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Selamat Hari Raya & Maaf Zahir Batin

This raya brings a lot more meaning to us as it is gonna be our first year with the little princess.. :) I know she understands nothing about raya but heck, I have bought like 9 pasang kot baju raya for adreanna.. plus the baju that my mum jahit in total she has 11 pasang.. hehe.. can’t wait to see her in the tiny baju kurung yang super comel because my mum buat ala2 fashion sket instead of plain baju kurung.. weee.. excited.. oh but I need to find a new hair band to match her raya outfit.. cream with a big flower.. so must go to cotton on this weekend.. and yeah, I think I also need to get the pink socks from lovely lace because.. hmm it’s too cute..?!! haha.. already bought a cream one yesterday but demm.. another pair won’t hurt, no? well, maybe my wallet does as it costs quite a lot jugak for just a pair of baby socks but.. it’s just plain too cute not to buy.. :D


Anyway, we will be celebrating our first day of raya in bangi this year.. so am not taking any leave before raya.. will still be working, I mean.. ‘coming to office’ on Monday.. but we can go back at 12.15pm.. woot woot..


Ok lah.. just a short update.. bye.. drive safe & have a blessed aidilfitri..

hello blog

1. i am having the best time of my life playing mummy. adreanna is already 8 months 1 week and Alhamdulillah, she's growing healthily & happily despite the 4 days admission at columbia earlier this month. as to date, she weighs steadily around 10 kgs, a baby michelin she is! she's already crawling backward, can sit on her own and very very talkative and super clingy too. well, separation anxiety is normal at her age now so i don't really mind since she mingles around at the nursery pretty well.

2. Alhamdulillah, God has given us extra rezeki. next in line is to hunt for a good house. what i mean by good is, i am thinking of settling down for REAL. a house to live in perhaps until i retire. so, it has to be a comfortable house with an appropriate size. and with that in mind, i think i can compromise on the location. bangi might be a good idea but puncak perdana is also ok and alam budiman is a catch. it's a link house with 2600 sq ft build up omgbestgile! but well, these.. can wait until jan 2012, so no rush.

3. back to adreanna. she'll be turning 1 y.o in 4 months. u think it's a long way to go? think again. 8 months fly in a sec, so 4 months will be flying in 0.5 sec. i still have no idea what to do for her birthday. initially, i thot of having a 'garden party' but after doing some simple maths, the cost is almost equal to having a celebration in hong kong. so, i changed my mind. i told my husband, let's go to hong kong disneyland! adreanna will definitely be in heaven having mickey around her. but then i had little luck with airasia by the time i wanted to book the ticket, the price was already up sogoodbyehongkong! and now i am thinking of having it at a&w. haha. wherever it is little girl, lets hope ipad3 is already out by that time so mummy can get u an ipad at much lower price, no? iloveuadreannaaryssa.

4. work is ok. (that's all? haha)

5. thank you Allah, thank you so much for everything. Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah.

phewwww...!

finally.. i'm back to civilization!

7 days without a handphone, tv, music, news, etc..

def. a lot of stories to tell

but that can wait

till then :)

and the day finally comes...

.. oh dear HR, can i just bring my baby too? or if it is too impossible, can i just stay at the nearby hotel so i can put my baby to sleep every night? huhu

damnn..

i am mentally not ready to leave adreanna for the whole one week

even though i know she will be in safe hands of my mother

but the thought of leaving her, and not be able to cuddle her before sleep

it's just... plain torturing!

and worse, it is only 4 days away and i am yet to complete the milk stock for her

i still have about 15 bottles to go but i am thissssssss close to giving up

i mean, 15 bottles for the stock and another 12 bottles for her daily consume..

huhuhu..

but being stressed doesn't help at all except lowering the production

hence bringing me even further away from my target

so, be happy.. that's it..

think positive..

semoga Allah memberkati niat murni ini..

dan memurah kn rezeki Adreanna.. Amin..

