...and the journey begins

Tuesday Blues

2011-09-06T09:22:00.000+08:00

SHRMZB

2011-08-26T11:58:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya & Maaf Zahir Batin

This raya brings a lot more meaning to us as it is gonna be our first year with the little princess.. :) I know she understands nothing about raya but heck, I have bought like 9 pasang kot baju raya for adreanna.. plus the baju that my mum jahit in total she has 11 pasang.. hehe.. can’t wait to see her in the tiny baju kurung yang super comel because my mum buat ala2 fashion sket instead of plain baju kurung.. weee.. excited.. oh but I need to find a new hair band to match her raya outfit.. cream with a big flower.. so must go to cotton on this weekend.. and yeah, I think I also need to get the pink socks from lovely lace because.. hmm it’s too cute..?!! haha.. already bought a cream one yesterday but demm.. another pair won’t hurt, no? well, maybe my wallet does as it costs quite a lot jugak for just a pair of baby socks but.. it’s just plain too cute not to buy.. :D

Anyway, we will be celebrating our first day of raya in bangi this year.. so am not taking any leave before raya.. will still be working, I mean.. ‘coming to office’ on Monday.. but we can go back at 12.15pm.. woot woot..

Ok lah.. just a short update.. bye.. drive safe & have a blessed aidilfitri..

hello blog

2011-07-27T10:03:00.001+08:00

1. i am having the best time of my life playing mummy. adreanna is already 8 months 1 week and Alhamdulillah, she's growing healthily & happily despite the 4 days admission at columbia earlier this month. as to date, she weighs steadily around 10 kgs, a baby michelin she is! she's already crawling backward, can sit on her own and very very talkative and super clingy too. well, separation anxiety is normal at her age now so i don't really mind since she mingles around at the nursery pretty well.

2. Alhamdulillah, God has given us extra rezeki. next in line is to hunt for a good house. what i mean by good is, i am thinking of settling down for REAL. a house to live in perhaps until i retire. so, it has to be a comfortable house with an appropriate size. and with that in mind, i think i can compromise on the location. bangi might be a good idea but puncak perdana is also ok and alam budiman is a catch. it's a link house with 2600 sq ft build up omgbestgile! but well, these.. can wait until jan 2012, so no rush.

3. back to adreanna. she'll be turning 1 y.o in 4 months. u think it's a long way to go? think again. 8 months fly in a sec, so 4 months will be flying in 0.5 sec. i still have no idea what to do for her birthday. initially, i thot of having a 'garden party' but after doing some simple maths, the cost is almost equal to having a celebration in hong kong. so, i changed my mind. i told my husband, let's go to hong kong disneyland! adreanna will definitely be in heaven having mickey around her. but then i had little luck with airasia by the time i wanted to book the ticket, the price was already up sogoodbyehongkong! and now i am thinking of having it at a&w. haha. wherever it is little girl, lets hope ipad3 is already out by that time so mummy can get u an ipad at much lower price, no? iloveuadreannaaryssa.

4. work is ok. (that's all? haha)

5. thank you Allah, thank you so much for everything. Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah.

phewwww...!

2011-05-08T01:35:00.000+08:00

finally.. i'm back to civilization!

7 days without a handphone, tv, music, news, etc..

def. a lot of stories to tell

but that can wait

till then :)

and the day finally comes...

2011-04-26T00:46:00.000+08:00

.. oh dear HR, can i just bring my baby too? or if it is too impossible, can i just stay at the nearby hotel so i can put my baby to sleep every night? huhu

damnn..

i am mentally not ready to leave adreanna for the whole one week

even though i know she will be in safe hands of my mother

but the thought of leaving her, and not be able to cuddle her before sleep

it's just... plain torturing!

and worse, it is only 4 days away and i am yet to complete the milk stock for her

i still have about 15 bottles to go but i am thissssssss close to giving up

i mean, 15 bottles for the stock and another 12 bottles for her daily consume..

huhuhu..

but being stressed doesn't help at all except lowering the production

hence bringing me even further away from my target

so, be happy.. that's it..

think positive..

semoga Allah memberkati niat murni ini..

dan memurah kn rezeki Adreanna.. Amin..

... my 1st home scheme

2011-04-13T14:07:00.000+08:00

kononnn.. what the H.. where got house priced at less than rm220k these days?
i mean, of course la ade but then sgt la tk convenient bagi kami2 yang bekerja di tgh kota metropolitan ni.. tk kn la nk suruh beli rumah kt semenyih pastu pukul 5 pagi buta dah kene gerak kluar.. at least, letak la rm350K ke.. but anyway, we are not eligible for that scheme pn.. so dok diam2 sudah.. hehehe

cakap pasal rumah, mari menjamu mata with these photos:

http://www.casatropika.com.my/

simply gorgeous ok.. *jaw dropped*

and it is in PUCHONG y'alls and it has 4-tiers security which apparently the utmost plus point for me.. and the price also is pretty affordable..

but the minus point is: the units are almost sold out and the expected completion date is march 2014.. that is like.. 3 years away from now? and by that time, adreanna is already 4 years old and insyaAllah, already a kakak to a charming baby brother (amin... hehe)

so, lets start the hunting process again.. and lets hope for august to bring good news for me.. :D..

air mata berguguran........

2011-03-31T16:09:00.000+08:00

hello blog, it's been ages since i last visited u.. i am very busy playing mummy u know.. hehe

anyway, i have nothing much to write actually.. just want to share this touching story.. omg, i swear i cried ~~everytime~~ the first time i read this.. (btw, i got this from somewhere, tk igt mane, sorry sbb copy.. huhu)

Hari ini, saya terpanggil bagi berkongsi satu kisah
yang sangat menyentuh hati dan naluri saya sebagai seorang yang bergelar ummi,
anak dan insan. Kisah ini adalah perkongsian daripada seorang DJ radio yang
menjadi halwa telinga saya di dalam kereta, sepanjang menuju ke pejabat. Ini
adalah kisah benar yang diceritakan oleh rakan beliau yang bertugas sebagai
anggota bomba. Mungkin ada juga rakan-rakan di luar sana yang turut mendengar
perkongsian ini.

Kisahnya perihal satu keluarga yang mengalami kemalangan
ngeri. Kereta yang mereka naiki terbabas, berpusing, melanggar pembahagi jalan
lalu terperosok ke dalam longkang. Dalam kejadian ini, kereta itu remuk teruk
dan penumpangnya mengalami kecederaan parah. Cermin hadapan habis retak
berderai. Tidak ditekankan keadaan pemandunya. Tetapi saya fikir, pemandunya
menemui ajal di situ juga. Mahu diceritakan, penumpang yang duduk di sebelah
pemandu mengalami kecederaan yang sangat parah. Wajahnya habis berlumuran darah.
Dahinya terkopek sehingga menonjolkan tulang tengkorak. Mungkin juga akibat
terhantuk pada papan pemuka kereta ditambah dengan pecahan kaca cermin hadapan.
Ajaibnya kuasa Tuhan, bayinya selamat tetapi terpelanting ke kerusi belakang.
Bayi kecil yang tidak tahu apa-apa itu meraung dan menangis. Mungkin kerana
kesakitan, kesedihan, terkejut dan sebagainya.

Sewaktu anggota bomba itu
mengambil dan mahu menyelamatkan si kecil tadi, ibunya terketar-ketar dan
menggigil sambil memberi isyarat kepada beliau. Subhanallah, rupa-rupanya si ibu
tadi mahukan bayinya bagi disusukan. Diselak bajunya dengan sedaya upaya dan
disusukan si kecil itu dengan penuh rasa sayu, pilu dan kasih sayang.

Si
kecil senyap di dalam dakapan ibunya. Betapa nyamannya dakapan ibu itu sehingga
mampu menenangkan si kecil yang ketakutan. Dengan kuasa dan izin Allah, ibu itu
tiba-tiba tercungap-cungap mencari nafas, tanda ajalnya yang semakin hampir.
Lalu terkapailah si ibu dalam keadaan yang penuh rasa tanggungjawab dan kasih
sayang itu. Ya Allah, betapa pilunya situasi itu sehingga merenggut ketenangan
anggota bomba tadi.

Sewaktu saya mendengar perkongsian ini, air mata saya
berderaian laju menitis di pipi. Malah, tatkala menukil kata demi kata dalam
ruang maya ini juga, bagaikan sukar air mata ini mahu ditepis. Betapa luhur dan
agungnya perasaan kasih seorang ibu kepada permata hatinya. Tidak terbalas dek
kita sebagai anak, yang selama ini tidak habis-habis bergantung pada jasa
ibu.

Dari kecil dibelai ibu, sudah besar masih juga mahu bergantung pada
ibu. Masakan tersedap, air tangan ibu. Segala pengalaman dunia, mahu dirujuk
pada ibu.

Sahabat sekalian, selagi kita memiliki dan punya ibu, hargailah
ibu kita setinggi-tingginya. Muliakan dan tatanglah ibu kita persis menatang air
yang penuh tatkala berada di gurun yang gersang tanpa penghujung. Betapa
berharganya air itu sehingga sekiranya boleh, setitis pun kita tidak mahu jatuh
ke bumi. Tanpa air itu, takkan lama kita bertahan dalam mengharungi perjalanan
di atas gurun tadi.Semoga kita mendapat iktibar daripada kisah yang dikongsikan
ini.

Sekian.

and seres rase nk nanges lagi skali.. huhu.. paling sedih part baby tu menanges and terus diam lepas isap susu the mummy.. :((..

shop till u drop

2011-02-02T09:30:00.000+08:00

i used to be obsessed with browsing the online shop selling clothes etc
and think, oh my, those baju especially baby's clothes are just too gorgeous
but then, paying rm50 (plus minus) for a fake baby gap or mothercare (etc) macam tk worth it
and much thanx to my SIL, i then discovered GM KL and later Klang
and my ~~wallet~~ life is never the same again.. haha..

yesterday, i followed my brother and SIL to GM Klang
my initial plan was just to get one or 2 baby tights and dresses for adreanna
but guess what? i came back with this..

those tights are rm8 per piece, u can get it at rm5 per piece if u wish to buy in bulk
the rompers are rm27 each (long sleeve) and rm22 each (short sleeve) - pack of 5
dresses are 50% half the price if u buy at least 6 pieces

murah bukan, u can totally save 50% or even more compared to online shopping dowhhhh..
and those who are pregnant, sila lah bershopping di sini and u can go crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
and to make it more fun, bring along a few other people, like what i did with my SIL, so u can share (hence, getting the wholesale price)

anyway, my total damage for above items are rm179 and there goes my plan to get a new handbag.. tskkk.. (-.-)!
but i am planning to come again, sbb smlm when i was just about to leave, i found a shop selling white shirt (with different design) for rm24 each!! gilo apo.. murah nk mampsss.. haha.. so i definitely will come back again very2 soon, and this time with husband along (so can go and borong baju adreanna lagi since daddy mmg suke shopping utk adreanna.. hehe)

totally random..

2011-01-28T12:26:00.000+08:00

the loan has been approved and i will be getting the car hopefully by tuesday
see, my new year resolution is back to square one
i settled one debt only to find myself involved in another one
which apparently of higher committment
but then again, this one, is a sacrifice
i mean, i have no choice, both my husband and i have no choice
with two person; who work different office hours, owning only one car is troublesome
and it becomes worse when you have a baby tagging along
hence, the solution, i bought myself a new car
after much consideration, i opted for a new one instead of a used car
and it is just a very small car anyway enough for a town-ride, office-home-office

***

adreanna is already 2 months 6 days today and she weighs 6.2kg as of last week
which means, carrying her around requires extra energy
what more, being adreanna, she just loves to be carried around only by mummy, not daddy
so, i can definitely foresee stronger muscles in the months to come

***

i am still adapting my new title as a full time working mummy
adreanna can be difficult at times which leaves me feeling hopeless & guilty
i can't tolerate when she cries non stop not because i regret having her around
but because i just simply can't bear seeing her crying
and usually it ends up with me crying together with her
i am such a bad mummy, huh :((
but i love her way too much i just want to see her happy and smile ALL the time

***

there will only be 2 days of working next week
yay!
happy long holiday people~~!

i'm back!

2011-01-10T21:50:00.000+08:00

just arrived from pahang at 1pm this afternoon. it feels different to be home after 7 weeks of 'holiday' what more to come back with extra 'baggage'.. it's adreanna's first time and she took it.. err.. quite well kot considering that she has been sleeping since tadi.. only wakes up for milk, even falls asleep while on my boobs.. it must be the weather kot, sejuk melampau tp tk hujan pn..

anyway, i have a lot to write especially.. of course on my birth story.. to be honest, i almost forget the whole experience so i seriously need to write it down soon so that i can read it again in the future.. the experience is just wayyy too priceless to be forgotten mcm tu aje, obviously..

so, will write more when i have the time i.e. when adreanna is sleeping.. :)

some things are better left unsaid..

2010-11-15T14:40:00.000+08:00

.. baby prefers my womb more than anything else in the world so she decides to stay inside a little while longer.. she was weighing at 3.5kg as of Saturday, 13th nov.. the doctor again reminded me for countless times that i should watch my diet as to not let the baby gets too big.. please reduce ur nasi intake she said again and again.. so for the sake of my little princess and myself, finally i gave in.. i stop eating rice for the past 2 days.. yay to me but not to others.. the doctor will be doing IOL next week monday when i am 40 weeks 2 days.. i actually requested to be induced before raya haji because to me, why wait when at the end of the day i still have to go thru the same process right.. (note: IOL adelah proses induce) but the doctor told me there is a very high chance that i might have to go through a c-sect because there is no contractions yet so she scheduled the induction on 22nd nov.. which is totally fine with me.. because i trust her.. she is a doctor after all.. a specialist some more.. when she says it's normal then it must be normal right.. i mean, there is no point in her telling lies, am i right or wrong? so, i take it as it is and feel perfectly ok.. even though, there is prolly 5% of doubt but then the feeling subsided when i asked a friend of mine who went thru exactly the same thing as i am now.. except in her case she ended up having a c-sect because up to her EDD, still no contractions..

so..

it's very very very much displeasing when some people started to.. well, as my title goes.. some things are better left unsaid.. so, i better stop now.. pouring my heart out won't do anyone good.. :(

i am..

