rase nk kent or burp.. but if it is really him/her, adelah sangat active kot? tp mungkin jugak angin, sbb lately ni rase sangat loya as if the morning sickness is back again.. huhu

 4. july 5th marks our first wedding anniversary.. and in conjuction with that we are going away to somewhere not that far from kl for the weekend.. it was a last minute plan and it was only yesterday i managed to go online and booked the hotel.. initially, i sooo wanted to stay at avillion, pd but too bad, the rooms are all fully booked for the weekend.. hence, we have to settle for the second best thing sahaje.. sedih tp tkpe boleh celebrate sambil mkn ikan pari bakar.. yummy.. yummy.. candlelight dinner? ape kah itu? yes, we are not that romantic.. hehe

natural birth

"Women at The Farm know that labor can be painful, but many of them know as well that labor and birth can be ecstatic -- even orgasmic. Above all, whether or not they experienced labor as painful, to a woman, they found labor and birth a tremendously empowering passage"

"There is extraordinary psychological benefit in belonging to a group of women who have positive stories to tell about their birth experiences.. So many horror stories circulate about birth that it can be difficult for women to believe that labor and birth can be a beneficial experience.. If you have been pregnant for a while, it's probable that you've already heard some scary birth stories from friends or relatives"

"Believe me: if you are told that some experience is going to hurt, it will hurt. Most pain is in the mind, and when a woman absorbs the idea that the act of giving birth is excruciatingly painful -- when she gets this information from her mother, her sisters, her married friends, and her physician -- that woman has been mentally prepared to feel great agony"

- ina may's guide to childbirth -

random

Alhamdulillah.. i managed to score 3.86/4.00 for my master degree.. and surprisingly got an A for my final project.. so much of crying, whining and everything eh? hehe.. thank you to those who have helped me through out the journey.. no words could ever describe how much i thank those wonderful people.. but anyway, to be honest i wasn't that satisfied with the result because i think i can do a bit better than that.. i mean, if i were to study a bit harder and rajin-er, sure can reach my target.. but then, it's ok.. ini pun dh cukup baik as compared to my undergraduate result (buat malu kaum je.. huhu)

the convocation will be in september.. 25th - 28th.. but no exact date for the masters students yet.. and i'll be 7 months pregnant by then.. ahh.. wonder what dress should i be wearing.. jubah mcm tk berminat je.. huhu..

anyway, i am now very much enjoying my free weekends.. and the fact that the result is already out makes all the weekends even free-er(!??)..  hehe.. and with the almost non-existent workload.. boy, my life just can't get any better than this.. :).. Alhamdulillah.. but still, i haven't got the chance to go for a weekend getaway with husband.. which reminds me of our 1st wedding anniversary on july 5th.. hmm time really2 flies mcm naik jet.. it felt just like yesterday.. and we're now soon becoming mummy and daddy dh..

oh speaking of which.. our little munchkin is doing just fine.. doctor wasn't able to measure his/her exact size at 4 months because he/she kept moving here and there during the ultrasound.. seriously sungguh comell.. Subhanallah.. FIL said.. "mesti baby boy sebab lasak semacam".. and the next day when i was doing another check up at another clinic.. the doctor was listening to lil munchkin's heartbeat through the stetoscope (spelling?!) and he said.. "kuat nye heart beat.. mesti baby boy".. hehehe.. so is it gonna be baby L.E.I or baby A.A? :p.. can't wait for another one month to see.. but be it baby L.E.I or baby A.A, as long as u r healthy, mummy & daddy are happy enuff.. :)

online shopping

ok.. i am a self-confessed online-shopaholic!

and i just developed the habit like.. a week ago?
well, blame the hormone.. :p
and blame those online baby stores as well.. hehe
to date, i have spent almost rm150 on bottle only i.e. feeding bottles and milk bottle storage and i'm not gonna stop
i still have a few more bottles to buy and lotsa other things
i tell u, some online stores' prices are much cheaper than the store we have in malls
so why bother hopping from one shop to another in search for a cheaper price when u can just do it online, right?
and the best thing is i can do it without my dear husband's knowledge
haha.. of course la later he will find out jugak tp at least after the purchase has been made.. and tk gune nk cry over spilt milk kn.. :p
but since we are not even half way through the month, therefore i should slow down my shopping activities
kesenangan meng-click and me-maybank2u here and there seriously very dangerous to my bank account
maka, harus tahan nafsu.. perhaps after i get another 2 botol of TT then i should give it a stop (for this month).. :)

tolong saye

currently, there are two things that constantly conquer every single corner of my mind 1) giving birth, and 2) ou.twar.d bo.un.d mal.ay.sia (O.BeeM)

i talked about giving birth in my previous entry and now i wanna talk about the fear of going for the o.bee.m.. huhu

apparently, attending one is a must in t.en.bi which determines whether u'll be a confirmed staff or not.. it's written in the agreement so there is no way u can run away from it.. since i am pregnant therefore i couldnt join my pep35 last time.. i was a little bit frustrated actually because the programme duration is 15 days in which u totally have no contact with the outside world, no handphone whatsoever.. so if u happen to go with ur own batch at least u know u r surrounded with familiar faces which seemingly doesn't apply to me now.. and the activities are very2 physically and mentally challenging to the extreme therefore those who just give birth are also not allowed to go (there was one case where this one lady who just had a c-sect accidentally "terbukak jahitan" due to the extreme activities.. uhuhhhhh..) hence, what i am trying to say here is, it might take me another one year before i can go for the o.bee.m

this is how the khemah looks like.. gilo apo.. kiri kanan terbukak.. adoiiii

pic taken from here

ok, and talking about the extreme activities whatever.. i think i am ok with the physically challenging one.. i mean, i can at least build up my stamina or worst come to worst i can just pengsan or sumthing.. but the most not-so-interesting part is the 3 days 2 nights solo camping in the middle of the hutan!! oooo myyyy godddd okkay.. as in seriously omigawd!! what am i gonna do alone in the middle of a jungle!! and listening to the stories is not helping at all.. totally not.. what with the "pakcik tua kejut tgh mlm and say anak boleh tidor tempat lain? sini kubur".. oh shyteeee.. and what with perempuan baju putih jalan2 sekeliling khemah and endless storiessssssssssssssssss... seriously i almost pee in my seluar dalam right now.. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. how do u prepare urself for things like this aa? i know it's not too late to hafal surah yasin given one year time but it won't be enuff.. being afraid is not the way to survive but tell me how on earth do u deal with this.. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lagi.. :(((((