... my 1st home scheme

kononnn.. what the H.. where got house priced at less than rm220k these days?
i mean, of course la ade but then sgt la tk convenient bagi kami2 yang bekerja di tgh kota metropolitan ni.. tk kn la nk suruh beli rumah kt semenyih pastu pukul 5 pagi buta dah kene gerak kluar.. at least, letak la rm350K ke.. but anyway, we are not eligible for that scheme pn.. so dok diam2 sudah.. hehehe

cakap pasal rumah, mari menjamu mata with these photos:

http://www.casatropika.com.my/

simply gorgeous ok.. *jaw dropped*

and it is in PUCHONG y'alls and it has 4-tiers security which apparently the utmost plus point for me.. and the price also is pretty affordable..

but the minus point is: the units are almost sold out and the expected completion date is march 2014.. that is like.. 3 years away from now? and by that time, adreanna is already 4 years old and insyaAllah, already a kakak to a charming baby brother (amin... hehe)

so, lets start the hunting process again.. and lets hope for august to bring good news for me.. :D..

air mata berguguran........

hello blog, it's been ages since i last visited u.. i am very busy playing mummy u know.. hehe

anyway, i have nothing much to write actually.. just want to share this touching story.. omg, i swear i cried everytime the first time i read this.. (btw, i got this from somewhere, tk igt mane, sorry sbb copy.. huhu)

Hari ini, saya terpanggil bagi berkongsi satu kisah
yang sangat menyentuh hati dan naluri saya sebagai seorang yang bergelar ummi,
anak dan insan. Kisah ini adalah perkongsian daripada seorang DJ radio yang
menjadi halwa telinga saya di dalam kereta, sepanjang menuju ke pejabat. Ini
adalah kisah benar yang diceritakan oleh rakan beliau yang bertugas sebagai
anggota bomba. Mungkin ada juga rakan-rakan di luar sana yang turut mendengar
perkongsian ini.

Kisahnya perihal satu keluarga yang mengalami kemalangan
ngeri. Kereta yang mereka naiki terbabas, berpusing, melanggar pembahagi jalan
lalu terperosok ke dalam longkang. Dalam kejadian ini, kereta itu remuk teruk
dan penumpangnya mengalami kecederaan parah. Cermin hadapan habis retak
berderai. Tidak ditekankan keadaan pemandunya. Tetapi saya fikir, pemandunya
menemui ajal di situ juga. Mahu diceritakan, penumpang yang duduk di sebelah
pemandu mengalami kecederaan yang sangat parah. Wajahnya habis berlumuran darah.
Dahinya terkopek sehingga menonjolkan tulang tengkorak. Mungkin juga akibat
terhantuk pada papan pemuka kereta ditambah dengan pecahan kaca cermin hadapan.
Ajaibnya kuasa Tuhan, bayinya selamat tetapi terpelanting ke kerusi belakang.
Bayi kecil yang tidak tahu apa-apa itu meraung dan menangis. Mungkin kerana
kesakitan, kesedihan, terkejut dan sebagainya.

Sewaktu anggota bomba itu
mengambil dan mahu menyelamatkan si kecil tadi, ibunya terketar-ketar dan
menggigil sambil memberi isyarat kepada beliau. Subhanallah, rupa-rupanya si ibu
tadi mahukan bayinya bagi disusukan. Diselak bajunya dengan sedaya upaya dan
disusukan si kecil itu dengan penuh rasa sayu, pilu dan kasih sayang.

Si
kecil senyap di dalam dakapan ibunya. Betapa nyamannya dakapan ibu itu sehingga
mampu menenangkan si kecil yang ketakutan. Dengan kuasa dan izin Allah, ibu itu
tiba-tiba tercungap-cungap mencari nafas, tanda ajalnya yang semakin hampir.
Lalu terkapailah si ibu dalam keadaan yang penuh rasa tanggungjawab dan kasih
sayang itu. Ya Allah, betapa pilunya situasi itu sehingga merenggut ketenangan
anggota bomba tadi.

Sewaktu saya mendengar perkongsian ini, air mata saya
berderaian laju menitis di pipi. Malah, tatkala menukil kata demi kata dalam
ruang maya ini juga, bagaikan sukar air mata ini mahu ditepis. Betapa luhur dan
agungnya perasaan kasih seorang ibu kepada permata hatinya. Tidak terbalas dek
kita sebagai anak, yang selama ini tidak habis-habis bergantung pada jasa
ibu.

Dari kecil dibelai ibu, sudah besar masih juga mahu bergantung pada
ibu. Masakan tersedap, air tangan ibu. Segala pengalaman dunia, mahu dirujuk
pada ibu.