2010-11-12T14:24:00.002+08:00

officially 39 weeks comes tomorrow.. and still going strong.. i mean, honestly, i haven't felt any sorta contractions just yet.. omg, is this normal or what? most of my friends whose EDD is a few days before me or even AFTER had safely delivered their babies and here i am.. well, a friend said i should enjoy the moment while it lasts.. of course.. but at the same time, being a first timer, i am still worried.. over nothing, i guess.. well, will be going for a check-up tomorrow and the doctor is going to do the membrane sweeping if i am not mistaken.. i don't know what the procedure is, i am just assuming.. because last time i requested the doctor if there is any way to speed up the process but no induction whatsoever.. and she said yes while mentioning something like urut2 wutever.. i don't know..

ii.

bored.. beyond explanation! been doing nothing at home except walking aimlessly from bedroom to the living room to the kitchen like mad people.. one minute i was surfing the net, the next time i was already at the kitchen opening up the fridge, scanning whatever things called food and then jump on the couch.. and the next minute plak seeing me lying on my bed trying hard to sleep.. and yes, waking up a few hours after, repeating the same routine.. crazy, huh?

iii.

going shopping in a few minutes time..! yay, the idea of getting outta the house is very refreshing you know.. hehe.. i wonder how it feels like living in jail.. >.

yesterday, today, tomorrow

2010-11-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

tomorrow will be the third day of my AL.. how fast time flies.. yuckiess..

yesterday i was pretty occupied.. came back from bangi and then sent hubster to his office and then did some grocery shopping at giant.. chillax2 at home, found a new blog to read, and the next thing i knew, it was already 10pm.. it was time to pick up hubster.. so i drove alone to klcc at 10.30pm.. i bet people at the petronas station were wondering what the hell this pregnant lady did out of her home so late at night.. heheh.. mom was also surprised to know that i am still driving around but then there is no reason why i shouldn't, should i? a friend had been asking is there any sign yet bla..bla.. and i don't know what to answer.. what kinda signs should i be getting.. i mean, yeahh.. of course there are those signs, the bloody show, the lightening and what not.. but i haven't felt anything just yet.. i even doubt i have braxton hicks.. errr.. is it normal or is it just me being so ignorant? but one thing i am very sure of.. my baby is so comfy inside my womb that up to my 37th week check up last saturday she was still in the normal position., when are you coming out little princess?

anyway, today did nothing.. just cooked lunch for hubster before he went off to office and slept from 3ish until 6ish.. and tomorrow i'm planning to do some 'walking' around.. need to go to bank islam and register tabung haji.. oh yeahhh, i've been procrastinating since forever ok.. i think i did open the account when i was in form 1.. wait.. that was.. 14 years ago?? haha.. so i doubt the account still valid.. anyway, i was planning to go perform the hajj when i am 35 yo which is 8 years from now but then according to our *ahemm* family planning, our 4th child will be just one year old so might postpone our hajj to year 2022 or 2023 in which i'll be 40 and hubster will be 49 by then.. just nice.. :).. insyaAllah, but the sooner the better.. semoga Allah permudahkn segalanya, Amin..

anyway, i'm almost done with all the preparation.. so happy with my online purchase.. i made the payment for the cooler bag & reusable ice packs at around 4pm on friday and to my surprise i received the parcel in less than 24 hours! the only thing(s) that is still pending is the car seat (which abang promised to sponsor.. yay!) and the stroller.. and i am not sure whether i should get it (the stroller) now or wait until my confinement is over? any idea anyone?

btw, it's already 10.39pm.. hubster will be home in 2 hours time.. his office hours begins at 2pm (or 3pm) and finishes at 11pm (or 12pm).. it's ok now that i am staying at home but how la.. nnt when i start working smule.. still haven't figured out.. tk kn la every mlm nk kene angkut baby pegi klcc.. huhu.. and to get another car? oh my, our dream home will be even farther away than we could have imagined now.. hmmmm..

seriously?

2010-10-27T10:00:00.000+08:00

googled

i have a colleague whose EDD is a week earlier than mine.. she went for her AL starting last monday and i will go on mine starting next monday.. and guess what??

she already delivered her baby girl last night at 1.50 am..!!

does that mean i'll be delivering mine next week too????

oh gosh.. sounds funny, but seriously gluk2 mate bergenang when i heard the news a few minutes ago..

huwaaa.. suddenly i have this panic attack.. tibe2 aje.. perhaps, all this while i have been living in.. denial??? i don't know.. i was so positive before up to a point rase nk lempang diri sendiri but then when it hits me right in my face that this is totally not a joke.. that i am seriously becoming a mom anytime soon, wa jadik panic and nervous and smue lah..

and suddenly i realize that i still have a lot of things to do/buy.. car seat tk beli lagi, breastfriend pillow and breastpad tk claim lagi kt lia, goodie bags for aqiqah, mommy's hospital bag, digicam.. aaahhhh.. so much of early planning la dulu kn.. tengok, still bnyk lagi jugak nk buat time last minute.. huhu

ya Allah, semoga kau permudahkn segalanya.. Amin Ya Rabbal 'Alamin..

i am head over heels for... (update)

2010-10-15T11:22:00.001+08:00

.. taraaaaa..

googled

yes, bookXcess.. and before i begin our 'lovestory' i must thank my SIL for introducing me to this bookshop.. seriously, my life is never the same again after my first 'date' with bookXcess

i never remembered myself as ulatbuku when i was a kid.. i did read a lot but mostly buku2 pelajaran hence the reason why i can memorize the whole buku karangan mase standard 6? freak bukan.. haha.. tp enid blyton tu ade la sket2.. anyway, the hobby came when i was in tkc where r.l stine and sweet valley macam dh jadi text books.. a must read among most of us.. so that was when i really developed the reading habit and started buying almost all the latest r.l stine books available in store at that time.. and trust me, the public library was the most frequent place i visited while waiting for my spm result sampai i ran outta books to read.. mind u, i only read chick lit novels yer (minus r.l stine la tu mase kecik2).. :D.. i don't do sci-fi or bibliography etc.. may be one day.. hehe

and the love i have for books just never stopped there but being a cheapskate, slalu sangat la tk sanggup nk beli buku sbb agak mahal.. usually a novel costs around rm40 the cheapest.. so imagine if i were to buy 5 books at one time tk ke dh almost rm200 tu.. (mmg la bleh tolak income tax tp still........... haha).. so, when i was introduced to bookXcess, wa jadi super jakun.. serious shit ok, mase first time pegi jadi mcm semput sbb mcm smue buku pn nk rembat.. super duper cheap even much cheaper kot than a secondhand bookstore..! contoh: twilight series rm29.90 je each ok.. brand new.. kalau kt mp.h rm69.90 right?? so at that time i bought.. hmm.. 5 novels which was rm9.90 each.. murah giler amat bukan? u can even get all those cecilia ahern etc at rm17.90 ONLY..! mane la wa tk gile kn..

so, since the novels and buku2 lain are terlalu la murah maka i have to restrain myself from going there sbb for sure akan bankrupt.. huhu.. but now, with the baby coming out soon, jadi makin bankrupt sbb buku2 baby and kids are sumpah banyak and smue la interesting teramat.. and one thing for sure, bookXcess akan jadi a must-place to visit every week dgn baby AM nnt.. wajib! :) and i'll make sure my baby develops the reading habit as early as possible.. marilah menyahut seruan kerajaan.. mari membaca.. :)

p/s: did i tell u that bookXcess now has all the series of dr.seuss?? super like.. u can get the hard cover one at rm14.90 je and yg biase at rm12.90.. aritu beli kt mp.h rm19.90 satu ok..

since a few of my friends have been asking pasal bookXcess ni u can check their website at http://www.bookxcess.com/ or http://bookxcessblog.com/ .. no, i don't get commission ok.. hehe.. i just want to promote and nurture a good reading habit among us all.. i know, just like me, ramai yg suke membace tp malas membeli.. :D

title-less

2010-10-14T17:19:00.000+08:00

i. time seems to move super slow this month.. don't u think so? or perhaps i'm the only one who suffers because (1) gaji awal sgt last month which was on the 23rd sept (2) gaji dh abes mase pegi convo kt skudai (3) there are still a lot of things to buy for little one yet gaji lmbt gile lagi masuk.. well, that might be the reasons kot.. adoiii.. 26th oct is like 12 days away lagi and i'm surviving on hubster's or else tiap2 hari minom teh tarik free je kt pantry..

ii. i'm down with fever for two nights already.. temperature going high everytime malam menjelma.. seriously sangat uncomfy to have a good sleep as i tend to wake up at midnight dgn badan berpeluh2.. 16 degrees aircond + full blast kipas lantai + full blast ceiling fan pn masih tk mampu menghilang kn kepanasan.. well, the weather might be the penyebab because it hasn't rained for the last few days kn? there wasn't even a drop of embun when we went out this morning.. so, marilah kite menyokong tenaga nuklear merangkap tenaga hijau dlm mengurangkn kepanasan.. boleh? haha..

iii. i think i can feel the braxton hicks already.. tp masih tidak pasti.. but i feel like having a very mild period pain.. mcm tu ke rase braxton hicks??!

iv. ptg ni hubster nk belanje lamb chop.. yay! mengidam since aritu

v. did i tell u that my hubster got a new job already? well, Alhamdulillah rezeki baby.. :).. so after this no more 12-hour shift for him means more time can be spent with me and our baby soon.. and yg penting no more lonely nights eventho still ade shift but it's only 8-hour a day.. and i no more drive to office! yay.. sbb hubster will take an lrt from abdullah hukum to klcc and klcc to abdullah hukum..

TGIF:Thank God I'm Fat

2010-10-08T10:12:00.004+08:00

as to date, i have a few drafts which have yet to be published.. and i think it will remain that way because i just don't feel like sharing my thoughts anymore.. but then, that was before and now i am back again tho there is actually nothing to cerita pn..

anyway, congratulations to one of my babes, maryam for the arrival of her new bundle of joy, baby nina maisara.. haven't got time to visit both baby sara (memandai claim sendiri panggil sara.. hehe) and the mother due to my busy and memanjang-full weekend.. perhaps, the following week kot.. oh, i need to go to lia's hse too to collect all the barang sedekah.. hehehe.. lucky i have such a wonderful sister-friend (ade ke term ni..) who gave birth to her second princess last may.. so, she insisted on handing down most of her items which i really2 need tp agak malas nk beli.. for example: my breast friend pillow and lotsa breastpad and banyaaak lagi (according to her la).. thanx sistah! :)

i'll be entering the 35th week soon which means secara normal nye, i have like 3 weeks plus to go or theoretically, 5 weeks more.. and so far, i am still doing ok.. i still have no idea what braxton hicks is so i don't know whether it's happening or not.. kaki masih ok.. the only thing that is pretty uncomfortable is the calf-cramp waktu mlm.. ouch.. it hurts a lot because it happens kat calf.. not tapak kaki.. and i've tried various remedies i found on the internet but to no avail.. so, everytime it happens, i would just sit down, and kelip2 mata tahan sakit and then fall asleep again after 3-4 'attacks'.. i can feel with my hand, the urat2 become hardens tp tahan je la.. huhu.. after all, sakit beranak and sakit mati and perhaps sakit gigi jugak jauh lagi sakit bukan.. *positive thinking*..

bercakap pasal cramp, oh my, these few days i have been doing more walking than a 35th week pregnant lady should do.. everyday i need to climb up/down untuk smpi ke rumah which is at the 3rd floor of a 4-storey-no-elevator apartment.. dekat office pulak, much thanx to the suke-hati-menjunam-tibe2 elevator, i need to panjat tangga all the way to 6th floor for a daily meeting.. everyday wa cakap lu.. not to mention, toilet yg tgh renovate so i have to either turun or naik one floor up utk gi toilet and amek wudhu.. so in total, setiap hari wa panjat more than 10 floors ok.. ni kalau susah lagi nk bersalin, mmg aku carik sorg2 sape yg ckp bnyk berjalan senang bersalin.. huhu

well, what else? i'm planning to take a one week leave prior to my EDD if in case dr.raja tknk bagi mc like the doctors kt panta! yg willingly bagi 2 weeks mc suruh rest kt umah (heavennn!).. so that means, i have like 10 days more at the office (i got 5 days course at !lsas nx week.. yay!).. best nye.. :)

so what...

2010-09-28T13:16:00.000+08:00

..if i am a local graduate?

i just don't understand why some.. well.. most people actually suke double standard org2 yg graduate overseas.. i mean, what makes them better than us, the local graduate? i am not blaming those graduates but i am blaming org2 yg men-double standard kn mereka2 ini.. just because they got a chance to study abroad does NOT mean they are more clever than us, the local graduate..

do you know that i got 9A's for my SPM and that i was offered by FOUR organizations to further study oversea? see.. i am not stupid.. but i rejected the offerS because my mom did not allow me (and my brother, too) to go abroad.. no matter how teruk i cried at that time.. so i chose uniten which apparently a LOCAL university.. and again was offered 2 scholarships by 2 different BIG companies..

at times, rase amat terhina to see that face whenever i mentioned i am from uniten/utm.. as if, duhh, local je.. rase mcm, huh.. knape bile someone ckp diye grad from UK (for example) people would go.. wahh.. mesti hebat ni.. kenape? nk kate those graduates ckp english gempak, mcm ramai je yg lintang pukang.. and bersepah je my friends yg local grad ckp english much much much better.. so what makes them BETTER than the local grad? kenape, kenape perlu double standard?

anyway, soalan tersebut masih remain unanswered.. sbb itu la mentaliti kebanyakan rakyat malaysia.. asal pergi oversea je konfem gempak, hebat, genius etc.. tp tkpe, since i can't change that fact, maka, marilah sambung belajar di oversea utk Ph.D supaya org tk pandang rendah kt kite.. :)

i am..

2010-09-27T14:17:00.000+08:00

..officially graduated from UTM with a Master in Engineering (Electrical Power)
phewwww.. the ceremony was ok but i think i prefer my bach. degree graduation in uniten better because it was more formal walaupun tkde royal family.. for example: in uniten we were not allowed to clap hands until the last name being announced so suasana mcm senyap sunyi and org boleh focus kt people receiving scroll on stage.. and time dpt tepuk tu mmg tepuk gile2 sbb puas hati smpi nk menitik air mate terharu etc.. tp kt utm, kene tepuk utk each and everyone so jd tk best sbb after a few names, org dh malas nk tepuk and bunyi pn dh tk sedap.. kelepet kelepet cmtu and by the time the last name dh tkde perasaan ape2.. so nothing special.. even mase queue nk naik stage pn smue org bercakap2 so tk rase formal and to me rase tk best..

tapiiiiiii.. the best thing was.. mase i was waiting for my turn and my name was being announced, baby A.M kicked really hard and sumpah mata gluk2 tibe2.. i know i was just being emotional.. she didn't even know what happen outside tp mungkin sbb terkejut ade bunyi kuat but still.. sumpah rase terharu.. being on stage receiving ur scroll with ur baby!! it was priceless!!

anyway, i still tk puas hati sbb grad fees mahal and majlis biasa2 aje.. hehe.. tk dtg pn tk apo sbenarnye.. btw, my SV called me after the ceremony and asked.. "so bile nk sambung Ph.D?".. i was like adoi.. tk smpi sejam grad master dh tny bile nk sambung Ph.D.. huhu.. but then, of course la i do have a plan.. at least before i turn 30 which is another 3 years time.. tp husbter isn't convinced enuff.. afraid i couldnt stand the pressure.. research master pn dh macam org gile apetah Ph.D kn.. tp i know i want to do it and it MUST be sumthing related to nuclear engineering cume i don't know where and when..

p/s: i didn't get the best student award for my course.. frust nyer.. if it wasn't for that 3 subjects with B+.. i shud have graduated with 4 flat!!!!!!!!!!!

jiwa kosong

2010-09-14T14:54:00.000+08:00

raya means nothing to me this year.. i felt totally, completely empty and at lost.. i didn't bother to take even one photo pn.. lemang didn't taste that good.. nothing seems right.. i mean, tk mcm raya langsung except for the new baju kurung and that was it.. i was just totally not in the mood at all.. so, coming back to office on the 5th day of syawal adelah bukan satu masalah besar langsung and how i wish for the raya holiday to end even sooner..

anyway, nonetheless, i hope it ain't too late to wish everyone a selamat hari raya and maaf zahir batin..

monthly check up!