Sahabat sekalian, selagi kita memiliki dan punya ibu, hargailah
ibu kita setinggi-tingginya. Muliakan dan tatanglah ibu kita persis menatang air
yang penuh tatkala berada di gurun yang gersang tanpa penghujung. Betapa
berharganya air itu sehingga sekiranya boleh, setitis pun kita tidak mahu jatuh
ke bumi. Tanpa air itu, takkan lama kita bertahan dalam mengharungi perjalanan
di atas gurun tadi.Semoga kita mendapat iktibar daripada kisah yang dikongsikan
ini.

Sekian.

and seres rase nk nanges lagi skali.. huhu.. paling sedih part baby tu menanges and terus diam lepas isap susu the mummy.. :((..

shop till u drop

i used to be obsessed with browsing the online shop selling clothes etc
and think, oh my, those baju especially baby's clothes are just too gorgeous
but then, paying rm50 (plus minus) for a fake baby gap or mothercare (etc) macam tk worth it
and much thanx to my SIL, i then discovered GM KL and later Klang
and my wallet life is never the same again.. haha..  

yesterday, i followed my brother and SIL to GM Klang
my initial plan was just to get one or 2 baby tights and dresses for adreanna
but guess what? i came back with this..

those tights are rm8 per piece, u can get it at rm5 per piece if u wish to buy in bulk
the rompers are rm27 each (long sleeve) and rm22 each (short sleeve) - pack of 5
dresses are 50% half the price if u buy at least 6 pieces

murah bukan, u can totally save 50% or even more compared to online shopping dowhhhh..
and those who are pregnant, sila lah bershopping di sini and u can go crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
and to make it more fun, bring along a few other people, like what i did with my SIL, so u can share (hence, getting the wholesale price)

anyway, my total damage for above items are rm179 and there goes my plan to get a new handbag.. tskkk.. (-.-)! 
but i am planning to come again, sbb smlm when i was just about to leave, i found a shop selling white shirt (with different design) for rm24 each!! gilo apo.. murah nk mampsss.. haha.. so i definitely will come back again very2 soon, and this time with husband along (so can go and borong baju adreanna lagi since daddy mmg suke shopping utk adreanna.. hehe)

totally random..

the loan has been approved and i will be getting the car hopefully by tuesday
see, my new year resolution is back to square one
i settled one debt only to find myself involved in another one
which apparently of higher committment
but then again, this one, is a sacrifice
i mean, i have no choice, both my husband and i have no choice
with two person; who work different office hours, owning only one car is troublesome
and it becomes worse when you have a baby tagging along
hence, the solution, i bought myself a new car
after much consideration, i opted for a new one instead of a used car
and it is just a very small car anyway enough for a town-ride, office-home-office

***

adreanna is already 2 months 6 days today and she weighs 6.2kg as of last week
which means, carrying her around requires extra energy
what more, being adreanna, she just loves to be carried around only by mummy, not daddy
so, i can definitely foresee stronger muscles in the months to come


***


i am still adapting my new title as a full time working mummy
adreanna can be difficult at times which leaves me feeling hopeless & guilty
i can't tolerate when she cries non stop not because i regret having her around
but because i just simply can't bear seeing her crying 
and usually it ends up with me crying together with her
i am such a bad mummy, huh :((
but i love her way too much i just want to see her happy and smile ALL the time


***


there will only be 2 days of working next week
yay!
happy long holiday people~~!

i'm back!

just arrived from pahang at 1pm this afternoon. it feels different to be home after 7 weeks of 'holiday' what more to come back with extra 'baggage'.. it's adreanna's first time and she took it.. err.. quite well kot considering that she has been sleeping since tadi.. only wakes up for milk, even falls asleep while on my boobs.. it must be the weather kot, sejuk melampau tp tk hujan pn.. 

anyway, i have a lot to write especially.. of course on my birth story.. to be honest, i almost forget the whole experience so i seriously need to write it down soon so that i can read it again in the future.. the experience is just wayyy too priceless to be forgotten mcm tu aje, obviously.. 

so, will write more when i have the time i.e. when adreanna is sleeping.. :)

some things are better left unsaid..

.. baby prefers my womb more than anything else in the world so she decides to stay inside a little while longer.. she was weighing at 3.5kg as of Saturday, 13th nov.. the doctor again reminded me for countless times that i should watch my diet as to not let the baby gets too big.. please reduce ur nasi intake she said again and again.. so for the sake of my little princess and myself, finally i gave in.. i stop eating rice for the past 2 days.. yay to me but not to others.. the doctor will be doing IOL next week monday when i am 40 weeks 2 days.. i actually requested to be induced before raya haji because to me, why wait when at the end of the day i still have to go thru the same process right.. (note: IOL adelah proses induce) but the doctor told me there is a very high chance that i might have to go through a c-sect because there is no contractions yet so she scheduled the induction on 22nd nov.. which is totally fine with me.. because i trust her.. she is a doctor after all.. a specialist some more.. when she says it's normal then it must be normal right.. i mean, there is no point in her telling lies, am i right or wrong? so, i take it as it is and feel perfectly ok.. even though, there is prolly 5% of doubt but then the feeling subsided when i asked a friend of mine who went thru exactly the same thing as i am now.. except in her case she ended up having a c-sect because up to her EDD, still no contractions..

so..

it's very very very much displeasing when some people started to.. well, as my title goes.. some things are better left unsaid.. so, i better stop now.. pouring my heart out won't do anyone good.. :(

i am..

i.

officially 39 weeks comes tomorrow.. and still going strong.. i mean, honestly, i haven't felt any sorta contractions just yet.. omg, is this normal or what? most of my friends whose EDD is a few days before me or even AFTER had safely delivered their babies and here i am.. well, a friend said i should enjoy the moment while it lasts.. of course.. but at the same time, being a first timer, i am still worried.. over nothing, i guess.. well, will be going for a check-up tomorrow and the doctor is going to do the membrane sweeping if i am not mistaken.. i don't know what the procedure is, i am just assuming.. because last time i requested the doctor if there is any way to speed up the process but no induction whatsoever.. and she said yes while mentioning something like urut2 wutever.. i don't know..

ii.

bored.. beyond explanation! been doing nothing at home except walking aimlessly from bedroom to the living room to the kitchen like mad people.. one minute i was surfing the net, the next time i was already at the kitchen opening up the fridge, scanning whatever things called food and then jump on the couch.. and the next minute plak seeing me lying on my bed trying hard to sleep.. and yes, waking up a few hours after, repeating the same routine.. crazy, huh?

iii.

going shopping in a few minutes time..! yay, the idea of getting outta the house is very refreshing you know.. hehe.. i wonder how it feels like living in jail.. >.

yesterday, today, tomorrow

tomorrow will be the third day of my AL.. how fast time flies.. yuckiess.. 

yesterday i was pretty occupied.. came back from bangi and then sent hubster to his office and then did some grocery shopping at giant.. chillax2 at home, found a new blog to read, and the next thing i knew, it was already 10pm.. it was time to pick up hubster.. so i drove alone to klcc at 10.30pm.. i bet people at the petronas station were wondering what the hell this pregnant lady did out of her home so late at night.. heheh.. mom was also surprised to know that i am still driving around but then there is no reason why i shouldn't, should i? a friend had been asking is there any sign yet bla..bla.. and i don't know what to answer.. what kinda signs should i be getting.. i mean, yeahh.. of course there are those signs, the bloody show, the lightening and what not.. but i haven't felt anything just yet.. i even doubt i have braxton hicks.. errr.. is it normal or is it just me being so ignorant? but one thing i am very sure of.. my baby is so comfy inside my womb that up to my 37th week check up last saturday she was still in the normal position., when are you coming out little princess?

anyway, today did nothing.. just cooked lunch for hubster before he went off to office and slept from 3ish until 6ish.. and tomorrow i'm planning to do some 'walking' around.. need to go to bank islam and register tabung haji.. oh yeahhh, i've been procrastinating since forever ok.. i think i did open the account when i was in form 1.. wait.. that was.. 14 years ago?? haha.. so i doubt the account still valid.. anyway, i was planning to go perform the hajj when i am 35 yo which is 8 years from now but then according to our *ahemm* family planning, our 4th child will be just one year old so might postpone our hajj to year 2022 or 2023 in which i'll be 40 and hubster will be 49 by then.. just nice.. :).. insyaAllah, but the sooner the better.. semoga Allah permudahkn segalanya, Amin..

anyway, i'm almost done with all the preparation.. so happy with my online purchase.. i made the payment for the cooler bag & reusable ice packs at around 4pm on friday and to my surprise i received the parcel in less than 24 hours! the only thing(s) that is still pending is the car seat (which abang promised to sponsor.. yay!) and the stroller.. and i am not sure whether i should get it (the stroller) now or wait until my confinement is over? any idea anyone? 