2010-09-06T14:33:00.000+08:00

pic googled

so we went for the 7 months check up when i was already 29 weeks pregnant
it was just a brief meeting with the doctor.. less than 10 minutes
we did the 3D scan and she asked whether i got problem or not
i told her about the pain and she said it's normal
well, i already asked my friend about it actually (thanx dr. fazlin! will keep bothering u.. :D.. )
and i only found out today that the pain is called loose pelvic ligament or something like that.. it hurts ok.. sampai rase mcm nk terduduk but then i keep telling myself that beranak itu lagi saket maka ok la.. boleh tahan.. huhu

anyway, again this time baby A.M didn't give much cooperation
she hid her face behind her hands and when the doctor touched my belly she turned the other way round.. but then bile doctor suruh lie on my side, tadaaaaa.. we could see the face almost clearly..! and she was drinking at that time.. mulut gerak2 OMG rase terharu and nk nanges tgk ade SOMEONE inside my tummy.. huhu.. anyway, she is one SUPER DUPER chubby baby ok.. seres pipi amattttt bulat and.. ehemmm.. she looks like me (so far la.. hehe) hopefully,warna kulit pn ikut mummy.. hehehehe.. peace hubster.. :p

but when the doctor captured her in 3D she was moving so the pic was a bit blurry but everyone said she is smiling in that picture.. sukeeeeeeeeee.. :).. and we have to wait for the 8 months check up kate doctor in order to get a clearer picture of her.. so, in 3 weeks time, mummy & daddy will see u again ok sweetheart.. :).. next check up is scheduled on 28th of sept.. and that will mark my 8th month of pregnancy.. ouchhh.. sudah tidak lame.. huhu

oh deyyymnn

2010-09-03T16:10:00.002+08:00

... one of my solid reason for not attending the convo ceremony is because i don't want to spend rm250 just for the fee alone.. minus the travelling cost and what not.. no i am not that stingy but the fact that i have to splurge almost 1K for the sake of having my photo taken on the stage ade lah tidak berbaloi.. what with the ceremony yg 2 weeks after raye and my edd which is less than 2 months away after the convo.. banyakkk lagi duit nk gune.. yes, to me the photo is not thaaat important, what is more is the certificate itself which can just be posted to me by the uni, or so i thot..

so with the idea of not going for the convo,i was happily planning on buying the 'final' stuff for my baby i.e. car seat, baby bouncer and baby carrier.. and with the bonus coming in just at the rightest time, i was even much more happier sbb ade duit extra so boleh membeli belah ~~sebanyak~~ sedikit lebih utk baby..

tapi, angan2 ku musnah pagi ini selepas dpt tahu that the rm250 adelah wajib di bayar.. maka, selepas di timbang tara (?!!) i decided to just go for the ceremony lagi pn kesian jugak dekat my mom.. mesti nk tgk anak diye ambik scroll smue tu kn eventhough yours truly tkde perasaan pn.. maka, segala cita2 utk bershopping tamat di sini saje..

as a conclusion, siape2 yang membace, dan berniat nk menghadiahkn barang baby utk baby A.M, boleh pilih option di bawah:

a) bright starts musical pretty in pink baby bouncer (tk mahal.. rm199 je.. hehe)
b) mothercare 2-way baby carrier (lagi tk mahal.. rm120 je)

hahahaha..

tp mungkin ade hikmah di sebalik smue ni.. since baby A.M akan same2 naik pentas dgn mummy nye nnt mase amek scroll, mungkin akan bagi semangat utk jadi rajen belajar bile dh besar dan ikut jejak mummy amek master.. aminnnnnnn.. :)..

a long one..

2010-09-02T13:03:00.000+08:00

yay.. raya leave has been approved meaning i have only 2 more working days before i am off to kampung halaman on monday night.. i can't wait for the day to come a bit faster not because of hari raya but because i am too lazy to drag my heavy ass to the office.. i am looking forward for the holiday not the celebration because to me personally raya is just.. another ordinary day.. maybe a little extra ordinary with the solat sunat, food etc.. but what i'm trying to say is that honestly i don't fancy hari raya since i don't know when.. perhaps after arwah wan left us and most of my cousins (yours truly included) settled down and have their own family.. so like, no more family gathering the night before raya at wan's house, no more masak lemang & rendang beramai2, tour wajib to the last pasar ramadhan a day before raya with cousins or melantak sup tulang tgh mlm, main mercun.. or sebenarnye bunga api je (itu pn one of my pakcik dh bising bahaye etc2..), and bersesak2 carik port untuk tido and many2 more.. those memories are definitely will be missed because things have totally changed these days..

raya is no more meriah.. especially this year.. what more with husband only coming back on the first day of syawal so there will be just me and mom at home.. totally nothing to look forward to.. bought two boxes of f!r3crack3rs but i am not sure whether i will even be opening the box.. mungkin sedekah kt anak2 jiran je nnt itu pn if they are around and tk balik kg..

the only thing that i am looking forward to is perhaps the fooooood! since i doubt i can celebrate hari raya haji as my EDD is on 20th nov.. so, this is the time to jolap all the dagingggggssss rendang, lemang, nasi impit.. u name it.. and with the bulging tummy i will not have to worry perut buncit sbb kekenyangan ke ape.. yay!!! sedap nye lemang panas yg lembik2 sket tu mkn dgn rendang ayam/daging.. and mom's nasi impit dgn kuah kacang yg pedas tu mkn skali dgn rendang.. :D

anyway, off to another topic.. my 7 months check up will be this saturday.. i am scheduled to have that tetanus injection wutever it is.. i personally requested to have it eventho the doctor mentioned nothing during the last visit but now i have a second thot because i don't like the after effect.. org ckp tgn kebas la, extra lesu la, etc2.. it's ramadhan and i am already a little extra lesu and what with the injection nnt jadi super lesu.. ishhh.. but then, y do i have to listen to what others cakap2 kn..

.....!

2010-09-01T11:01:00.000+08:00

sumthing is definitely bothering me
but i won't tell a thing here because nobody will understand
and even if they do, they might interpret it wrongly

as much as i want to let it out, i can't, i just can't
i have many hearts to take care of
but i don't know how much longer can i survive
it's getting heavier to carry each passing day

dear Allah, please give me strength :(

i am not that strong..

2010-08-26T10:22:00.000+08:00

this has got nothing to do with an increased level of estrogen or any pregnancy related whatsoeva but honestly i can't look at this kinda picture without tears streaming down my face.. no joke!

i can look at disabled people on the street begging or kids without any feeling (sound so mean, ouch..!) but not warga emas.. a big no no..

it started way back when i was a first former in high school.. we had this kinda visit to the old folks home in seremban.. it was my first ever visit to such place (and the last.. huhu) and boy, i just kept crying almost all the time while i was there which was a pretty bad thing u see.. because these nenek/atuk dh mmg obviously sedih, stressed and what not and supposedly i (and the rest) were there to at least cheer them up and kept them companied but my presence just added to their misery.. dok menanges meleleh air mate mase salam and visit derg atas katil.. *omg, sumpah nanges igt balik those moment*

so, i told myself.. i am not being selfish but i can't let myself go through such thing again.. i mean, simply put.. i am not strong..! i cannot be there and pretend that i am happy tho deep down inside i really want to make them happy by at least making the suasana meriah.. because i know, they all miss their kids (yg kurang hajar pegi antar mak bapak ke rumah org tua) and the least we can do is to let them know that they are people that actually care for them.. but no, i won't do that.. all i can do is doa dari jauh because as i said, i am not strong enough to face them.. i am seriously not..

p/s: this will be the third raya without arwah wan around.. that means.. it's been 3 years plus wan had left us.. Al-fatihah.. semoga roh arwah wan di tempatkn di kalangan org yg beriman.. Amin..

kerisauan melampau..

2010-08-25T13:44:00.001+08:00

i'll be officially 7 months pregnant come this monday which means i have less than 3 months to go.. bunyi mcm lame tp sbenarnye skejap ajo.. i can't even believe i am already this far tup2 dh nk enter the 3rd trimester..

btw, seperti biase i have nothing to do at the office.. (i don't have any specific task yet, cume assisting here and there, attend meeting and what not..) so today i spent half the day blog-hopping bace pasal BF which apparently the one thing that i seriously worry about.. as if, sangat2 risau to a point my friend pn dh bosan re-assuring me that things will be ok.. huhu..

anyway, i am soooo very very very very determined to fully breastfeed my baby at least for 2 years (seperti yg tertules dlm Quran, if i am not mistaken).. tp lagi lame lagi bagus.. and i have nothing against those who tk BF but i am afraid if they start giving bad comments.. or worse discourage me from BFing.. i've read a lot about this dlm blog pasal other people experience and this seriously scares the s**t outta me.. i am afraid i won't be as tough as they are.. huwaaaaaa..

pic googled

but lucky thing, i am gonna berpantang at my mom's house so i don't think it'll be much prob to BF cume i ain't sure how far my mom supports this.. but i've dropped hints that i want to fully BF and told mom many times about my plan on buying the breastpump etc just so she knows how determined and serious i am in this.. and i hope she will be my biggest supporter aside from hubster.. sbb i know, during the first 2 months la is the most crucial time for BFing mommy.. kalau dh terfail mase tu mmg chances to fail utk selame - lamenye mmg cerah.. huhu.. seriously la.. fikir pasal problem2 ni je dh cukup buat rase gluk2 ok.. sumpah la sangat risauuuuuu.. :((

pic googled

ya Allah, semoga Kau permudahkn segalanya.. amin..

btw, anyone knows where can i get monavie at a slightly cheaper price? :)

iWant..

2010-08-24T08:19:00.000+08:00

Lencho

Baby Tama

Ping

Poallu

Hada

www.thelilcaliph.com

i want.. i want.. i want..
but not for me..
for my baby..
cute giler kn? especially hada..

tibe-tibe..

2010-08-18T15:57:00.000+08:00

..rase tknk pegi convo boleh tk? sbb macam tkde perasaan and mcm tk berape nk cukup bajet.. siape suruh buat 2 weeks after raye time2 org tgh miskin.. huhu..

..tapi macam nk gi jalan2 ke penang.. sbb nk mkn nasi kandar line clear, cendol yg famous tu and pasembor.. hmmmm..

..

2010-08-12T12:46:00.000+08:00

..Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now

wish right now..

The Company

2010-08-10T08:00:00.001+08:00

after almost 4 months here, there are a number of things i admire so much about the company

i. the fact that everybody don't greet good morning to each other but give assalamualaikum instead..

honestly, i was surprised at the beginning because i have been working in 4 different places before and not even a single company practised that.. but here, it's a culture.. from the big boss down to the org keramaian.. even to the kakak cleaner..

ii. all the guys perform zohor and asar berjemaah at the balai islam.. zohor is ok la because it's during lunch hour.. but i just love seeing them beramai-ramai going out at 4.45pm upon hearing the azan asar.. wearing selipar and all that.. it is just mcm very calming.. i don't know.. :D

iii. they have arabic class during lunch hour! but since it's optional so i always find an excuse to not attend.. huhu.. and end up having my beauty sleep in my room.. ouchhh.. should improve on this.. but then, i hate arabic language since forever.. ok may be not.. since high school.. ever since i got an E for the pmr.. lucky i sat for it when i was in form 4 or else i could have ruined my pmr slip..

iv. they are planning to have all the ladies perform zohor prayer berjemaah as well during Ramadhan.. yay! :)

weekend yang lalu

2010-08-09T17:42:00.000+08:00

i've been suffering from a severe backache these last few days and i am no longer able to lie flat on my back anymore.. the pain is just killing me
at the moment i have to surrender sleeping on my side which is very much uncomfortable
i did some research and of course it's completely normal especially for those entering the third semester
not to mention, the frequent cramps i get at night
but i was not complaining, not until yesterday when i decided to get a massage from this one makcik who happened to be a confinement lady as well
seriously, after the massage session which only lasted around 15 minutes
i woke up to a seriously painful back
i couldn't even lean against the kerusi this morning.. demmittttttt
but i guess i just have to bear the pain
remember idya.. giving birth is thousand times painful!

anyway, as mentioned in previous entry, we went for the 6-month check up last saturday and Alhamdulillah, li'l munchkin was in good sport
well, not really but at least dr. raja managed to confirm the gender
i was smiling all the way during the scanning process
not that i am unhappy if lil munchkin turns to be the opposite gender
either one pn i am more than happy as long as lil munchkin is healthy
but it's a bonus la kn because all the baju seems to be cuter in pink
don't u think so? :p
but i still give a little room for uncertainty as well because it happens so many times where the doctor said it's a girl but ended up yang keluar is a boy

went to janda baik on sunday..
PIL happened to have a friend who owns a nice wooden house there so they decided to go and spend a day away from the hustle and bustle of city life
well, it was indeed a serene place with green surrounding
and the house has a large verandah connected to a large pond
we can actually fish by just sitting on the verandah.. sangat nice and got a few gazebos around.. a really, really nice place to finish a novel or two but too bad, didn't bring any.. so i ended up sleeping during the afternoon
the river was just a few metres away at the back of the house so went there for a quick rendam session before going back to KL
and that was when the back pain started to attack me
arrived home at 8ish.. solat2 and off to lalaland straight away at 9pm..

so that was how i spent my weekend!
no rehat whatsoever for me again..
seriously looking forward to a good, quiet sunday this week~!

Updates

2010-08-06T16:18:00.000+08:00

i. come monday, i'll be 25 weeks pregnant which means i have merely 15 weeks left before the due date.. and honestly i still didn't quite 'register' the fact that i am becoming a mommy eventhough li'l munchkin has been making quite an appearance lately by kicking me even more often than usual.. simply love the feeling but then at times a bit tiring (not that i am complaining) because she (well, not 100% confirmed yet) likes my bladder better than any other part, so i have to pay an extra visit to the toilet which in my case agak tidak menyenang kn because i don't really like my office toilet..

ii. tomorrow will be my 6-month check up.. sangat excited and i am hoping li'l munchkin will reveal her toooot because last time she was so shy she decided to just make a few seconds show.. and i am also hoping that she'll be less mobile so the doctor can capture her in 3D.. i have already bought the "my 1st year book" and i really tk sabar to start filling it in with her photos and everything.. :D

iii. i did mention in previous entry that i have started shopping for baby stuff even when i was just 4 months pregnant.. well, i guess i did make a good decision doing so.. why? simply because i have now lost almost ALL the desire to shop and lucky me, there are just a few more BIG things that need to be bought (and A LOT of small other things).. walking around in shopping malls kill my legs these days and i can do well only with crocs (seriously) and not with other shoes/selipar.. and shopping online doesn't give me much satisfaction anymore.. (sbb dh overdose kot! huhu..)

iv. i have finished reading ina may's guide to childbirth.. well, what can i say.. i think the book makes me feel 'extra' positive about vaginal birth and seriously i don't feel scared at all (at the moment la..) which is a bit scary la because the delivery process is indeed painful kn? tktau la.. maybe i should stop re-reading it kot because nnt cm psycho lak sbb my mind keep telling that tk saket langsung and what not.. and then come the moment, the opposite thing happen.. huhu..

where did my money go?