btw, it's already 10.39pm..  hubster will be home in 2 hours time.. his office hours begins at 2pm (or 3pm) and finishes at 11pm (or 12pm).. it's ok now that i am staying at home but how la.. nnt when i start working smule.. still haven't figured out.. tk kn la every mlm nk kene angkut baby pegi klcc.. huhu.. and to get another car? oh my, our dream home will be even farther away than we could have imagined now.. hmmmm..

seriously?

googled

i have a colleague whose EDD is a week earlier than mine.. she went for her AL starting last monday and i will go on mine starting next monday.. and guess what??

she already delivered her baby girl last night at 1.50 am..!!

does that mean i'll be delivering mine next week too????

oh gosh.. sounds funny, but seriously gluk2 mate bergenang when i heard the news a few minutes ago..

huwaaa.. suddenly i have this panic attack.. tibe2 aje.. perhaps, all this while i have been living in.. denial??? i don't know.. i was so positive before up to a point rase nk lempang diri sendiri but then when it hits me right in my face that this is totally not a joke.. that i am seriously becoming a mom anytime soon, wa jadik panic and nervous and smue lah..

and suddenly i realize that i still have a lot of things to do/buy.. car seat tk beli lagi, breastfriend pillow and breastpad tk claim lagi kt lia, goodie bags for aqiqah, mommy's hospital bag, digicam.. aaahhhh.. so much of early planning la dulu kn.. tengok, still bnyk lagi jugak nk buat time last minute.. huhu

ya Allah, semoga kau permudahkn segalanya.. Amin Ya Rabbal 'Alamin.. 



i am head over heels for... (update)

.. taraaaaa..


googled

yes, bookXcess.. and before i begin our 'lovestory' i must thank my SIL for introducing me to this bookshop.. seriously, my life is never the same again after my first 'date' with bookXcess

i never remembered myself as ulatbuku when i was a kid.. i did read a lot but mostly buku2 pelajaran hence the reason why i can memorize the whole buku karangan mase standard 6? freak bukan.. haha.. tp enid blyton tu ade la sket2.. anyway, the hobby came when i was in tkc where r.l stine and sweet valley macam dh jadi text books.. a must read among most of us.. so that was when i really developed the reading habit and started buying almost all the latest r.l stine books available in store at that time.. and trust me, the public library was the most frequent place i visited while waiting for my spm result sampai i ran outta books to read.. mind u, i only read chick lit novels yer (minus r.l stine la tu mase kecik2).. :D.. i don't do sci-fi or bibliography etc.. may be one day.. hehe

and the love i have for books just never stopped there but being a cheapskate, slalu sangat la tk sanggup nk beli buku sbb agak mahal.. usually a novel costs around rm40 the cheapest.. so imagine if i were to buy 5 books at one time tk ke dh almost rm200 tu.. (mmg la bleh tolak income tax tp still........... haha).. so, when i was introduced to bookXcess, wa jadi super jakun.. serious shit ok, mase first time pegi jadi mcm semput sbb mcm smue buku pn nk rembat.. super duper cheap even much cheaper kot than a secondhand bookstore..! contoh: twilight series rm29.90 je each ok.. brand new.. kalau kt mp.h rm69.90 right?? so at that time i bought.. hmm.. 5 novels which was rm9.90 each.. murah giler amat bukan? u can even get all those cecilia ahern etc at rm17.90 ONLY..! mane la wa tk gile kn..

so, since the novels and buku2 lain are terlalu la murah maka i have to restrain myself from going there sbb for sure akan bankrupt.. huhu.. but now, with the baby coming out soon, jadi makin bankrupt sbb buku2 baby and kids are sumpah banyak and smue la interesting teramat.. and one thing for sure, bookXcess akan jadi a must-place to visit every week dgn baby AM nnt.. wajib! :) and i'll make sure my baby develops the reading habit as early as possible.. marilah menyahut seruan kerajaan.. mari membaca.. :)

p/s: did i tell u that bookXcess now has all the series of dr.seuss?? super like.. u can get the hard cover one at rm14.90 je and yg biase at rm12.90.. aritu beli kt mp.h rm19.90 satu ok.. 