2010-07-30T09:15:00.000+08:00

lately, people around me, who happen to be of younger age keep talking money
invest here, invest there, buy a house or a condo at least and so and so
like, are u guys seriously 23/24 years old baru?

demmitt... where was i at that age?
happily spending my salary without even a slightest thought about the future
mencalar kn credit cardS (note: the plural) as much as i can
went on a shopping spree like nobody business
and now that i am reaching 30 years old (in 3 years time ok) i have just realized what i have been missing
with a very very few it's embarassing digits in my bank account nothing i can be proud of
ok, may be i am exaggerating a little bit
i was thisssssssssssssss close to sign up the S&P for a gorgeous condominium in shah alam at the age of 25 but being me, i decided to not do it in fear that i would not be having enough money to spend after that.. like whattttttttttttttt kn?
hishhhhhh..

but anyway, it is never too late to start all over again right? huhu
i am now taking baby steps towards financial freedom
its been more than a year now i have been living my life happily without a single credit card under my name (err, i still cheat sometimes by using my hubster's.. :p..)
but then, the excess baggage is still there la of course.. who can settle all 3 credit cards debt which nearly reaching the credit limit within a blink of an eye kn.. sumpah la kene tukar name dulu jadi binti sultanah bolkiah or perhaps binti JHO LOW?
so, at the moment i am still paying off the debt which hopefully will finish sumwhere around next year
and then i tell you people, i will be totally absolutely living a debt-free life!!!!!
that is like, the ultimate point of happiness kot.. duniawi la i mean

here

and of course, i couldn't thank the company enough or the yayasan to be exact for converting my study loan to scholarship and RETURNING back all the money i have been paying in FULL.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. :).. rezeki baby tu..

thank you Allah for the rezeki.. thank you little munchkin for this is what they call rezeki anak.. Alhamdulillah.. ALhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah..

ujian Allah

2010-07-29T16:48:00.000+08:00

ever since i entered the second trimester i have been having this 'weird' feeling..
at times i feel so sad, anxious, worry, tk sedap hati.. all mixed up..
makin weird because most of the times i feel so is when i am in the toilet doing 'small' business.. pelik kn? or mungkin sbb time tu sorang2 layan feeling kot..?!

so last week, i was sangat tk larat to go to work and i decided to take an mc but i had no reason whatsoever to give to the doctor
maka, i decided to tell him about those feelings perhaps there is some sorta scientic reason behind it plus something had actually happened when i was back home which added to my constant worriness

and to my surprise.. yes, there is..

the doctor was telling me that i suffer from pre-baby blues.. and he gave me an mc without me asking (yay for that)

but today, after talking to mom, i realized that perhaps that feeling is not because of the pre-baby blues but because of something else which is related to the earlier something i mentioned before

i am so sad.. but i know mom is even more sad.. i can hear it from her voice

and now i know that answers all my doubt.. to my little nephew, please please please be strong.. you know you are loved by all of us.. whatever happen in the future, please know that we all or at least, wan cu and m.ngah will always always always be right behind you..

tgiFriday

2010-07-16T17:31:00.000+08:00

here

it's friday y'alls!

and tomorrow gonna have bbq at bagan lalang with the in-laws

have a great weekend, people..!

Shopping with a capital S

2010-07-14T13:58:00.002+08:00

mothercare is having a sale until july 25th.. and i've been itching to get this..

it looks so adorable and comfy! and the most important thing is that.. currently it is on 50% discount.. demmsss.. the next mothercare sale will be in christmas which nampak nye i can't go lah since i'll be having my confinement in pahang.. so, should i or should i not get it now? lets toss a coin! haha..

i want this fisher price butterfly pink also..

but i have never seen anything like this in malaysia.. perhaps can ask abang to get it for me at much cheaper price in aussie.. *fingers cross*

and if it is possible, i want this baby bjorn as well..

tapi harus lah berangan sahaje.. because the price for this one alone is even higher than the two items above, combined.. :(

p/s: colour of the items has got nothing to do with lil munchkin gender

* pictures from various website

ariel the peterporn?

2010-07-14T09:43:00.001+08:00

i was cleaning up the store room to make way for all the stuff in the second bedroom when i found this cd.. it was a cd given by my gurlfren, shazreen when i moved out of her house last year after getting married (it took me a year to really unpack all the stuff.. huhu).. i only watched it once before because i ended up crying the last time i did so..

but anyway, i thot things would change after almost a year.. so i brought up the courage to watch it again, this morning, in my office.. well, i did not cry (naseb baik, kalau tk mesti org pelik..) but tetap rase gluk2.. and one of the reason mungkin sebab ariel..????????? hehe..

i intend to write a long entry on this one but perhaps later.. :)

of short weekdays + long weekend

2010-07-12T12:48:00.000+08:00

1. i was on mc last wednesday.. it was a planned mc actually.. i had been contemplating on getting one since monday due to the evening sickness.. yes, it's back again.. i threw up in my room after lunch hour on tuesday so i had decided that for whatever the reason is i will take an mc the following day.. thank God (?!) the next morning, after consuming sebungkus (or was it two?) super oily fried bihun, i threw up twice at the hospital.. oh yes, finally we decided to go to see the specialist.. after much consideration, we chose columbia asia due to the close distance to our home.. it is within a walking distance ok.. so why bother going through the traffic jam to get to sjmc or sunway medical or pantai right.. mane2 pun same, insyaAllah.. :).. anyway, baby finally decided to reveal the toooot.. hehe.. but it was just for a very super short period of time.. i couldn't see it to be honest.. and even the dr. could just catch a glimpse and so she herself didn't want to confirm yet.. therefore, still have to wait for the next check up which is scheduled to be in august.. but, at least we got a hint and i am happy.. :)

2. i was on leave on friday for no apparent reason.. just felt like taking a break.. but i applied for it on monday.. if i had known i'd be on mc on wednesday (eh bukan mmg dh plan ke?) i might cancel it but boss already approved, so why waste right? heh.. i went to catch eclipse alone during jumaat prayer.. deliberately chose the time because that was when husband ~~could~~ would not follow.. it was great but i prefer twilight more.. but whatever it is, i still want to be a cullen.. i feel u bella.. weeeeeeee! went to gm plaza with hubby, abang & lin & si comel ai'syah later in the evening and got myself 2 dresses at half the market price! love love love it.. gonna get another 2 or 3 for raya.. melampau.. hehe.. and then went to midvalley since abang wanted to go to the maybank treat fair.. fell in love with mazda 8 (i think!) only to find out that the price is close to 200K.. no wonder la comfortable gile.. cehhhh.. tambah sket lagi bleh dpt 2 kot toyota wish.. hehe..

3. went to teman husband futsal-ing with his colleagues in the morning.. and stayed at home until ptg.. thot of going out tp tertdo pulak therefore we just went to tesco after maghrib and bought bath tub for baby.. hehe.. oh, there was one thing happened on that day that will surely be remembered (note: 20 weeks 5 days).. i was lying on the sofa watching tv and baby kept kicking inside so i told husband and he put his ear on my tummy to listen and suddenly baby kicked super hard sampai kitorg 2-2 terkejut.. hehe.. so sweeeeet, maybe its her/his way of saying.. "hi daddy! i'm doing just great in here..".. :)..

4. boring sunday.. went to klang and threw up tepi highway on the way back.. hubby went to work later in the evening.. slept early to catch wc final but only woke up at 3.30am..

one year

2010-07-05T15:05:00.000+08:00

The highest happiness on earth is marriage.

~William Lyon Phelps ~

today, 5th july 2010, marks our first wedding anniversary

Alhamdulillah for the beautiful journey so far

i have never been happier in my life

i loooooooooooooove u, dear husband

looking forward to many many many many (much) more anniversaries with u

weddy wednesday

2010-06-30T11:02:00.000+08:00

1. i was so pissed off with p1 customer service last night i ended up sleeping late by reading (and finishing) a novel. why so? because i attended a course last week and the speaker said never go to sleep feeling angry.. of all the things he taught, that was one thing i actually listened to (i should focus and listen more about work skills and ethics).

2. i'll be going for a 3D scan tomorrow at sunway. we both really tidak sabar because this is when we will find out the gender. yay. saya lagi tidak sabar dan sangat nervous but anyway, lets not discuss further about this dan berdoa segala nye selamat hari esok.. huhu

3. i think i felt the baby kicking last night and even now.. but i am totally not sure about this because maybe itu sekadar angin.. tp tkde la pulak rase nk kent or burp.. but if it is really him/her, adelah sangat active kot? tp mungkin jugak angin, sbb lately ni rase sangat loya as if the morning sickness is back again.. huhu

4. july 5th marks our first wedding anniversary.. and in conjuction with that we are going away to somewhere not that far from kl for the weekend.. it was a last minute plan and it was only yesterday i managed to go online and booked the hotel.. initially, i sooo wanted to stay at avillion, pd but too bad, the rooms are all fully booked for the weekend.. hence, we have to settle for the second best thing sahaje.. sedih tp tkpe boleh celebrate sambil mkn ikan pari bakar.. yummy.. yummy.. candlelight dinner? ape kah itu? yes, we are not that romantic.. hehe

natural birth

2010-06-28T12:26:00.001+08:00

"Women at The Farm know that labor can be painful, but many of them know as well that labor and birth can be ecstatic -- even orgasmic. Above all, whether or not they experienced labor as painful, to a woman, they found labor and birth a tremendously empowering passage"

"There is extraordinary psychological benefit in belonging to a group of women who have positive stories to tell about their birth experiences.. So many horror stories circulate about birth that it can be difficult for women to believe that labor and birth can be a beneficial experience.. If you have been pregnant for a while, it's probable that you've already heard some scary birth stories from friends or relatives"

"Believe me: if you are told that some experience is going to hurt, it will hurt. Most pain is in the mind, and when a woman absorbs the idea that the act of giving birth is excruciatingly painful -- when she gets this information from her mother, her sisters, her married friends, and her physician -- that woman has been mentally prepared to feel great agony"

- ina may's guide to childbirth -

random

2010-06-08T12:29:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah.. i managed to score 3.86/4.00 for my master degree.. and surprisingly got an A for my final project.. so much of crying, whining and everything eh? hehe.. thank you to those who have helped me through out the journey.. no words could ever describe how much i thank those wonderful people.. but anyway, to be honest i wasn't that satisfied with the result because i think i can do a bit better than that.. i mean, if i were to study a bit harder and rajin-er, sure can reach my target.. but then, it's ok.. ini pun dh cukup baik as compared to my undergraduate result (buat malu kaum je.. huhu)

the convocation will be in september.. 25th - 28th.. but no exact date for the masters students yet.. and i'll be 7 months pregnant by then.. ahh.. wonder what dress should i be wearing.. jubah mcm tk berminat je.. huhu..

anyway, i am now very much enjoying my free weekends.. and the fact that the result is already out makes all the weekends even free-er(!??).. hehe.. and with the almost non-existent workload.. boy, my life just can't get any better than this.. :).. Alhamdulillah.. but still, i haven't got the chance to go for a weekend getaway with husband.. which reminds me of our 1st wedding anniversary on july 5th.. hmm time really2 flies mcm naik jet.. it felt just like yesterday.. and we're now soon becoming mummy and daddy dh..

oh speaking of which.. our little munchkin is doing just fine.. doctor wasn't able to measure his/her exact size at 4 months because he/she kept moving here and there during the ultrasound.. seriously sungguh comell.. Subhanallah.. FIL said.. "mesti baby boy sebab lasak semacam".. and the next day when i was doing another check up at another clinic.. the doctor was listening to lil munchkin's heartbeat through the stetoscope (spelling?!) and he said.. "kuat nye heart beat.. mesti baby boy".. hehehe.. so is it gonna be baby L.E.I or baby A.A? :p.. can't wait for another one month to see.. but be it baby L.E.I or baby A.A, as long as u r healthy, mummy & daddy are happy enuff.. :)

online shopping

2010-06-02T16:44:00.000+08:00

ok.. i am a self-confessed online-shopaholic!

and i just developed the habit like.. a week ago?
well, blame the hormone.. :p
and blame those online baby stores as well.. hehe
to date, i have spent almost rm150 on bottle only i.e. feeding bottles and milk bottle storage and i'm not gonna stop
i still have a few more bottles to buy and lotsa other things
i tell u, some online stores' prices are much cheaper than the store we have in malls
so why bother hopping from one shop to another in search for a cheaper price when u can just do it online, right?
and the best thing is i can do it without my dear husband's knowledge
haha.. of course la later he will find out jugak tp at least after the purchase has been made.. and tk gune nk cry over spilt milk kn.. :p
but since we are not even half way through the month, therefore i should slow down my shopping activities
kesenangan meng-click and me-maybank2u here and there seriously very dangerous to my bank account
maka, harus tahan nafsu.. perhaps after i get another 2 botol of TT then i should give it a stop (for this month).. :)

tolong saye

2010-05-31T15:00:00.003+08:00

currently, there are two things that constantly conquer every single corner of my mind 1) giving birth, and 2) ou.twar.d bo.un.d mal.ay.sia (O.BeeM)

i talked about giving birth in my previous entry and now i wanna talk about the fear of going for the o.bee.m.. huhu

apparently, attending one is a must in t.en.bi which determines whether u'll be a confirmed staff or not.. it's written in the agreement so there is no way u can run away from it.. since i am pregnant therefore i couldnt join my pep35 last time.. i was a little bit frustrated actually because the programme duration is 15 days in which u totally have no contact with the outside world, no handphone whatsoever.. so if u happen to go with ur own batch at least u know u r surrounded with familiar faces which seemingly doesn't apply to me now.. and the activities are very2 physically and mentally challenging to the extreme therefore those who just give birth are also not allowed to go (there was one case where this one lady who just had a c-sect accidentally "terbukak jahitan" due to the extreme activities.. uhuhhhhh..) hence, what i am trying to say here is, it might take me another one year before i can go for the o.bee.m

this is how the khemah looks like.. gilo apo.. kiri kanan terbukak.. adoiiii

pic taken from here

ok, and talking about the extreme activities whatever.. i think i am ok with the physically challenging one.. i mean, i can at least build up my stamina or worst come to worst i can just pengsan or sumthing.. but the most not-so-interesting part is the 3 days 2 nights solo camping in the middle of the hutan!! oooo myyyy godddd okkay.. as in seriously omigawd!! what am i gonna do alone in the middle of a jungle!! and listening to the stories is not helping at all.. totally not.. what with the "pakcik tua kejut tgh mlm and say anak boleh tidor tempat lain? sini kubur".. oh shyteeee.. and what with perempuan baju putih jalan2 sekeliling khemah and endless storiessssssssssssssssss... seriously i almost pee in my seluar dalam right now.. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. how do u prepare urself for things like this aa? i know it's not too late to hafal surah yasin given one year time but it won't be enuff.. being afraid is not the way to survive but tell me how on earth do u deal with this.. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lagi.. :(((((

whoaaaa

2010-05-30T15:45:00.000+08:00

MYR1,688.00
~~MYR1,886.00~~
SAVE MYR198.00

why o why it has to be thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat expensive?

anyone can get it cheaper?

please please let me know..

saya pengecut

2010-05-25T15:27:00.000+08:00

tiada keje maka mencari pekerjaan
adalah gatal
sedikit menyesal tapi macam mmg patut tahu pun
it's just a matter of time anyway

aihhh..

giving birth is seriously a scarrrrryyyy marrryyyyyyy thing!
like seriously, no kidding
i am so determined to have a normal delivery
but reading those stories makes me think twice, triple, juta2 kali...

alamakkkkk!

i think i might be ok with the pushing part
but i can't imagine the jahit part
sulam renda? tknk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cmne nih?
iskkkk...

tapi kalau org lain boleh kenape saye tk boleh?
mak lahirkan saye kt umah lagi
for sure tkde bius, laughing gas ke ape jadah kn?

tapi, masih takuttttttttttttttttttttt!
ooemmmji..
*nanges*

the summary

2010-05-19T12:41:00.000+08:00

1. family trip to Jakarta-Bandung was awesome. din buy much since i din bring any rupiah. i was fully dependent on dear husband but anyway, he managed to get me 4 maternity dresses.. :).. 4 visits to bandung, i ended up being the penunjuk jalan to the driver. hehe. he was a new driver from jakarta. "vocabulary outlet saya masih lemah" hence terpakse la tunjuk where the outlets are..

@ rumah mode

2. came back from jakarta on sunday, and went for a site visit to Manjung Power Plant on wednesday. well, back to the beginning i must say.

@ switchyard, pencawang grid 500kV

3. came back from manjung on thursday and went back to temerloh on friday night after work. it was a surprise for mak's birthday on may 15. husband got to work on sunday so we went back to puchong on saturday evening

4. the result??? i was down with fever yesterday and a swollen throat. huhu

5. i managed to go to midvalley yesterday after work despite the painful throat. and wahlaaaaa... i loveeeeee what i found.. :).. i pretty much have everything i need for my junior now (not that i bought any, yet..).. and i can't wait for the 5th months to start buying them.. hehe..

Alhamdulillah

2010-04-13T22:13:00.002+08:00

good things come to those who wait?
yes.. and i couldn't thank Allah enough for that
thank you Allah, thank you very much for all the rezeki..

1. my project presentation did not go that well the other day. i was already at skudai when i realized that my project is just a piece of crap but it was too late. i got to do what i got to do i.e. to convince the assessors that my project is actually up to par with the master level. well, let's just say that i was not that confident? i did answer all the questions asked but i swear i was not convinced at all. the total marks for the presentation was 30. 18 was my target.

my lecturer called yesterday evening. "idya, you got 24/30 for your presentation".. :))))))

2. the project report must be submitted before april 9. i got a test on april 4. it was the worst test ever because nothing seemed to stay in my memory despite huge effort being put to study and memorize. i swear i read at least 4 times but seriously i couldn't remember a thing. ok, tipu, i couldn't remember 90% of what i had read. panic attack. because i got 24/50 for the first test. ahhh, i hate the subject because it has got nothing to do with my major. i hate anything electronics for that matter. so, i went for the test with a 3/4 empty mind and shame on me... i cheated.. yes, i flipped through my notes with a huge guilt. :( but it only contributed 2 marks.

the result was out yesterday. i got 32/40. ok, minus the 2 marks for cheating so the truth is i got 30/40 for not studying. i considered that as an achievement. but no, i won't repeat that again. both the cheating part and the not-prepared part. must study real hard for the final paper. must get A.

3. i ~~was~~ am under a lot of pressure at the office. my facebook status can tell that. last week, i was involved in a major fight with the ~~syaitan-dari-neraka~~ m!ddl3 345+3rn boss.. he screamed at me and i screamed back at him in front of 20 other staffs? and if that doesn't sound bad, i slammed his door as hard as i can. yes, but i tell you that did not compensate for all the stress i have to endure working under him for the past 3 months. seriously, it was like working in hell and with that resignation letter i submitted last saturday, that makes me the 4th person to tender because of him. he is just impossible to work with and i can write one hell of a book to tell how bad a boss he is. so, i tendered with a 3-months notice without any back up plan. am i stupid? yes, but i will be the stupid-est person ever exists if i stay.

i received an email a few hours ago.. "Sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa tuan/puan dengan ini akan ditawarkan untuk berkhidmat dengan TNB sebagai Eksekutif Pelatih (PEP 35) berkuatkuasa...."

so all in all, i just would like to say that, yes.. good things come to those who wait.. Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah.. :))))).. thank you Allah

boss from hell

2010-04-06T21:59:00.000+08:00

" I have an intimidating boss who loves to push our team around. He has two of my colleagues do his work for him while he sits in his cubicle watching the golf channel and surfing eBay for Nike golf apparel. He’s obsessed with golf. In times of server crashes he runs around the office blaming everyone for not caring instead of coordinating our efforts and leading the way. Then he expects us to fix the problem overnight without compensation while he leaves work at 4PM. He heard the term “Self Managed Teams” and said perfect and advised us to become one just like that. Yet if I come 5 min late in the morning he lectures me on being punctual just before he leaves for half an hour to get breakfast, on top of his 1 hour lunch break where he goes home to watch OC and a half an hour afternoon coffee break. He refers to himself as an Engineer but really he’s a college technician. He truly believes he can be the Vice President of Information Technology of a $65 Billion company yet when I suggest implementing an IEEE standard for our team he responds by asking “what’s that?” He’s all talk but no action.."

copied from "spotting the boss from hell"

well, i am relieved to know that there is someone somewhere on the other side of the world who share the same experience as mine.. who go thru the same shit like me.. and that somehow ease the burden.. huhu

..

2010-03-26T13:26:00.002+08:00

i think God hates me..

a new journey?

2010-03-22T15:54:00.001+08:00

life couldn't get any better and I thank Allah million times for that.. Allah does know best.. :)))))

anyway, my painful journey in getting a masters degree is nearing the end.. Insya Allah, in less than one month, i will bid goodbye to weekend-classes, stressful assignments etc.. but surprisingly, not being oblivious to the fact that i still have to endure that less than one month journey which apparently the toughest one, i am ~~crazily~~ looking forward to furthering my PhD.. haha.. i must not be at the right-est state of my mind while writing this, must i? anyway, dear husband was not that convinced when i told him the idea.. haha.. he was afraid that i will not be able to handle the pressure and what not.. well i don't think i can either but that is the sweetest part, no? i mean, pressure is what keeps you going.. :p.. i think, i am being manipulated by my own dreams i.e. to become a Dr before i reach 30.. or at least, on my way of becoming one..

but anyway, i have more than half-a-year to decide on that.. probably after November i'll be serious about that.. :))).. we'll see how thing goes and for the moment i will just take things one at a time and definitely leave everything to Allah.. as i mentioned earlier.. only Allah knows best.. :)..

blogs.. babies..

2010-03-11T13:32:00.000+08:00

my favorite past time since becoming a lecturer now involves lotsa blog-reading. haha. yes, because i have more than enough time to waste, no? of course not, it's because this stupid college restricted the internet access to not only facebook and the likes, but also to yahoomail, gmail etc. (thank God, they didn't block blogspot?) and nak gune ultrasoft pun sangaaat la slow, hence i use my time "wisely" hopping from one blog to another.. ok2.. that is a very2 lame excuse.. boleh je sbenarnye buat bende lain sbb gune wirelesskl yg agak laju.. :p

anyway, back to my blog activities.. i have a few blogs that are now officially become my favourites.. those are ob.3fi.3nd and a few mommies' blog.. i simply love ob.3fi3.nd's because i found his writing very2 amusing and at the same time mind-provoking.. if u happen to visit his blog, yes, i love that kinda entries.. that's why my favorite newspaper now is the sun sbb selain dr free, i like the articles written by a columnist named nades.. it's like an eye-opener and sangat informative (may be not to others)

and sometimes, when i need something light, i hop to a few of my favorite mommies' blog or newly-wed's blog.. i love reading their stories on raising their first kids or pregger with their first kids or preparing for the wedding and etc.. very2 refreshing.. :).. hehe.. and seriously boleh addicted ok.. and talking about babies, i visited one of my uni-mate's blog yesterday and she wrote about her wishes for her yet non-existent baby.. and i think i would love to do that as well.. it will serve as a reminder for me in the future because i tend to forget things easily.. anyway, it is just my wishes.. may be or may be not it will be materialized, only God knows..

i don't want my kids to get involved in ben10, ultraman, upin&ipin wutever thingy.. a big no-no.. (i was brought up that way, and i survived! so, it shudn't be a problem i guess)
i don't want my baby boy to have any toys such as plastic gun, plastic sword or the likes.. ade lah ~~haram~~ tidak di benarkan same sekali.. :)
i don't want my kids to ever, ever, ever eat junkfood.. NEVERRRRRRRRRRRR.. (my mom never bought me and abang twisties, pringles, super ring ke ape ke mase kecik2 dulu.. huhu.. maggi pn once or twice a year je, seriously.. and yeah, we survived!)
i want my kids to love to read.. hence i will make sure i start reading books to them as early as possible
i don't want my baby girl to just wear pink and my baby boy to just wear blue
i want to fully breastfeed my baby until at least 1 year-old (i know it's difficult for a working mom but i've read in a magazine it's do-able)
i don't want to spoil my kids but i want to be their best friend
i want my baby boy to be a tahfiz hence i will send him to sekolah tahfiz as early as possible (ini adelah WAJIB! dear God, please2 remind me when the time comes)
i don't want to buy expensive things for my kids just because i love them so much (no offense ye.. i know most parents love doing this)
(to be filled when the time comes.. hehe)

and no.. i am not pregnant yet.. :)

holidei

2010-03-01T15:40:00.000+08:00

3-days weekend is definitely not enough.. i need more holidays and the fact that there is no PH in march is just very disheartening.. and march is gonna be the busiest month ever for me.. because my viva / project presentation will be at the end of this month.. aiyaaa.. i am only 40% through and i still have like a very looooong way to go.. but t.nb people has been nothing but very very very helpful.. thank u so much people.. :)

anyway, what did i do during the last weekend? lazing around like nobody's business? yes.. but only on friday because it was the 4th week therefore i needed to drag my lazy ass on saturday to work and something happened at the office.. sux! i hate my boss. period. later sleepover at abang's house while tumpang basuh 2-weeks punye laundry and main2 dgn my dearest ai'syah.. comelicious..! :).. anyway, the initial plan for the weekend as conteng-ed in the calendar, was to finish at least 2 chapters for my thesis but i only managed to get my hands on it on sunday.. huhu.. therefore i couldn't even finish one chapter pn.. boohoooo.. and was planning to cook chicken chop that day.. tapi kemalangan nasib, smue breadcrumb dekat puchong abes.. and i spent freaking 2 hours hopping from one shop to another dengan tk mandi nye.. demmittt and i ended up buat fried apple pie je.. thank god hubby dearest ckp sedap.. hehee.. ok la, since it was my first attempt anyway..

i wish for more weekend like last weekend (minus the working-saturday of course).. and i am really looking forward for the singapore trip next month.. eventhough, it's gonna be a very short one since i have a final exam the very same weekend.. ceiiissssss.. and i am thinking of going somewhere near with hubby dearest for just a weekend getaway.. melaka mcm ok boleh makan ikan bakar.. :) tp genting pn best.. tp bile nye nk pergi pn tktau.. hehe

i hate my students

2010-02-23T17:18:00.001+08:00

exhibit 1
one foreigner student who has been MIA for the past 3 weeks suddenly came to class. he only came once, early this month.

me: where have u been all this while?
student: i came to class madam, but u were not there
me: how is that possible?
student: seriously madam. i went to the class but u were not there.
me: class, we did have class right for the past three weeks?
class answered yes.
student: but madam, i came.
me: ok, if u really came to the class, and i wasn't there, why din u go to the staff room and look for me?
student: i went but u were also not there.
me: ok. whatever.

exhibit 2
same student. and surprisingly he came to class again for the 3rd time.

me: ok. u have the values for R1 and R2. now, calculate the Rtotal using this formula (clearly written on the board)
student: i got 120 ohm, madam.
me: u shud get 280 ohm, try again. (while pressing the calculator to confirm)
student: i got 120 ohm.
me: just key in the value. I have already given u the formula. u can't be wrong.
student: it's 120 ohm, madam. this calculator is wrong.
(are u fucking kidding me? can a scientific calculator be wrong? i mean, boleh la but it's very rare kan?)
me: gimme the calculator, and let me try.
me: see.. 280 ohm

moral of the stories.
1. don't find trouble with your lecturer
2. don't give stupid reasons sampai boleh kene lempang
3. if u can't even use a calculator to calculate a very2 simple mathematics, ask urself why u r taking engineering
4. if u can't even solve 340 = 20 + I. Find I. then again, ask yourself, are u sure u want to read engineering??????????

sabar ade lah separuh dari sabarudin.

trimpots

2010-02-20T11:56:00.001+08:00

i have been super-itching to write about something since the past few days
and i have even drafted the whole entry in my mind
but then i don't think it's appropriate to write it here because i am pretty sure it will stir lots of emotions
therefore for everyone's sake, I refrain myself from doing so.. :)
but maybe in due time, i will do so jugak kot..
just for the purpose of channeling the "feelings" out of my system..
lalalala..

*title has got nothing to do with the contents

sweetie pie..

2010-02-20T10:36:00.004+08:00

after 2 months and 3 weeks, now only I can put up my beloved niece's picca..

much thanx to my laziness and to my kaput digital camera battery charger as well..

now i can no longer take piccas and have to be dependent on others.. sangat tidak best..

nur ai'syah binti yuzairill haizad

my brother was telling us how at times he felt so awkward writing his daughter's name with "binti yuzairill haizad" and mistakenly wrote "nur ai'syah binti hamzah" instead.. haha.. well.. i felt very awkward too just now.. :D

randomness

2010-02-04T11:25:00.002+08:00

1. i can't wait for my master to end.. badly.. i can't wait for free weekends in the future.. i want to have a feeling like "aaa..nk buat ape eh wiken ni" rather than "ala..ade klas wiken ni.. nk kene jumpe lecturer.. bla.. bla.." and before u know, monday is already there and u can hardly notice the existence of your weekends..i am sick of having fully-occupied holidays.. and i am too sick of having things bother my mind.. and that's why i can't wait for this mess to end.. and what is even better.. i was looking at the program schedules and found out that my hard cover thesis should be submitted on 30th april 2010.. and guess what? the following week i.e. 7th of may, i am going to bangkok with my family.. what a way to celebrate the freedom right? and yes, that is if i manage to complete my project la.. huhu..

2. speaking of which.. i am again back to square one.. uncle did reply my email informing me that the project will only kick off after raye cina.. which leaves me only 5 weeks before the project presentation.. i don't think i can finish everything in such a short period of time.. so i am having doubt now whether to continue with uncle's project or revert back to my old title.. but, after doing some thinking.. i think for the time being, i just need to tabah kan hati setabah2 nye and try to continue with my current title.. and see where do i go from there.. i'll be seeing dr.amir from uniten this monday.. optimization is his area of specialization so i am hoping i will get something from him outta the discussion.. and if nauzubillah, it is still going nowhere then i have no other solution but to stick with uncle's project and prepare myself to extend the semester.. ahhh.. benci.. nnt convo sorang2.. :(

3. i am still waiting for an email from T*B to see whether i'm accepted for the second interview.. as for the first one which was an assessment consisted of a group discussion and written test.. well, i would rather say i did just average.. i was pretty confident with the presentation and discussion but i think my essay was terrible.. we were asked to write NOT less than 500 words essay on "T*B's image to the rakyat: is it inclined towards positive or negative?".. i am forever suck at factual essay so it was really a struggle for me.. i ended up writing 2 pages of rubbish i think.. therefore, i am not putting so much hope at the moment.. if my rezeki is with them, then insyaAllah i'll make it through.. but if my rezeki is with ***UC, then i will just need to brave myself for god-knows-how-long working with this bodoh-sombong program manager of engineering school..can u imagine, he is a pm but he has no clue at all how many students are in his program.. and he is even more clueless on what is the passing mark for the exam.. i wonder how on earth did he become where he is now.. well, that's another story to tell.. a long one, i think..

4. happy thursday y'alls.. tomorrow is friday.. and weekend is just under the table.. and i need to see my supervisor this saturday.. and complete my assignment on sunday.. aihhhh

handbag

2010-02-03T16:57:00.001+08:00

i think it's about time i get myself a new handbag
i have been using my hantaran handbag until the color turned yellow-ish already
i don't know what happened to my other handbags.. just don't feel like using them
i did fall in love with a charles and keith a few months back
been eyeing for it for months and when husband was willing to buy it the feeling was just not there..
i put it on a few times but couldn't find any chemistry..aihhh
so, now i am thinking of buying a new one perhaps, something different from my other collection

here

i hope they have this in robinson the garden

bodoh

2010-01-28T12:24:00.002+08:00

i thought i was seeing some light at the end of the tunnel
but boy, how wrong-er could i be
i was just fooling my own self
the "help" that uncle was supposed to give well lets just say it remains there
i am not blaming him though
perhaps, he is busy with his work
and that sent me back to square one
i need to change back to my previous topic, the one which definitely brings no light at all to my super-long & super-dark tunnel
the one which refuses to make some progress regardless how hard i try
and come to think of it
u r doing a project.. in which u have to come out with your own ALGORITHM
but u r alone, as in.. a.l.o.n.e with NOBODY to help, nobody at all
my supervisor sux, yes, that's the best word for him
i wrote a super long email telling him what my problems are
and his reply was only 2 sentences? and of course without answering my questions
i am super stressed ok.. i don't even know how to put it in words
sumpah stressed tahap dewa *&^*&^!$%!^&!*(

how am i gonna finish my project if i have no guidance at all
all people keep saying.. try la, sure boleh..
mmg la boleh.. tapi mcm mane nk boleh kn tu kalau tkde orang nk tolong langsung
as in ZERO help
unless i am albert einstein then petik jari je seratus algorithm pn boleh dpt
and i am doing a masters degree not a PHD
even PHD pn ade guidance jugak from the supervisor

setan btul.
i just need a fucking guidance
just a GUIDANCE for god sake
bukan nye nk suruh siyap kn project aku la babi
mcm mane aku nk buat kalau tkde sape org nk guide.. gampang!
sampai mampus pn aku tkle nk buat mcm tu

i am just plain stupid. i was stupid before and i am stupid-er now.
and definitely will become the stupid-est person on earth in the future.
and why am i so unlucky in every single thing?
why do everyone succeed in their field and i always be the stupid-est?!
why everything must turn out not the way i want it?
why everything just don't work out for me, regardless how i try
regardless 110% effort i give in what i am doing
why am i just plain stupid?
i know this won't help
even if write it thousand times pun, my project will still not go anywhere
and i will definitely screw my masters degree
pergi mampus la kau dgn 4 flat kepale hatok.. pegi mampus smue..

dilemma

2010-01-25T14:37:00.001+08:00

Congratulations,

We are pleased to invite you for an assessment for the Executive Training Program (PEP) at T*B.