since a few of my friends have been asking pasal bookXcess ni u can check their website at http://www.bookxcess.com/ or http://bookxcessblog.com/ .. no, i don't get commission ok.. hehe.. i just want to promote and nurture a good reading habit among us all.. i know, just like me, ramai yg suke membace tp malas membeli.. :D

title-less

i. time seems to move super slow this month.. don't u think so? or perhaps i'm the only one who suffers because (1) gaji awal sgt last month which was on the 23rd sept (2) gaji dh abes mase pegi convo kt skudai (3) there are still a lot of things to buy for little one yet gaji lmbt gile lagi masuk.. well, that might be the reasons kot.. adoiii.. 26th oct is like 12 days away lagi and i'm surviving on hubster's or else tiap2 hari minom teh tarik free je kt pantry..

ii. i'm down with fever for two nights already.. temperature going high everytime malam menjelma.. seriously sangat uncomfy to have a good sleep as i tend to wake up at midnight dgn badan berpeluh2.. 16 degrees aircond + full blast kipas lantai + full blast ceiling fan pn masih tk mampu menghilang kn kepanasan.. well, the weather might be the penyebab because it hasn't rained for the last few days kn? there wasn't even a drop of embun when we went out this morning.. so, marilah kite menyokong tenaga nuklear merangkap tenaga hijau dlm mengurangkn kepanasan.. boleh? haha..

iii. i think i can feel the braxton hicks already.. tp masih tidak pasti.. but i feel like having a very mild period pain.. mcm tu ke rase braxton hicks??!

iv. ptg ni hubster nk belanje lamb chop.. yay! mengidam since aritu

v. did i tell u that my hubster got a new job already? well, Alhamdulillah rezeki baby.. :).. so after this no more 12-hour shift for him means more time can be spent with me and our baby soon.. and yg penting no more lonely nights eventho still ade shift but it's only 8-hour a day.. and i no more drive to office! yay.. sbb hubster will take an lrt from abdullah hukum to klcc and klcc to abdullah hukum..

TGIF:Thank God I'm Fat

as to date, i have a few drafts which have yet to be published.. and i think it will remain that way because i just don't feel like sharing my thoughts anymore.. but then, that was before and now i am back again tho there is actually nothing to cerita pn..

anyway, congratulations to one of my babes, maryam for the arrival of her new bundle of joy, baby nina maisara.. haven't got time to visit both baby sara (memandai claim sendiri panggil sara.. hehe) and the mother due to my busy and memanjang-full weekend.. perhaps, the following week kot.. oh, i need to go to lia's hse too to collect all the barang sedekah.. hehehe.. lucky i have such a wonderful sister-friend (ade ke term ni..) who gave birth to her second princess last may.. so, she insisted on handing down most of her items which i really2 need tp agak malas nk beli.. for example: my breast friend pillow and lotsa breastpad and banyaaak lagi (according to her la).. thanx sistah! :)

i'll be entering the 35th week soon which means secara normal nye, i have like 3 weeks plus to go or theoretically, 5 weeks more.. and so far, i am still doing ok.. i still have no idea what braxton hicks is so i don't know whether it's happening or not.. kaki masih ok.. the only thing that is pretty uncomfortable is the calf-cramp waktu mlm.. ouch.. it hurts a lot because it happens kat calf.. not tapak kaki.. and i've tried various remedies i found on the internet but to no avail.. so, everytime it happens, i would just sit down, and kelip2 mata tahan sakit and then fall asleep again after 3-4 'attacks'.. i can feel with my hand, the urat2 become hardens tp tahan je la.. huhu.. after all, sakit beranak and sakit mati and perhaps sakit gigi jugak jauh lagi sakit bukan.. *positive thinking*..

bercakap pasal cramp, oh my, these few days i have been doing more walking than a 35th week pregnant lady should do.. everyday i need to climb up/down untuk smpi ke rumah which is at the 3rd floor of a 4-storey-no-elevator apartment.. dekat office pulak, much thanx to the suke-hati-menjunam-tibe2 elevator, i need to panjat tangga all the way to 6th floor for a daily meeting.. everyday wa cakap lu.. not to mention, toilet yg tgh renovate so i have to either turun or naik one floor up utk gi toilet and amek wudhu.. so in total, setiap hari wa panjat more than 10 floors ok.. ni kalau susah lagi nk bersalin, mmg aku carik sorg2 sape yg ckp bnyk berjalan senang bersalin.. huhu

well, what else? i'm planning to take a one week leave prior to my EDD if in case dr.raja tknk bagi mc like the doctors kt panta! yg willingly bagi 2 weeks mc suruh rest kt umah (heavennn!).. so that means, i have like 10 days more at the office (i got 5 days course at !lsas nx week.. yay!).. best nye.. :)

so what...