******

after 4 years of waiting, now they are calling me for an interview, apparently after just 3 weeks i am at a new place. how cow? resignation is either 3-months notice or 3-months salary.. and i am already sick of this place.. yes, it takes me less than a week to hate my job.. i am confused..

my masters project is going nowhere and i am forever stuck.. remember my previous entry about meeting the GM..? well, apparently uncle couldn't help.. mathematics is not his best interest.. "we are engineers, we just make use of the formulas.." correct, why do we have to bother about where on earth that formula comes from right? so, i was back at square one.. but being helpful nonetheless, he suggested another option.. he gave me another topic related to a research he and his staff are working on.. they were about to submit the project to the CEO this march so he asked, why don't i just join the team.. with my experience in pss/e (the software that they use) i can be a great addition to the team.. well, it does sound perfect right.. what more with the interview coming soon.. don't you think it is just like the best stepping stone one could ever have? the stone is right there in front of you and all you need to do is just jump.. with a very little force.. right? cool..

but, with that project.. i am required to be at TNB, bangsar at least one day a week.. for meeting and project report and etc.. uncle is even willing to get me a place of my own.. very kind and very2 helpful of him.. BUT, now come the biggest obstacle.. how do i allocate that one day a week? even though the project will only finish in 8 weeks.. but still, how do i find that time? the head of program @ my boss had already firmly informed me during my interview.. he doesn't want me to mess the working days with my masters project whatever.. he doesn't want me to take leaves or anything regarding my projects..

so, now.. i have a conflict of interest.. working or finishing my project? there is no way i am gonna extend my project just because i can't take one-day leave every week for merely 8 weeks.. and to simply let the opportunity slip away by not accepting uncle's offer.. it's like the biggest opportunity ok.. i would be a big dumbass if i reject that one..

and if let say, i nail the interview (amin).. the intake will be in march which is 2 months away from now.. if i don't resign now and wait until march to do so, i would have to pay a 3-months salary.. and if i do resign now, and nauzubillah, i fail the interview, then where should i find a new a job? back to being a housewife? sighhh..

which one is more important?
a) finish my masters project.. graduate and apply better job in the future but with no money along the way
b) extend my masters project (till God knows when) but have a steady job?

take your pick..

hmmm..

2010-01-22T11:37:00.000+08:00

Allah, again answered my prayers.. Alhamdulillah
He sent an angel to guide me because He knows that I am going through the hardest time of my life at the moment
and the angel is in a form of a friend, yes.. thank you miss ruhaizah
and tomorrow i'll be sitting with the General Manager of TNB System Planning & Development himself

yezza.. i was telling ijah how suffering i am right now and then she mentioned "knape tk mintak tolong ayahanda aku?"
seriously okkay.. uncle yusof has never ever crossed my mind
but then, sedikit ketakutan ye because i am very sure he'll be asking a lot of theoretical and technical questions.. aihhh.. tp redha aje lah.. at least, there IS someone out there to help me and get me outta this mess kn..
rather than being alone, blaming myself and not doing anything.. huhu..
looking forward for a fruitful discussion tomorrow.. insyaAllah..
hopefully, i can at least get something ke ape ke kn so i can show to my supervisor next week.. :)
aminnn

drama

2010-01-21T08:50:00.001+08:00

i was ok yesterday despite a very2 slow progress of my project
i was stressed, no doubt about it, but i still can take it
even though, i know it is going nowhere but ade la jugak part of me that says i can do it no matter how slow, no matter how hard kn
because i know myself, i am far from being a quitter or else, i won't be where i am today
but then, "something" violently took that spirit away from me
and now i am back to square one
back to the "why-am-i-so-unlucky-bla2 me
seriously, this is so disheartening ok
like my energy has totally gone down the drain

and u know what is that something?
it's actually a news that one of my masters friend has completed her project and now she only has her thesis to write.. oh my dior!
sumpah la patah semangat
like tgk ur friends running freely but u r still struggling to crawl
it's a super duper big put-off, seriously..

anyway, after i got the news, the next thing i did, was asking as many friends as i can, siape yg nk extend project.. hehe.. at least, i know i am not going to graduate alone nx year.. screw u stupid project.. penat2 aku blajar dpt 3.93 and this is what u give me.. u r so gonna ruin my whole result.. demmitttttt...

life.. oo life..

2010-01-19T11:28:00.003+08:00

life has been ok. after a week i am already getting used to my new routine. wake up at 5.30am and hit the road by 6.10am. breakfast with dear husband and then by 6.55am i am already on my way from tmn jaya to masjid jamek and then change lrt ke jln sultan ismail. after a few minutes of walking dan sessi memanjat jejantas yg amat la tinggi, i arrive at the office around 7.30am with "sweating armpit" and loose knee.. hehe.. work or smenanye more like doing my project like nobody's business.. (i never take lunch because i always make sure i eat heavy breakfast) and then at 6.55pm, walk to lrt station and reach tmn jaya 30 minutes after (much thanx to the new 4-coach train). buy some roti and mineral water and then wait for dear husband until 7.45pm and reach home at 8.15pm. cook dinner, eat, wash dishes, kemas dapur until 9.15pm. gosok baju, mandi,solat and by 10pm i am already too tired. but i can't sleep because i need to allocate at least one hour for my masters project thingy every night.. tp usually by 10.30pm tu i am already somewhere in lalaland. hehehe.

i am out of the house even before the sun rises and come back way after the sun goes down..

and no, i am not complaining.. i am just sharing.. :)

*and i think that's why Allah decides not to create a mini-me just yet..

depression?

2010-01-15T13:50:00.001+08:00

i did exactly what my friend told me

i got myself distracted with something else but you see, it's to no avail

the more i distract myself the more time i waste

u see it's already friday today
and april will be approaching before i knew it

ya Allah.. ......................................

please help me

please give me some guidance and strength

please let me make it through

ya Allah.........................................

...................

2010-01-14T15:13:00.000+08:00

i got teary-eyed reading this notes from my friend. uwaaaaa..

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yerp, the closer it gets the dead you are. scary but true, tp mmg kene tabahkn hati & kuatkn semangat! you are lucky to hv your husband with you and i'm sure he's doing a good job at making sure your sanity is in check...

I tau we are doing different fields, so mmg xadil if i said i know how u feel, but i'm here to just share you my experience...

when you felt like you're hitting the wall, i.e. gantung diri, suffocating in all those journals, results,analysing data, labwork...) try step back, and do something else skejap just to let your mind off with the project (ntahla, maybe like tgk tv ke, shopping ke, masak ke, movies ke...) make yourself feel better, then sit down and look at what you dh buat, make a list and things you still hv to do...as for me, if i do my work dlm keadaan bengang, penat, pening, geram...mmg xkemananye my work, so i try to make myself happy/better first, then sambung balik....sort of like taking short breaks for yourself.

tp mmg the closer it gets to the finish line, you really just have to hang in there, and what's left in you is your perseverence, how much you need this, as much as you hate this whole process, you have no choice but to get through with this, yes, that's the ugly truth, but once you dh submit, once all of this is over, you can look back and be proud of yourself for you had made it through.

try tell yourself, you made it this far, and you are like so close to finishing all of this, so don't give up! just don't give up! mmg when i did mine, 3 months to go, still got labwork to do, then a month to go, and i felt like i was like a walking zombie! everytime rase nk mcm baik mati je, tp i pk if i stop now, then all of this will be just a waste of time shj & to prove to my supervisor then she's wrong about my capabilities (yerp, i did hd a few dramas with my supervisor), that kept me going...it wasn't a wonderful ride, but i just hv to keep on going.

sorry la mbebel la pulak, i know maybe you've heard hundreds of the same stories from other ppl, tp happy to know that you are so close to the finishing line...plus, mase nk hantar to pulak, tetibe i rase mcm berkobar2 lak semangat anak melayu...hehe. poyos je kn? =) so, chin up, gurl! you can do this!

take care,
xxxxxxxx

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what algorithm?

2010-01-14T08:55:00.001+08:00

Achievement seems to be connected with action. Successful men and women keep moving. They make mistakes, but they don't quit.

~Conrad Hilton ~

I am currently at the lowest point my life, the lowest point ever there is not even a room to go further down

and if i can plot a graph for what i am feeling right now, it might reach a negative infinity with no sign of stopping

i don't need an encouraging words nor supports from anyone

because words and support won't be able to solve my problem, won't be able to solve my algorithms

why it has to be so fucking hard?

why it has to be so damn complicated?

fine, i know there is always an answer to everything

but, i am at a deadend

i need a guidance and nobody is giving me that

my supervisor has been everything but helpful

all he keeps saying is.. "usaha sendiri, bace buku bla.. bla.. bla.."

for god sake, i have been reading books and journals and papers

i have downloaded as many papers as i can from the internet

i have been reading thousand times and i have scribbled on thousand papers

but i still don't know how to do it

i am still stuck and it is not even 1% of the whole project

how am i gonna finish everything in 3 bloody months?
i can't even sleep well at night because i know when i wake up i have wasted the day before doing nothing
and every time i open my eyes it brings me closer to april
i wish i can freeze the time but even if i can, there is nothing i can do
except to just stare blankly at the monitor or at the papers and scribble some crappy equations with an empty mind

i need someone like dr. charlie eppes

ketika cinta bertasbih

2010-01-12T02:37:00.001+08:00

Bertuturlah cinta
Mengucap satu nama
Seindah goresan sabdamu dalam kitabku
Cinta yang bertasbih
Mengutus Hati ini
Kusandarkan hidup dan matiku padamu

Bisikkan doaku
Dalam butiran tasbih
Kupanjatkan pintaku padamu Maha Cinta
Sudah di ubun-ubun cinta mengusik resah
Tak bisa kupaksa walau hatiku menjerit

Ketika Cinta bertasbih Nadiku berdenyut merdu
Kembang kempis dadaku merangkai butir cinta
Garis tangan tergambar tak bisa aku menentang
Sujud sukur padamu atas segala cinta

other than tercipta untukku, i think this song makes a perfect wedding song too, kan?

pasti sangat sweet & menitiskan air mata.. :)

random

2010-01-10T23:27:00.001+08:00

1. tomorrow is my first day at work after two months plus of being a full-time housewife. i am shit scared, no. i am shit nervous? i have 2 weeks before lectures begin and have no idea what subject(s) will i be teaching. aihhhh..

2. i was very sure before that i wanted to be a lecturer.. and Alhamdulillah, Allah made me one.. and today which is apparently a day before i am about to start working, i think i am no longer 100% sure about my decision.. boleh? my classmates were discussing about becoming professional engineers (PE) and most of them are on their way of becoming one.. and me? i am no where close in fact i am drifting away.. i remembered being so ambitious about getting my IR when i first graduated but as time goes by the thought somehow found its way to the back of my mind.. i forgot because i was busy aiming for my doctorate degree.. but NOW, after having so many "roadblocks" in completing my master's final project i would rather not think about furthering my studies, yet.. so in conclusion, i am far from being neither an IR nor a DR.. sighhh..

3. i almost cried in front of my uniten lecturer last week.. i went to see him because i thought he could help me with my final project since my sv is so far away in skudai.. but my mind is so dead i couldn't even understand a word he was saying, i am totally deadmeat, man.. i have less than 3 months to complete my project together with thesis-writing and i haven't even got started.. how worse can it be? 3 semesters with almost a perfect cgpa, i thought my master's journey will be smooth sailing but no.. nothing comes easy, right?

4. total price ticket to melbourne is rm915 and to perth is RM713.. yayyy.. at least there IS something to cheer me up these days..

5. yuna rocks! and i love my husband :)

hello 2010

2010-01-03T18:13:00.000+08:00

hope it ain't too late to wish everyone a very happy new year.. :)
my resolution for 2010? to live a debt-free life.. insyaAllah
i have been living creditcard-less for the past one year and i survived
which is a very good achievement considering the fact that i used to have 3 credit cards at a time with more than half credit limit usage each (ughhhh!!)

i welcomed 2010 with a new spirit and a new job!
i have secured myself a job as a lecturer at a private university in kuala lumpur
Alhamdulillah.. Allah answered my prayers
but now i am a little bit nervous because i am afraid i can't be a good one.. huhu
i'm afraid i won't be able to answer my student's questions.. adoii.. mati la..

anyway, with that job now my husband and i are planning to go one step further
no, not a baby.. we are still trying (though not very hard.. hahahaha.. :p)
we want to have a house of our own but with the ever-increasing price finding one is not easy
so, anyone who reads this and know any of 2-storey house perhaps 22x80 or maybe 20x70 at a convenient location, please let me know okkay?
price below rm350k.. thaaaaank you..

burning the midnight oil?

2009-12-09T02:19:00.000+08:00

i know i should be sleeping by now
i reminded myself twice to sleep before 1am.. and then changed to 1.30am
but it's already 1.36am right now
i should perhaps be preparing for my interview tomorrow (or today) at least if not sleeping
but after a few failed attempts to do some research on the net.. here i am.. :)

my honeymoon was awesome..
krabi was the rightest choice of destination
1) the flight merely took 1.15 hours so less time wasted on the plane
2) aonang is a muslim city in krabi so halal food is sooo very the easy to find
3) currency is more or less similar to malaysia so we were able to keep within the budget
4 days are definitely not enough..

we were only able to go for a 4-islands trip
my digicam was not being good to us as it went kaput when we were arriving at the 3rd island
so we had to rely on my husband 2mp hand phone camera
and the weather was not either
we were approaching the 4th island when the rain started to fall down
imagine what comes with heavy rain if you are surrounded by i-don't-know-how-metres-deep water
a rough sea.. yes..
we were in the middle of the andaman sea when it was raining cats and dogs
not being able to even float myself apetah lagi swimming and the fact that we were riding on a long tail boat definitely not helping
i just couldn't stop praying that if Allah were to take my life that day, i was seriously hoping that my life would not end in a boat full of half-naked mat and minah salleh.. huhu
and Alhamdulillah, despite being hit a few times by a very strong wave we managed to reach the shore safely
so, our plan to go on another island-hopping trip the following day was cancelled
if that is what we have to go through once again, i would rather miss the beautiful white-sands beaches than risking my precious life.. :)

we are planning to go to ha long bay, vietnam for our next trip
but i don't know when it will be materialized
since i am not working at the moment so money is a bit of a problem
wish i could secure myself a good job soon
and by a good job i mean a lecturing job
i have no heart to be an engineer anymore, seriously
i failed a few interviews with good companies because i was not able to convince them why i want to be an engineer and when asked.. do you mind working long hours?
because i do mind actually
i want to have a baby soon and i want to lead a normal life
i want to be a good mother to my kids
and spending more time at the office will not help
not that i am saying being a lecturer is an easy job
of course it is not.. especially when it comes to the researches
but at least the working hour is more flexible
and that's why i am really hoping i can nail the interview tomorrow because it is for a lecturer post
and that's why i need to stop writing now because i need to sleep and i need to be fresh tomorrow
so, good night people!

krabi rawkssss!

2009-12-02T20:08:00.001+08:00

i have safely landed in krabi at 2pm local time today.. :)
been here for less than 12 hours yet i have fallen in love with almost everything..
perfect beaches.. perfect massage.. perfect tomyam? yet to taste.. hehe
looking forward for our island-hopping tomorrow.. yay!
will be back with more stories and photos once i got back..

oh btw, my sis-in-law gave birth to a healthy baby girl, nur ai'syah last monday
my brother is now a father and that makes me an aunt!
hehehe.. she is superrrrrr duperrrrrrr cute and i am missing her like crazy already! huhu..

a new journey?

2009-11-24T15:27:00.003+08:00

i am opening up my own business soon, insyaAllah

not that big, just a small online business as a start

discussion has been done and mom has already agreed

yes, my mom is my business partner

so, people.. please support me.. :)

thank you..

update (updated)

2009-11-13T09:59:00.002+08:00

i have been on hiatus for a few weeks already

was online but merely to check my emails

been kinda busy with final exams

three weeks in a row and it will be over this coming sunday

yay! and come 15th December (i think) marks my last semester as a masters student, insyaAllah

can't wait for all these sufferings i.e. fully-occupied-weekends, exams, assignments, crazy group mates, tests, presentation, etc. to end

but then, perhaps welcoming myself into a more torturing life of a PhD student

anyway, talking about the doctorate degree

i am most probably continuing in a local university only

husband is not really into the idea of going "back" to the UK

he does not want to leave his family for another 3 years or so

but i am totally indifferent about it

of course, it is on the other side of the world but mother is going to tag along if we are going there

and abang is definitely ok i think, because he'll be flying to France starting next year or so i heard

so, on my side, it is totally ok

but being married, of course u have to consider both parties right

decisions are made based on mutual agreement

so, australia is next on the list

but PhD in electrical engineering in Australia?

rarely heard of it

therefore, might as well continuing it here if that's the best for everyone.. :)

really, don't bother that much

as long as husband agrees on bringing me to the UK at least once.. hehehe

anyway, insyaAllah we will be going for our honeymoon soon

but, the destination is still not confirmed yet

thought of going to Bangkok but we'll be going there for a family trip next year

Hong Kong but the cost of living is too high; hotel, travelling, food, etc. or so they say

Bali not that interesting to ME plus with the earthquakes and bombing, surely banyak objections from mother and in-laws

lia suggested going to cambodia.. haha.. gile tk romantic.. scary ade..

aihhh.. any ideas people?

of course, it's limited to airasia (not airasiaX) destinations only

my weight loss progress seems stagnant
even if it does not, the difference is nothing to be impressed with
i survived on 2 pieces of wholegrain in the morning and in the evening
but the loss is merely 1 kg per week
i eat like a quarter plate of nasi and nuggets and chicken meatballs yet i still loss only 1 kg weekly
so, i am not putting any kinda hope anymore
my body is perhaps already immuned to the drinks
so, be it swallowing everything down my esophagus or not, it is always 1kg per week
but of course, i am thankful enough to be back to my pre-wedding weight
even though the progress is slow, but it is still ther
it is just that, it may take yearssss before i can reach 50kg.. aihhhhh!

btw, we are going to krabi for our honeymoon!!
yayyyyyyyyyyyyy!

a lesson well learnt

2009-10-19T12:45:00.001+08:00

i was back in my hometown last weekend

my aunt and uncle will be performing haji this year so they organized a small kenduri

i arrived early even though the kenduri was only held after asar prayer

to help with the cooking and what not la konon nye

but ended up gossiping and chit-chatting with the aunties and cousins.. hehe

anyway, that is not the climax of the story.. :D

so, with the cooking of course there will be the eating part kn

i was so determined not to eat at the beginning

i managed not to for brunch

eventhough they served one of my favourite kuih i.e samosa or temosa.. i don't know.. it's the karipap lookalik but with ikan instead of potatoes

at that time, i preferred to settle for buah langsat instead

and then come lunch

ikan goreng, sayur lemak, SAMBAL and PUCUK UBI REBUS

it's been long since i last ate any truly kampung dishes

so the temptation was super hard to resist

i tried not to be anywhere near the serving table

but there i go, i obviously failed miserably

so i had a plate of pucuk ubi rebus and super spicy sambal and IKAN GORENG

i just didn't bother to count the calories i had consumed

and it did not just stop there

later, i treated myself with a few "pinches" of ayam goreng kfc

AND also, 3 ketuls of ayam masak lemak
AND 5 spoons of bubur kacang hijau with durian
AND seketul samosa

*mari bertepuk tangan*

and yesterday morning, my mother cooked a super delicious nasi goreng daging salai

and i happily ate half a pinggan.. yadaa2..

and for lunch, i ate another quarter pinggan of rice with sotong kunyit and sayur campur and masak lemak cili api ayam salai..

so, that was what happened during the weekend!

and i was so proud with myself for consuming an enormous amount of calories..

and today, the college is organizing a "gema raya"

i just don't bother to go down

because i have learnt my lesson the hard way

no matter how you try to forbid yourself not to eat

but with food, delicious food.. right in front of your eyes..

just 2-pembaris-panjang away from your mouth and 1-pembaris-pendek away from your hands konfem la fail punye.. wa cakap lu.. jusmate tu will be like thousand-miles-away from your thought

hehe..

so, moral of the stories..

kalau iman tu tk kuat, jangan la cuba untuk menggoda diri atau biar kn diri di goda

that goes not only to food, but other things in life as well, right? or right? :)

weight scale

2009-10-16T12:22:00.000+08:00

my husband was on mc yesterday
he wasn't until he went to the clinic in front of his office 5 minutes before he should clock-in
so, instead of going straight home
i dragged him to giant because i desperately needed to weigh myself
lagipun, i needed to restock our mineral water
so, off to giant we were

sampai2 je, we went straight ahead looking for weight scale
true they said, when you are in need of something, you will never find it
so, pusing2 finally we found one next to a jewellery store
being so eager, i quickly dropped the coin inside the slot
and wahlaaaa.. the numbers on the screen really2 surprised me..
i lost THREE kgs.. and that was within 4 days only..
i was so happy i couldn't stop smiling
and then, dengan super happy nye
we went to do our grocery shopping in the giant
seriously i was really amazed with myself.. hahahaha..
everytime i picked on something
the first thing that i would look was the "total calories"
hahaha.. imagine okkay..
i checked every types of tuna they have on the rack
and trust me people ayam brand chunks tuna in water has the lowest calories
i.e. only 44kcal per serving
so, if u eat it with one piece of wholegrain fibremeal which is 63kcal
you will only consume 107kcal..
and 2 pieces per morning is more than enough to keep you full until lunch

so, after doing the shopping, tibe2 saket perut.. nature calls
i rushed to toilet and i told husband i wanted to weigh myself again
hahaha.. bajet konon akan turun lagi la berat kn..
but u know whaaaatt?
i gained another 2 kgs instead...!!
so now, whether the weight scale tu yang rosak
or i am myself in a big trouble..
anyway, i asked my husband to weigh himself
and taraaaa.. 2kgs extra than his original weight
so, i concluded that the weight scale was indeed rosak
and i chose the first reading.. yay!

and now, i am truly happy with the result
i hope i can reach my target by 2 months!
weeeeeeee.. :D

surprise

2009-10-15T13:48:00.000+08:00

i was ym-ing with my brother
when he told me that our mother wanted to buy me a JUS MATE 5!
u see..!!!
my mother has never ever in my life bought such products for me
or even encouraged me to buy one
but this time around she herself wanted to get it for me
must have been because i am wayy too FAT in her eyes (even in anyone else's eyes also)
huhuhu..
but then, my brother spoilt the good news by telling mother that i have already bought it
alar.. kalau tk dh ade sponsor.. hehehe

but i am still very surprised to hear that..
hehehe.. funny2..
poor mother.. she must have been worried seeing me gaining so much weight
she must be afraid her only daughter might turn into a giant monster in no time.. lol..

anyway, my diet is going ok so far
i salute dr.rozmey despite his bad taste in hair style (sorry doktor!hehe)
but he has really invented such a good product
*keep up the good work*
and another good news is
beside losing weight, the drink also works as "ubat subur"..
if you search on the internet, there will be an article saying that if you are planning to get pregnant, drink jus mate, it helps but of course once you know you are pregnant, you have to stop taking it.. because dieting is not good for the baby right..

so i do really hope i can kill two birds with one stone
eventhough, i am looking forward to having this drink for another two months
but i am still hoping i can get pregnant as soon as possible

btw, i haven't weighed myself yet
it has been four days and honestly, i do feel a little different
i can fit into my baju kurung moden better
but lets not put too much hope first
afraid that the result won't turn out as what i expected it to be
but, i will do just fine with 2 or 3 kgs.. lol

yellow pages

2009-10-14T15:10:00.001+08:00

my aunty called me the other day asking for a favor
her daughter will be doing her internship in shah alam, very near to my place before
so, she called to ask whether i can help to find a place for my cousin to stay
and Alhamdulillah, i have already found a room for her to rent

and this morning, my cousin smsed me
her friends, who will also be doing internship at the same company as hers need a place to stay
if possible, somewhere near the office which is apparently near to my cousin's soon-to-be place lah kan
and Alhamdullilah, again, i managed to get them a nice apartment

and a few hours ago, i got an sms from a friend of mine
asking for my suggestion on restaurants to celebrate her bf's birthday well, i suggested a few places based on my very little knowledge on restaurants and hope she likes it
(but babe, i have a few more ideas for a romantic dinner if you don't agree with the ones i gave you earlier.. :))

and not to mention calls or sms asking for direction before.. hehe..
talk about being a human version of yellow pages? weeeeeee.. :D

well, lets just say that i enjoy myself doing things like that
i may not be able to offer my help to the earthquake victims, be a volunteer for mercy or anything but,
i am just glad that i can still offer my help to my friends and those people in need, even if it means very little to them

baby

2009-10-13T14:52:00.000+08:00

the photo was taken by atie/shaxu on the day we visited lin's new-born baby, aqif
i put up the photo as my display image on yahoo messenger
and boy, the photo has surely caught many people's attention
especially those whom i have lost contacted with for so long.. :)

anyway, back to baby aqif
all this while i have this kinda fear towards new-born baby
i never hold them in my hands if i know they are like 2 or 3 months old
i just can't for i am afraid i would break them
they just look so fragile
but, not with baby aqif
a motherly conscience really kicked in the moment i hold him
perhaps because it's a sign from God that i am ready to become a mummy
hehe..

but, seriously i am prepared to be one
in fact, i can't wait to have one
it's just that our time has not come yet :)
i really envy those young mothers with baby
i don't know why
they do look cool, kan?

like they said on E!
baby is the new accessories in Hollywood

another day 1

2009-10-12T12:23:00.000+08:00

hehehe..
i lost 1.5 kg last week
itu pn kalau weight scale tu tk menipu la.. lol

and yesterday, finally..
setelah berfikir super panjang
i decided to get myself that jusmate 5
huhu
itu pn after my sister in law's colleague has successfully lost 14kgs within 2 weeks! :D
at first, i was reluctant jugak
because i've tried herbalife before and it didn't work at all
i lost 0 kgs but gained 2 kgs instead.. :(
plus, i've not seen real life nye result
i mean, i have heard of people taking herbalife and turun ber puluh2 kg
but none actually happened to my close friends or relatives

so, this time around..
i am really2 positive to try
and hopefully i can lose some kgs at least,
i am aiming for 23kgs.. in a few months of course
i am not sure whether i will succeed or not
but let's just try
alang2 wa tk mkn pape ni kn..
hehehe..

oh, btw, to ensure the effectiveness of this jus mate 5
one has to consume not more than 1000 kcal per day
and yes, starting from today i'll be counting my kcal intake :)

| Day 2 |

2009-10-08T14:21:00.000+08:00

ok, so i cheated yesterday
tipu sunat
hehehe
i was browsing through the cabbage soup recipe
and it was.. err.. pretty menyusahkn
the cooking itself takes 2 hours
and i need to go to giant to get all the ingredients
by the time i reach home it's already 8
and by the time i finish cooking it's already 10
so, setelah ditimbang2 dan difikir2
i settled for wholegrain fibremeal and a low fat tuna in water instead
hehehehehe

and today i had the same menu for breakfast
2 pieces of roti and tuna
and one bottle of mineral water up to now

ok fine, i did cheat again just now
we had another jamuan raya today
so i ate 2 small pieces of ayam masak merah
but i successfully resisted the temptation of eating the nasi tomato!
so, congratulations to myself
yeehaaa..

looking forward for another daysss to come

| Day 1 |

2009-10-07T12:48:00.000+08:00

i am doing okkay so far
in fact, i did some running in the rain just now
and glad to be arrived safely in my room without passing out
hehehe

anyway, i have had 3 pears since morning
and i ran outta it now
wonder how will i survive until evening without any fruits
but i still have a bottle of mineral water
only manage to finish half until now
so i guess, i will just make do of what i have now
u know, as they say, if you are hungry, drink water
it helps to make you kenyang, kot..
but Alhamdulillah, i don't feel stressed or anything
at least, until now

i think it is all about your mind, right
ok, i know i am not in the position to say anything right now
given that it is my very FIRST day but then i guess
it is true.. it is all about our mind..
this morning, i had two of my colleagues eating nasi lemak in front of me
the smell of it.. malas nk cakap la sedap nye kn..
but then i tried to divert my attention
rather than imagining how delicious and mouth-watering the food is
and it worked! yes, it worked!
i forgot about the nasi lemak and the temptation
so, whenever u feel hungry, just think of something else
easy breezy right.. hahahahah..
kononnnn!

i have another 9 hours before i go to sleep tonight
and tomorrow is day-2
no fruits at all but only vegetables
yay! i love veggies..

...too heavy

2009-10-06T14:43:00.000+08:00

right after i wrote the previous entry
i feel a sudden urge to lose weight
i calculated my BMI and i am already overweight
yes, u heard me right
not moderately overweight but OVERWEIGHT!
i am supposed to lose freaking 13 - 15 kgs to get my ideal weight again!!!!!
seriously, i almost cry okkay..!!!
i am too heavy.. and too fat
i can hardly fit my jeans anymore
even to wear my baju kurung is a struggle nowadays
can it be worse?
damnnnn ittt.. okkay.. seriously dammmnnn it..

from what i've read..
one of the tips to lose weigh is to go public
to announce to your friends and family that you want to go on a diet
so, here i am..
sangat2 determined to lose weight
not for outer beauty only tp for my health
i think, with my current diet,
in no time, i can have a diabetes or high cholesterol kot..
or perhaps, i already have tp tk tau (god forbids!)
because i get tired easily lately.. huwaaaa..

anyway, anyway, back to my plan..

so, tomorrow will be my day-1 of my 7-days
i will only drink water and eat fruits ONLY
yes, ONLY..
and i will blog about it.. even if i cheat..
so, insyaAllah that will motivate me..

my diet will be a 7-days diet
and then from day 8 onwards
i will switch to healthy diet
i.e. to stay away from rice but eat fruits and only white meat

please2 help me..
please2 support me.. :(

ti-yus-dei

2009-10-06T12:13:00.000+08:00

i passed my project presentation with flying kah-lerss
at least, that was what i told myself the moment it was over.. hehe
but anyway, it only contributes 30% to the whole mark
another 70% will come from the report
which seems to be the hardest part
since i can only focus and write in peace when i am at home.. hmmm..