..if i am a local graduate?

i just don't understand why some.. well.. most people actually suke double standard org2 yg graduate overseas.. i mean, what makes them better than us, the local graduate? i am not blaming those graduates but i am blaming org2 yg men-double standard kn mereka2 ini.. just because they got a chance to study abroad does NOT mean they are more clever than us, the local graduate..

do you know that i got 9A's for my SPM and that i was offered by FOUR organizations to further study oversea? see.. i am not stupid.. but i rejected the offerS because my mom did not allow me (and my brother, too) to go abroad.. no matter how teruk i cried at that time.. so i chose uniten which apparently a LOCAL university.. and again was offered 2 scholarships by 2 different BIG companies..

at times, rase amat terhina to see that face whenever i mentioned i am from uniten/utm.. as if, duhh, local je.. rase mcm, huh.. knape bile someone ckp diye grad from UK (for example) people would go.. wahh.. mesti hebat ni.. kenape? nk kate those graduates ckp english gempak, mcm ramai je yg lintang pukang.. and bersepah je my friends yg local grad ckp english much much much better.. so what makes them BETTER than the local grad? kenape, kenape perlu double standard?

anyway, soalan tersebut masih remain unanswered.. sbb itu la mentaliti kebanyakan rakyat malaysia.. asal pergi oversea je konfem gempak, hebat, genius etc.. tp tkpe, since i can't change that fact, maka, marilah sambung belajar di oversea utk Ph.D supaya org tk pandang rendah kt kite.. :)

i am..

..officially graduated from UTM with a Master in Engineering (Electrical Power)
phewwww.. the ceremony was ok but i think i prefer my bach. degree graduation in uniten better because it was more formal walaupun tkde royal family.. for example: in uniten we were not allowed to clap hands until the last name being announced so suasana mcm senyap sunyi and org boleh focus kt people receiving scroll on stage.. and time dpt tepuk tu mmg tepuk gile2 sbb puas hati smpi nk menitik air mate terharu etc.. tp kt utm, kene tepuk utk each and everyone so jd tk best sbb after a few names, org dh malas nk tepuk and bunyi pn dh tk sedap.. kelepet kelepet cmtu and by the time the last name dh tkde perasaan ape2.. so nothing special.. even mase queue nk naik stage pn smue org bercakap2 so tk rase formal and to me rase tk best..

tapiiiiiii.. the best thing was.. mase i was waiting for my turn and my name was being announced, baby A.M kicked really hard and sumpah mata gluk2 tibe2.. i know i was just being emotional.. she didn't even know what happen outside tp mungkin sbb terkejut ade bunyi kuat but still.. sumpah rase terharu.. being on stage receiving ur scroll with ur baby!! it was priceless!!

anyway, i still tk puas hati sbb grad fees mahal and majlis biasa2 aje.. hehe.. tk dtg pn tk apo sbenarnye.. btw, my SV called me after the ceremony and asked.. "so bile nk sambung Ph.D?".. i was like adoi.. tk smpi sejam grad master dh tny bile nk sambung Ph.D.. huhu.. but then, of course la i do have a plan.. at least before i turn 30 which is another 3 years time.. tp husbter isn't convinced enuff.. afraid i couldnt stand the pressure.. research master pn dh macam org gile apetah Ph.D kn.. tp i know i want to do it and it MUST be sumthing related to nuclear engineering cume i don't know where and when..

p/s: i didn't get the best student award for my course.. frust nyer.. if it wasn't for that 3 subjects with B+.. i shud have graduated with 4 flat!!!!!!!!!!!

jiwa kosong

raya means nothing to me this year.. i felt totally, completely empty and at lost.. i didn't bother to take even one photo pn.. lemang didn't taste that good.. nothing seems right.. i mean, tk mcm raya langsung except for the new baju kurung and that was it.. i was just totally not in the mood at all.. so, coming back to office on the 5th day of syawal adelah bukan satu masalah besar langsung and how i wish for the raya holiday to end even sooner..

anyway, nonetheless, i hope it ain't too late to wish everyone a selamat hari raya and maaf zahir batin..