***
anyway, last weekend, i bumped into an old friend of mine in the elevator
among all of my friends back in Uniten
this person is definitely the last person on earth i thought i would meet in Utm
doing master some more.. hahaha
but it was of course great seeing him again
but the not so great part is.. he's wayyyy slimmer to be the old him..
yes, hidir is now way slimmer, okkay
and when i asked him "wassup beb.. cmne bleh kurus ni.. mcm tk caye je"
he replied.. "ape lak.. kau la sumber inspirasi aku kt uniten dulu.."
boleh tk..??????????????
that wasn't the first time someone told me the same thing okkay
isn't it embarassing when someone look up to u in something
only at the end of the day they did much better than u

ahhh..
if only i can turn back time
if only i can lose 12kgs in 2 weeks
if only i can have my 51-kg weight again
if only i can wear size s again..

god,
i seriously need to lose weight!
as in, pronto!
i have been gaining an extra 4 kgs after the wedding
i thought the husband should be gaining more
ini tidak adil.. huhuhu..

ayat-ayat cinta

2009-09-29T09:03:00.000+08:00

there is this beautiful young girl whose mother is a Filipino and father a Siamese.
she was born in Madinah
and at 11, her parent sent her back to Pattani
now, age 16, she's schooling at a religious school in Kelantan
she wears jubah and sometimes, a purdah showing only her beautiful eyes
when she took off her selendang,
i was amazed with her super long shiny black hair
she's beautiful.. an epitome of a true wanita islam

and there is this boy from Ampang whom i only know through stories from others
he is 22 and her mother is from belanda
a tahfiz (or izzit hafiz?) with the whole Quran in his heart
(sejuk perut ibu dia mengandung)
and next week, he will be flying off to Africa to learn hadith

i don't know, but these 2 young people remind me of Aisha and Fahri.. :)
oh, forgot to tell
the girl's aunty who is also the boy's ibu angkat is very "excited" in getting them "together"
i smiled when I heard the conversation
i thot ayat-ayat cinta is merely a movie
but no, it does happen in reality
(but i hope in "this" story, the third person does not exist)

of growing up..

2009-09-28T13:20:00.000+08:00

1. i cannot deny the fact that i was very unhappy when one of my close friends could not attend my wedding reception (both). i accepted her excuse but since she will be tying the knots as well, therefore i told myself not to come to hers since she did not come to mine. what you give you get back right? and not only that, i also ignored her calls. pretending that i was too busy with my life when the truth is i am not really. but then, a few days before hari raya, i did not know why, all of sudden i realized that i had made a big mistake. i am 26 and i should be acting like one right? jeopardizing our 13 years of friendship just because of one stupid event is very highschool-ish. i was driving when the thought occur and i promised myself as soon as i got home i would sms her. i forgot. the thought remained a thought. a day after, out of nowhere, she called me. and now we are back to where we begin. :). selamat pengantin baru (in advance), ruhaizah.

2. i was beyond upset when she accused me of something i did not do. i did not hate her but i swore to myself not to have any sort of connections with her. but then, after a few years, i braved myself to forget what she did. after all, the feud is going nowhere. so, i smsed her, a very simple sms, to be precised, it is merely a wedding invitation. and now we are good again. not that i am that close to her, but at least, we are on a good term now.

3. we were the closest of friends back in high school, or so i believed. we were too, back in university. i thought we would be the bestest of friends for life. but things happened anyway. i was young, so was she. i got mad over something stupid and so was she. a little argument grew to become what is seems like the third world war. even a world war has an ending. but ours, has not. the damage was permanent. i did make an effort before but i guess she was not convinced enough. so, as i mentioned. the damage was permanent. the friendship was broken into millions of tiny pieces and there is no way on earth to fix it.

anyway, for all the mistakes that i have done, i am glad i made it for through each of it, i learn the true meaning of life.

di hari raya..

2009-09-16T17:47:00.000+08:00

after 2 weeks, now we got another photos of ours
thank god, it's worth waiting for

anyway, happy eid mubarak people
sorry body & soul
hope you have a great raya
drive safe but eat a lot!
you'll regret it if you don't eat those food served during raye
sbb nnt dh tk raya, mknn tu sme dh tk sesedap mase raye
it's ok, u can always jog after tu.. hehehe

i love =)

2009-09-10T09:22:00.000+08:00

i have to say that i am a bit frustrated with most of the photos from the outdoor photo shoot
all the gambars just don't turn out like i want
but nevertheless, there are some that i do love especially the above :)
thanks dude! (you know who u are)

..

2009-09-09T14:57:00.000+08:00

happy 090909 :)

biggest mistake

2009-08-27T11:14:00.000+08:00

i have just realized that through out my 26 years of living, i've wasted at least 3 biggest opportunities in my life. at the moment it happened, i never thot i was wrong, i was so happy i made the decision, but as i go along, and look back, i have to admit that i'm regretting every single moment of it.

1. for not furthering my studies in UTP.

2. for rejecting the scholarship from MALAKOFF. one of the highest paid organization in power industry. yes, i was among the only 4 students in the whole uniten to be offered the scholarship and i DECLINED! the HR called me twice to confirm and i was so firm with my decision at that time. stupid eh?! if i just accepted the offer, i am pretty sure that by now, i can drive one of my dream car.. :(

3. for rejecting the PTD offer. everyone wants it so badly, some even go for the exam several times. but me? i only took the exam ONE time, i passed the assessment ONE time, only the interview, i had to go two times.. but still, i got accepted.. but being very stupid i DECLINED! why? because i thot i was sOoo good.. i thot i have sacrificed so much to get my engineering degree and to end up working in admin environment is so not worth it.. that was what i think at thaaaaat very moment.. and now i regret it.. what's wrong with working in admin when the pay is good, right.. what is wrong with working in any area not-related to your degree? the only thing that is wrong is ME.. yes, it's ME..

i keep making wrong decisions and regretting each one if it.. i think that is why Allah took back my rezeki.. because He gave me so much and i never took it.. so He took back all i have in order to give me a lesson.. :(

how do i redeem myself back..?

positive! yes, positive!

2009-08-18T15:03:00.001+08:00

i am feeling rather positive today
no, i am not pregnant, yet
the test gave me a negative result last night
yes, i was impatient, very in fact, that was why i cheated
i tested a day before my period is due
but it is written on the box that i can test at least 3 days earlier
so, i think the result was valid
i am not pregnant
so, perhaps i will be getting my period either today or tomorrow

back to the story
why am i being very positive today?
no, not because my project report is done
i am still stuck with the simulation
and still have no idea where i am heading to

and definitely not because my assignment is done
i still have 7 questions to solve
and still have 2 chapters to revise before my test this Sunday
so, what makes me very positive today?
hehe..

it is the cars! the cars that i saw at the staff parking lot today
funny eh?
but seriously, seeing those cars somehow rises up my spirit
one is a blue convertible compressor (izzit?!) that belongs to a very2 young DR
another one is a blue audi that belongs to a 34-years old Associate Professor
another one is a gold civic that belongs to a very young, very pretty, very2 intelligent lecturer
another one is a silver mazda RX* (i forgot the model) that belongs to a very young DR as well

realize something?
the emphasize on the luxury cars AND the title?
i don't really bother about the luxury car actually (tho i have been talking about cars! demm)
but i do bother about the TITLE!
yes i am freaking jealous to see people getting a PhD at a very young age!
how on earth they do it?
getting a PhD before the age of 30 and yet still enjoying their life?
that is what i call a perfect life.. very2 perfecto!

and here i am, full with spirits but in the midst of writing a blog
instead of completing my work and assignment!
lalalala..
anyway, i am 26 and will be finishing my masters next year, at the age of 27
so i STILL have time like 3 years before i turn 30
hence, i still have time to make my dream comes true
i.e. to get a PhD by the age of 30
or if i cannot get it in 3 years time
i hope i will be on my way, at least
so, yes.. now i have a reason to live
now i have a reason to wake up every morning

i will be getting my PhD before i turn 30
i will, and i WILL
if those people can do it, why CAN'T i, right?!
i have the brain.. i know it.. i am not showing off
but i know i have the brain
i know if i set my mind to do something, i will do it
i am just lack of motivation and lately i keep losing focus
that is why..
so now, i have the motivation and am trying hard to focus
so, please pray for me people..
please pray hard for me..
thank you..

p/s: congrats AIDELIA SHAUKI for officially becoming an ACCA affiliate today (after yearsssss of trying! hehe..)

...

2009-08-17T13:13:00.000+08:00

1. i am at the lowest-est point of my life. assignments, test, project report are undoubtedly the biggest contributors to the situation. I was staring at the assignment questions with an empty mind, the questions were very difficult, it takes at least 3 pages and hours to solve merely one question and there will be 4 questions to be answered during the one-hour test next week, and that was when it hit me hard. why do i have to go through all this shits? why do i have to suffer the pain and yet still get nothing in return? why do some people never have to do all those things yet still enjoy the luxury of life? why am i not like those people? why do i have to learn everything the hard way? i know, there is always a light at the end of every tunnel. but what if my tunnel is too long and i do not have time to reach the end?

2. my period is due this Wednesday. husband already bought a pregnancy test kit for me and i can't wait to try. period, please don't come. i want to get pregnant. i want to have a reason to be happy. i want to have a reason to wake up every morning.

3. i got an email from *** regarding my job application. please, please give me the job. i need it badly. i need it since forever. it has always been my dream since the first day i started my degree. so, please ya Allah, let me have the job.

update

2009-08-12T12:12:00.000+08:00

i am moving slowly through life these past few days

i ditched work yesterday because i found no point in coming

when the only thing i will do after failing the dynamic simulation after several times of trying is facebook-ing

and thanx to an old friend of mine, miya for updating the photos

at least, it gives me reasons to laugh and be happy at work.. :)

boo hooo.. boringggggg..

i am at the 3rd week of preparing my first report

but i got stuck with the boring simulation

it keeps giving me an error and i have not even an idea how to solve it

and that was where it ended.. since last friday

hehe.. screw me.. i'm doomed!

report is due next 2 weeks

and i got test that very same weekend.. adoi la..

this masters thingy seriously drains all my energy..

cepat la habessss.. so that i can hang myself when i start my PhD..

sighhh...

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hajar's wedding

2009-08-03T14:09:00.000+08:00

"..selamat pengantin baru hajar & reza.."

one of my closest friends back in highschool tied the knot yesterday
and she looked stunningly gorgeous and beautiful in pink
anyway, babe.. i'm glad i made it to ur wedding yesterday
we might have lost touch for years
but i'm grateful that the friendship never fades..
i love u babe.. lets get pregnant same2.. :)

bowwwwriiinkkk

2009-07-28T10:46:00.000+08:00

life is so gonna be super hectic
went to my first masters class this semester
(after ditching 3 classes in a row)
only to find out that the schedules are gonna be changed
we'll be having night class!
yes, u heard me right
we gonna have f**king night classes
so i'll be having 2 pm - 6 pm AND 8.30 pm - 10.30 pm class on saturday
AND 9 am - 6 pm on SUNDAY!
can u imagine thaaaatt??
by the end of the weekend, i'm bushed, man.. seriously..
huwaaaaaaa..

i am still hoping that the changes only take effect on one subject
not the other two
or else i am pretty sure i am gonna extend my masters until god knows when
huhu..

i need to do some serious thinking if i were to get pregnant soon
i can't lead this kinda life when i am pregnant
honestly
go out for work at 6am and come back at 8pm
and wake up at 5.30am the next day
go to work again..
and classes during weekend
and at least for now i dont give a damn (yet) about my masters project
but once i get started, those free times (which are very few!) should be filled with studying and assignments and projects
aihhhh.. sangat susah.. i don't think i can cope
to ditch my masters is not an option i guess
but to ditch work, as in to stop working is definitely an option (hehee..!)
but then, we gonna face a financial problem, definitely
wouldnt it be great if i can work from home?
hmmm..

a blissful wedded life

2009-07-22T18:20:00.000+08:00

i've been a wifey for 2 weeks already.. :)
how fast time flies
Alhamdulillah.. life has been pretty good for us
(hopefully it will remain that way all the times.. insyaAllah..)
and i am loving every moment of it
even though the food that i cook don't taste that nice
but i still try my best to cook everyday despite the fact that we are only home after 8pm

and i still try my best to wake up a few minutes early than my husband in the morning so that i can prepare a cup of coffee for him.. :)

(my husband now settled for 3-in-1 coffee after my 2 attempts of bancuh-sendiri-and-tak-sedap coffee.. hahaha..)

i seriously need to brush my cooking skill lah altho i doubt i have any, to begin with.. :p

but i am super lucky to have a great husband whose favourite dishes are singgang ikan and sardin..

it would make my life easier because those food are easy to prepare, right? or wrong?

(>.<)!

maybe with a kitchen cabinet and proper kitchen utensils i can properly cook nice food kot.. (alasan..!)

and yay..! today, husband will get that kitchen cabinet for me and MIL has been kind enough to sedekah one kuali for us.. as in real kuali not that cheapo 7-pieces wutever i have been using since last week.. terseksa ok nak masak.. sambil bersila lak tu.. hehehe..

so, that is how my married life is so far.. :)

loving every single moments of it

especially the salam-cium-tangan & cium-dahi after the solat jemaah..

i am soOooooooo loving it.. seriously..

rase sangat terharu okkay.. :p

so my friends (especially my babes who are still single i.e. atie and shaxu.. hehehe..)

cepat2 la kawen okkay.. nnt bleh solat jemaah dgn husband.. :)

outdoor portraiture

2009-07-22T18:11:00.000+08:00

some of the photos of our outdoor photoshoot at KL Birdpark.. :)
initially we wanted to shoot at bukit tinggi but my babes couldn't make it
so, we opted for nearer venue..
i dun really fancy the place, to be honest..
but then, with great companies, mane2 pun pasti seronok..! hehehe..

s.h.o.p.p.i.n.g

2009-07-16T10:32:00.000+08:00

destination 1: kedai makan

had early lunch

destination 2: tesco puchong

bought household items; mop, baldi, pillow, detergent, penyapu, etc
total damage: approx. RM200

destination 3: furniture mall, puchong

surveyed some furniture i.e. dining table, kitchen cabinet, sofa, tv cabinet
total damage: approx RM1000 (next month tapi.. hehe)

destination 4: jusco ioi mall

bought a small fridge suits for 2 person (bajet2..) and a dvd player and 2-panel curtain
total damage: RM700

destination 5: ikea

bought some small household items + lamp (on sale.. yay!) + half-dozen karipap + meatballs
total damage: RM60

destination 6: sunway pyramid

our very first movie date as husband&wife: public enemies (not recommended.. boring!)
total damage: RM16

additional things to buy:

tv cabinet
carpet(s)
dining table
pokok2 hijau
washing machine
katil + tilam
wut else??

u.p.d.a.t.e (2)

2009-07-14T09:55:00.001+08:00

u.p.d.a.t.e

2009-07-14T09:25:00.000+08:00

*the first two pics credit to my friends shimie

these are some of the pictures taken by un-professional photographers.. hehe..
official photos by professional photogs will be uploaded soon once i got it..
anyway, eventho it is a bit belated
but i would like to officially thank all my babes and friends for sharing the moment with me..
thank you for staying super late at my house the night before the wedding
thank you so much by helping out with the preparation and the majlis itself
thank you so much for being there
and most of all thank you so much for being my friends
u know how much it means having your loved ones sharing your most special day..
i love you guys so much.. and nothing can ever change that!
let's stay friends till death do us part.. seriously!

w.e.d.d.i.n.g

2009-07-13T09:13:00.000+08:00

gambar lain letak later sbb this is the only gambar yg ade kt desktop *malas nk search*